Spiritual Journey

He is my SuperMan

2011-10-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

# I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me#

And I do found mine...^^

Appearance : Bahaviour

2011-06-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Wondering about am I getiing older and older? Time flies, everything just keeps on changing day by day, again, I'm wondering...

Look at this pls...

No. 1

No.2

No. 3

No. 4

No. 5 ?? Still Pending...

Which one is nicer? I'm asking myself, but still no answer...haha

These were how I get changes starting from Jan 2011, at this middle of year 2011, I had just realized that appearance is not the most important thing in my life, the first will be how are you going to behave yourself.

You will get old once, but the behaviour will just make you get more mature in future.

Why must I care so much? Just do whatever I like, as long as i'm happy and no more regrets... That's it.

A Date with Ivana, 04062011

2011-06-12T04:33:00.000+08:00

I had a wonderful weekend with my beloved in Kayelle.

On the way...

It has been long time never meet my babe, i was so excited about the date.

Shopping non-stop, from Mid Valley to The Gardens, all sales and sales, because of Agong's birthday. * Wondering why I couldn't get this offer during my birthday as well.^^

Oh ya, look at this please friends...

This stupid juice cost me RM 11.80.

The most expensive fresh juice I had ever!!!

Don't look at the price please, cheating you!!!

By the way, what to do right? Since I bought it without asking price, so I couldn't blame anyone.

We bought lots...^^ without thinking. *But these 2 packs are from Mr K & Mr A.

We spend to reduce stress, but how I know I feel more stress after get the bills. Hahaha... When we realized that our purse are getting thiner, it was just too late..

Dinner at Italiannies The Gardens.

Classic Pizza.. Yum yum

* The Mango Shake is damn nice.

* The services are too bad, same to the crews!! But the food damn nice.

The feeling was too nice, but time flies... I couldn't stay back with her in the following days, I will miss her always.

A meaningful trip which let me felt warm and cheerful, it was short but at least I know I'm not alone when I need somebody else.

I gonna miss you, Ivana... Love.

2011, Newly Year

2011-02-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

Okay, CNY is ended, holiday is following as well, back to reality now... A brand new year been started since half and a month ago, everyone is back to his/her position.

2010 was not a good year, in my memory, I just left half year memories which is starting from July or August... The people, the things that I met before it, couldn't get back into my mind.

Maybe I should let it go and look forward, a brand new year which means to restart our life. We might did something wrong in previous year, now is the time for us to make correction and make it better.

Memory is a tool to enhance and beautify our life, make life more meaningful. However, daddy said, it's doesn't matter with I have it or not, because I can grab everything into my mind starting from now. You can look up, down, right or left but never look backward... Hahaha^^

Erm... This CNY I was quite busy, so... will update the photos next time... (I know this photo look damn emo.)

Gonna miss you all...

Especially my dearest A and K... Thanks for being around, I'm on my way. Loves.

Tired of dreaming.

2011-01-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

I'm tired seriously, while i'm stepping into next level of life, where are my choices? I couldn't find my way...

I'm tired, it's so hard to force myself of being this; I'm tired again, it's so easy to get back into that memories as well...

Used to be this, hard to be that... But i'm tired.

I should stop being this, and start to be that... Need to stabilize my life...

Stop partying every night, stop all those bad habits, I want a normal life, a simple and happy life... it seems easy, but I know it's hard to maintain.

However...

Holidays gonna end gonna back soon, i'm wondering is there any chances? And i'm wondering too is that an ending as well?

he mights don't know, but everything just sealed on my deepest heart, couldn't let go easily...
After get back to NYC, everything here will be just a dream... Again, he mights don't know, but I think i'm in love with him...

I pray and pray... I know it's still a dream at last... Better face the truth, rather than wiping up the tears in the late night.

It is just too exhausted... I need a hug and pls hug me tightly... At least I can feel you when I'm still here...

Family, Penang, Malaysia

2010-12-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

Can I just keep staying in Malaysia?

I miss Malaysia, I miss Penang so much... I miss my besties so much...

Or this is what should i say --->> I love my family.

因為愛

2010-09-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

Although I don't really understand what it is talking about, but i wish to share with you

Something really from my deep heart...

有些事情我也說不明白
想和你在一起為什麼捨不得分開
或許我軟弱也害怕失敗
但有你的笑容就能讓我再站起來

你曾問我是什麼令我對你難以忘懷
我也曾經想過這種感覺說不出來
我現在才明白

因為愛所以愛珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開你不在懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛所以愛讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬我才明白一切都是因為愛

有些事情我也說不明白
想和你在一起為什麼捨不得分開
或許我軟弱也害怕失敗
但有你的笑容就能讓我再站起來

你曾問我是什麼令我對你難以忘懷
我也曾經想過這種感覺說不出來
我現在才明白

因為愛所以愛珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開你不在懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛所以愛讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬我才明白一切都是因為愛

因為愛所以愛珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開你不在懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛所以愛讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬我才明白一切都是因為愛
*Copy from erm...don't know which website. Haha...

Everything just because of LOVE...

I'm great

2010-09-19T01:05:00.001+08:00

Have a great time with my buddies which from Malaysia this evening... Yea..I did enjoy the time with them seriously.

Okay,let's back to my life. Party non stop everyday, but I know how to take care of myself, please don't worry..

Look at the photo please, i'm great here... really. So, ANYONE who wanna come for visiting, please cancel it... thx

Yea,that's you... you should know who you are...

I'm talking bullshit here,okay,i should get back to my house party now...

However,i'm gonna fly to another places tomorrow,you will never know where I will be..

Cheer... As my friend said "Enjoy your life",I will always remember it.

I'm trying...

Drive safe

2010-09-05T20:20:00.001+08:00

When I was driving on the bridge, everything comes out in my mind...which is the accident, made everything gone...

Feel so regret, feel so remorse, I blame myself...I totally cannot overcome it.

I never tell, and never voice up to explain my mistake. This is the fact that couldn't be changed. Everything just had sealed on my heart forever...

Drive safe please all my friends, I don't want to lost anyone of you..

Yea, I still crying in the middle of the night, even though it had been happened in 2 weeks ago...

p/s: Babe, i miss you... How I wish you are here right now...

Magic Mouse

2010-06-27T00:07:00.001+08:00

I hate Magic Mouse!!!

'It tracks with precision on nearly every surface?', 'Magic Mouse uses powerful laser tracking that’s far more sensitive and responsive on more surfaces than traditional optical tracking' (Apple, 2010) But I can't even track it on glasses . Or should be still on a mousepad...

It costs me RM 229!!!

It's nice to be a mobile phone, but not for a mouse, PERHAPS. XD

Maybe I should say, I don't like Magic Mouse, but not I hate it.

Random

2010-06-20T16:54:00.001+08:00

Just back from Above & Beyond, headed to Sixty 9 after landed in Penang. I'm tired!!!

And been waited for more than 45 mins just for Balik Pulau ~~'FAMOUS'~~ Laksa, and it is not nice at all, wtf!!! Aston Koh!!! Stop wasting my time!!!

I need to rest seriously.

Italy vs New Zealand, of course I will support Italy.

I wish i'm there right now. Yup, i'm dreaming.

Fighting

2010-06-12T12:55:00.002+08:00

Fighting for my sickness recently, everyday medicine and treatment, but here comes another high fever...FML.

However, don't worry, everything goes well (I think).

No photos sharing for Italy!!! Just attached with 2 photos that taken months ago. Sorry, will update la!

Although I couldn't remember, but I hope I could once a day, because I don't want any part to be blanked in my memory.

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Opss, I gonna off for dinner preparation at Rasa Sayang. I think I need to take a nap first, there is sure another after party plan, I'm freaking tired la!!!

Love,
Ms N

Sleepless in Romie

2010-05-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

It is 5 something in the morning, and i'm awake now. Argghh...

I had toothache in few days before, killing me seriously. I need to say: "Morning, Romie." The piggy is still in his dreamland which never affected by me. I'm thinking about what will be my breakfast later at the same time with my toothache.

I want porridge!!! I'm here for around 2 weeks, and I never been in any of chinese restaurant, i miss rice muchie!!

I had 2 different type of cheese cake in last 2 days, baked cheese and blueberry cheese. Mr A told me that everytime when I not happy or cry, I must have a slice of cake. So, here I get. Actually I never realized it before told, but now i know, when I see the cakes, I will forget everything sadness and pay fully attention on the cakes. Oh ya, 1 from Mr A and another 1 from Mr D. Thx alot alot, hug.

Luckily you are here when I need accompany. Almost get to 6am, get a mic and shout for the piggy's awake. I need something to do now!!! Wake up everyone!!!

Where will be my next destination after Rome? hahaha... you will get updated soon. Miss you MAS.

Coach Store in Penang

2010-04-28T15:26:00.002+08:00

I had just received a email from my cousin. ( 9 something in the morning now, fan si ren!!!) Not even with breakfast!!

He wrote:" Girl, one of the famous brand is going to open a store in Gurney Plaza Penang. Guess what is it? " And i'm thinking :" Gucci? NoNo, LV? In new coming Paragon Penang la. Coach? Sien nia."

Seriously, the answer is COACH. COACH is going to open a shop in Gurney Plaza which replaces Versace. What has in my mind now is 'Sien lor...'

Anyway, just to inform everyone here. New COACH store is coming to Gurney Plaza soon. Although i'm fucking hate it.

Btw, why not launch another new brand in Gurney? Sien lor... Nevermind, i'm not around.

Who are you?

2010-04-13T17:57:00.001+08:00

I'm awake but at the same time something I had been lost.
"Who are you?", I keep asking everyone. I just remember about my family members and some of my friends. I couldn't remember some of you!

A guy named Aston Koh was the first person that I saw when I woke up, who is him?
I read through all my wrote blog which the password given by him also, my facebook, my msn.

I need to find out everything, if you knew me, please text to my hp, i'm happy if you provide me the info about who are you and also my past. It is hard to describe about my condition, I hope you text me especially the one who are very important to me.

In my memory, I know who is Alice, ChyiChyi, Sze Wei and WanHui.

I just want to make sure everything that I had been told is true, because i'm not totally lost memory!

Text me if you knew me, especially you are so important to Nicole.

Fake a Smile

2010-04-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

What should I response to my sickness now?
Counting the days everyday?
Keep reminding myself how many days I had left?
Counting about how many injections I had put on my skin?

What are the differences of these?

I had faked my smiles,
because... I feel really pain...sorry.

I wish he is here... At least I could be stronger.

Unfairness

2010-03-30T21:15:00.001+08:00

"As long as you were not been RAPED by him", said a person to a girl.

What do you think about this statement? How do you think about it?
Glad? Disappointed?

People are allowed to comment during the incident, but there is no more chance to voice out after the incident. Because you will be scolded, "You raised it up", said another person.

Unfair? Tell me, where is the fairness? Especially he/she is your beloved.

25%

2010-03-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

Is back in home for only half day and wondering about...
Should I take the risk just for the only 25%?
''Up to you'' they said.
Made me not brave enough to make any decision as well.
Dear, I wish you're here, at least give me a right direction,
at least make the path to be longer...
I miss you a lot.

You weep

2010-03-06T01:04:00.000+08:00

Girl never count how much had she paid,
even though she knew it is hard and she never quit.

There is always some madness in love,
but there is also always some reason in madness.

Guys think girls always angry for fun or nothing,
but guys never think that there is always some reason in madness.
Guys think girls always unreasonable,
but guys never pay efforts to find what is the reason.

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,
but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

Guys blame girls always think too much on non-sense,
but guys never think that sometimes it is their problems.
Guys request girls for stop talking or thinking for some problems,
but guys never think that the problem is still there even though doing nothing.

The one who loves you will make you weep,

you cry, you feel hurt, because of you love him.

Long long once ' I love you ', it does work.

* but guys feel annoying everytime when girls' tears drop, wtf.

I love my dear too. And he knows.

Bologna, see you next time.

2010-02-27T01:16:00.000+08:00

It is 12.45am, Saturday. I supposed to be at Hong Kong now, maybe hang+ing out with my dearest bros at Lan Kwai Fong, and waiting for flight to Milan later.

However, I'm still in Malaysia now and just finished my supper with dear. I didn't check-in this morning. I know i'm not ready for Bologna yet. And I too 'se bu de' my guy.

Many people might don't know about this, sorry for lying. The purpose that I leave is too complicated. And, sorry and thanks to Aston Koh and Louis Koh.

As I had promised with them, I will be there with them when i'm ready.

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This morning, when I signed in my Facebook, I saw this

Feel free to have a look on this

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=151668&id=678834274

This was what my dear's eldest bro took during CNY, I thought to fly to Bologna, so keep this as memory. But now, it is a photo album to make us stronger.

Thankkiu Ashton Hee, I love this.

Bologna, I love Penang more than you, because here got my dear. But I promise, I will be there when i'm ready, maybe with dear too.

Bologna, see you next time...

Again, sorry and thanks to Aston Koh and Louis Koh, always my dearest bros, I love you too...

Every Breath You Take

2010-02-25T10:33:00.000+08:00

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but its you I cant replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please...

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every breath you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Every move you make
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you

I love this song so much, which successfully influenced many of them. XD

The Police, I just know the only song. Seriously, I don't really know who are them, but at least I know the meaning of this song. As long as people can understand my feeling through this love song.

I hope you too.

The Sire Museum

2010-02-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

I was at The Sire Museum last Saturday with dear and eldest bro. To have a pre-birthday celebration with both of them.

How lucky there are, both of them were born in 22 February.

These are the dishes.

We were late which we supposed to reach around 7.30pm. Damn jam!!!

And, we enjoyed the food and environment and almost forget about Kek Lok Si after dinner, hahaha...

Unfortunately, there are not allowed to take photo, too many antiques in this Museum.

Happy 21st Birthday to my dear, I always love you...

CNY I

2010-02-18T16:18:00.000+08:00

CNY...

Sorry, I have not much time to update my blog. But, this is my little update for CNY 2010.

I was so busy these few days, food, angpao, gamble, party, drink & drunk. These were how I spent in these days.

Btw, I know how to play mahjong now. Muahahaha.... I know it is not a big matter.

Everyday reached home at least 3.30 am,wtf. I'm enjoying my CNY celebrations.

Party last night.

Seriously, please don't go club during CNY, fucking much people!!! We was like sandwiches and sardines, stuck in the club. But, it was quite enjoyable.

I'm going to off for dinner later, with dear's family.

p/s: To Aston Koh and Louis Koh, both of you had finished my 1983 lafite!!! I wanna kill both of you!!!

We didn't buy

2010-02-11T13:51:00.000+08:00

Shopping and shopping for CNY 2010...

Nicole at Forever21

Dear's turn, at Nike

Omg, the photos show that I don't have eyebrow, and my forehead looks like botak?

However, I can confirm that these clothes, me and dear didn't buy. muahahaha.... Otherwise I won't post here.

Red

2010-02-09T17:32:00.000+08:00

My hair color is same with my clothes color. Swt...

Chinese New Year must RED!!!

However, I bought all dark and black clothes this year. hahaha....

The hair color will scare you, when you see me, brighten than this! Everyone said: "So RED!!!"

Lol... New Year ma...

Gong Xi Fa Cai, Angpao 'fai ti' lai. xD

Last weekend before CNY

2010-02-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

I went to WC's house party, dear, Ms Khoo, Sam, TianPin and BoonLin.

And a Japanese liquor had been served, taste like Vodka plus a lot a lot of water. Don't how to describe la. We still finished it.

They played Wii, PS 3. It was so sien, bored seriously. We stayed until 2 something in the morning, left me the only girl at last, because Ms Khoo piiit after Wii.

Every time no matter who's house party, our gang will be the last group of leaving. Can say this is our culture la. Luckily this time we just played CID. No any after party plan. XD

p/s: WC kept breaking fart the whole night, the silent killer.

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Sunday, we do this. hahaha... How to call this? Kuih Kapek? Kuih Lapek? Aiya, cincai la...

Of course I didn't help anything, because I was lausai in that morning.

It reminded me that Chinese New Year (CNY) is coming, dear's 21st birthday is coming too. However, I don't feel any happiness for this coming CNY, maybe there is something bothering me all the while.

I want to spend more time with dear and my besties. I know I will miss them.

CNY comes faster, then should the time stopped, I just want remember these moments. I will remember every smile.

These were how I spent for my last weekend before CNY.

Ms Ribenna

2010-02-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

Everyone said Chinese New Year (CNY) must 'Ang ang ang', means all RED la. So, I had dyed my hair into red also. Purple red!!!

It is totally same with Ribenna's color. I think I should change my name now. wtf

I think I need some time to adapt it. It is not like totally can't accept, just it takes time. hahaha...

This is my story, and I heard one of my besties said that she also went for hair cut, but she cried. Because of cut until toooooo short already. Seriously she cried. Hahaha... Don't cry la babe.

So, both of us, temporary have no photos to show. Give us some time please...

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Another story, I went to Thaipusam celebration last Saturday with dear and friends.

Everyone brought a PROFESSIONAL DSLR except me, because it is too heavy for me, I left my Babie D 90 at home. Btw, they really looked so PRO!!! However, I haven't see the photos which taken by them. Hehe...

Taken by dear, I know it looks funny. I don't why he can get this photo.

Damn hot the weather, look at me, what did I wore, the weather was killing me, even now. After it, we went to somewhere which provides air-con, tada.... Coffee Island. Swt, seriously, Nicole anti this cafe.

My friend was busy+ing to play iPhone's game. Me and dear, nothing to do, so... simply take photossss....

Look at him, smile so fake. Lol...

It will be CNY after 2 more weeks, happy or unhappy, I also don't know... Dear tell me please... You still owed me somethings.

p/s: wish my red hair will look much better after today... hope I can adapt it ASAP!

Regret or not?

2010-01-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

Should I feel regret about it?

Finally, I had stopped what should happened, but why I didn't get any happiness now?
Trouble had been happened, what else I can do?

Ignore? Forget? Let go?
These are what I used to do,
thought to get some comforts after the truth,
but actually I think too much, should be nothing at last...

I regret about the truth, but never for what had been happened,
although it is a nightmare,
but sealed in my heart,
never get away...

I believe

2010-01-26T15:09:00.001+08:00

I believe, I know, I will be okay...

I become fearless, because of you,

Although... the process of it will be a little bit tough...

I do believe... and I pray...

I will be okay... Don't you think so?

First outing in year 2010

2010-01-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

I have a date with my besties yesterday, at Queensbay Mall, Penang. But kurang satu member, should be 5 persons, now left 4 persons.

Sze Wei!!! Why you don't want come back??!!! Stay at Kampar buat apa??!!! I miss you alot leh.

Lol.... What had been happened on both of them?

Romantic.XD

Shop for whole day but never try any clothes or buy anything. Headed to Kitschen. Btw, we were just playing around in the fitting room and we went in for 2 times. Hahaha...

When we get out from the fitting room, we felt so paiseh, because the people who were lining up there, their face so busuk. Hahaha... But we don't care!!!

Nvm, we just want to play gao gao, there are not much time to meet together in this short time. Maybe CNY???

We are waiting for the next outing. Must in 5 persons!!! Oh ya, another new member will be added soon. Hehehe...

Love you all babesss...

I'm really tired

2010-01-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

Back from GMC. Feel tired seriously.

I gonna do something important tomorrow, but now i totally have no idea. God, save me pls...

When I lost contact this whole day, people keep calling and text me to my handphone, but when I replied the calls and messages, the content just like care about himself.

Yes, i'm crying heavily right now. Why? Because I can't afford this kind of feeling anymore, once and once, never stopped. I keep giving chances, but people thought there is another chances waiting for him next.

I'm sad, i'm disappointed. Human are selfish, just know to think about himself/herself. Didn't know what the other side needs and wants. They do not know about their bad attitudes will just make things more even worst and the other side suffer.

No more chances for this kind of people. I'm really tired, I really feel enough. And, they won't care.

Saturday night

2010-01-17T14:12:00.000+08:00

Friends, finally I get the song's name. Thx dear so much, muackkkksss... Kris Allen- Live Like We're Dying.

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Saturday night, I went to Sunset Bistro with Wc, Meilin, Sam, and dear. Reached there at 12 midnight, actually I was very tired that time, but Meilin is going back KL on Sunway. So... Have fun ba...

We ordered this

And, we played Truth or Dare with iphone (seriously got no idea for games). I should say we played 'Truth' only, because Sam don't ALLOW to play Dare.

The wave was big and high, so faster finished our beer and quit. Me and Meilin wanna pee, really cannot tahan, hahaha... But, we kena halau by Park Royal's security guard. He said:" Hello, this is not the public toilet." We don't care!!! hahaha...

Then, we were filling 15 big satays which is RM1 each. Damn full. And skipping 100 songs in car while on the way back home. It was great time.

Today, Meilin is going back to KL. I can understand her feeling. I was like that last time. Even Sam, he putus cinta, run away to KL also.

What to do? Will be a wasted Sunday again.

A disgusting couple.

2010-01-15T18:26:00.000+08:00

It is so annoying!!! Feel that Facebook suddenly become Fri*ndster.

I'm get sick today, high fever and my chest not feeling well. Since there is so bored and I thought not to keep sleeping whole day, so I just on my lappy, to update my facebook. There are some people spam my facebook!!!!!!!! ARRRGGHHH!!!

A disgusting couple and their friends keep sending me the stupid link and want to vote for them. Seriously, vote doesn't matter, but the problem is the photo can't attract me totally. And I thought if I don't reply them, then should be okay. Now, they keep sending me the link in facebook and also msn!!! wtf

The photo is normal, shows a couple had been captured inside the photo, that's it. The photographer is okay, but the models.... one words 'YUCKKSSS'!!! Pui!!!!

Pls... If photos posted to be shown to others, then still consider okay; but now relates to voting. OMG!!! Sumor ask me vote for it!!! Pls... You guys are really so annoying. I'm sick, although i'm bored, but facebook is not for voting, and show off your disgusting photos.

Get away!!! No no, it should be GET LOST!!!!

Zuo Zuo

2010-01-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

3 years ago, 13th Jan 2007, I lost my great grandma. I still miss her so much like last time.

I still remember that time I just finished my SPM exam, also received my driving license, and was thinking about how to have fun and bring my sicked late great grandma to any places under my fetching. However, in an early morning, someone woke me up from my dream, and I knew that she had been left in few minutes ago.

And, there were some conflicts happened between our relatives, so... our family members have no chance to hold a memorial ceremony for my love late great grandma, we can only pray inside our deep heart. And, we do.

I should say i'm the luckiest one, because when I was a child, I got the chances to travel with her and took photos together. It was so memorable for me.

This was the last photo that my late great grandma took, she smiled. Yea, we do miss her smile.

She sicked heavily, but she never give up. She always requested for seeing doctor, until few days before left. She told that she had no more energy for fighting with the serious illness. And asked us don't cry. But we cried in the deep heart also.

Zuo Zuo (great grandma), we do miss you all the while. You wanted me to learn not to give up easily, I will listen to you, I will take medicine everyday, I promise... I will fight for you.

Bless me, to give more energy for fighting with my illness. I know you are there and seeing me all the while in heaven.

I miss you, and I love you...

Madding vs Disappointing

2010-01-11T23:55:00.001+08:00

Have you ever think that what will be happened when you grow old? Look at your grandma or grandpha, do you know what they are thinking now? Then what do you think about them?

Today I went to hospital, i just saw so many things. It is hurt seriously.

An old lady, which just done her operation and was doing checkup, and I saw a woman kept scolding about that old lady. I don't know what was going on, so I just kept looking at them, especially old lady...

Old lady was sitting on wheelchair, keep quietly all the time, I just heard the woman scolding, complaining... Everything related to the old lady, dislike the old lady which so troublesome to bother the woman and have to pay for her medical fees.

Old lady still kept quietly, suddenly I heard " Sorry, this is the last time for my medical checkup" said old lady, and her tears dropped. I saw her disappointment. Her eyes and nose were red.

I know why she was so disappointed, it is not because of this was her last checkup, but how this woman treated her. And old lady said " I wanna go home, the old folk house". She treats that old folk house as her 'house'. Everyone was looking at them that time, the hospital is quiet, but there was some sounds of complaining. Few minutes later, one leave with madding, another one with disappointing.

I must say, that woman is the old lady's daughter!

Would you like to see this ending while you grow old? Old lady, old man, They are human also, they do need love and care, as we do.

Ah ma, ah gong, I love you. I wish I can be with you while I can. I'm so selfish, i'm not afraid of dead, but I afraid of loss.

WanHui's wedding 31.12.2009

2010-01-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

Last Thursday was my besty's wedding, wohooo.... Whole gang of us head to the wedding dinner which placed at Parit Buntar, it's sound far..hmmm...

Alice, Chyi Chyi, Sze Wei and me were prepared well for WanHui's wedding dinner. Kin cheong, kin cheong, Alice and Chyi Chyi went for make-up early in the noon. Btw, both of them were late! Because of the traffic jam in PENANG!!!

Wanhui was so pretty that night, everyone just "wah, wah, wah..." when saw her. Chen (WanHui's husband) should feel very proud I think.

After the dinner, we went to WanHui's house, chit chat dekat sana until 12 midnight. Then we only get back to my house, and my house was so happening that night, because of 3 of my besties were stayed together with me.

We crazy whole night and took burgers as our supper. We still took a lot of photos in my room, but sorry, I can't show it. Hahaha... All slept at 2 something except Alice, because she was sleepless whole night. Hahaha...

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The next morning, we all supposed to woke up at 7am which Chyi Chyi said she already set the alarm clock, but the alarm never rang in the morning, and she never wake us up, arrrgghhh!!! However, we still considered not really late when we reached Wanhui's house. (Actually abit late la.)

But, 4 of us still got time to take photo while we reached WanHui's house. XD

Opssss... I know i'm pretty, but i'm not the bride. hahaha...

All in white, the flowers which we tied on our arms were made by WanHui.

The pretty bride.

4 of us again.

WanHui's parent and sister ( bridemaid).

After the photo shooting period, we faster took our breakfast which prepared by WanHui's family. It was so delicious.

"Pin, pin, pin..."The bridegroom is coming.

Play the bridegroom and bridesman first. Muahaha...

I'm the big sister, must listen to me first.

Opsss... What is going on? Shy shy...

Finally, the flower is get the the bride. Look, WanHui looked so happy.

After done all the things, get back to bridegroom's house.

After this photo, we were rushing to go back.

Oh ya, the red shirt guy is dear, also our photographer. Hahaha...

WanHui's lovely new room.

We hope WanHui can get the happiness ever after. The new life had been started from that day, everything is new. Stay happily.

Btw, 5 of us will not always meet together start from that day. The life is different right now, but I know our friendship will never be ended.

Love you all, my besties.

And, anyone who want the photos, please e-mail to nicole8368@gmail.com or leave comment/message in my facebook. I will reply as soon as possible. Thank you.

p/s: Special thanks to the photographer which took so many photos. XD

Twenty Ten

2009-12-31T17:12:00.000+08:00

Nicole is back!!! Back to my bloggy.

Just came back from my best friend's wedding, so tired... Actually it started since last night, boh-eng whole night seriously. I need a break.

Going for New Year Celebration 2010 later, liquor still, but I don't think you guys will see me at any clubs later. Countdown at home.

Twenty Ten (2010), I know it is not really the best year, but i'm waiting for it's coming. Will update my blog soon.

Rest now, crazy later.

Off

2009-12-18T14:28:00.000+08:00

Nicole needs to off for few days.

Will update the blog as soon as possible.

Hope everything will be okay.

Anything just leave her messages, Sorry for anyone who can't reach her.

God bless.

People are selfish

2009-12-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

Chest pain, it comes so frequent these few days. But, what makes me pain the most is there is no one really listening to me. Even there are someone really listening, but their mind are fulled with blaming...

I don't mind about chest pain, what i mind is care. I admit that i'm in bad mood now, and my chest pain seriously, feel like fainted anytime.

I'm wondering that why people are so selfish? I hardly mention about my sick recently, but people treat it as i'm recovering. Anyhow, I already done what am I supposed to do, I will leave soon. When i'm not here, I hope that there is no one will remember me.

People are selfish, when they need you, they will do anything for you, to fulfill you, because they need your helps; but when they no need you, they will not even find you or call you.

When you need them, who cares? They are just pretending and lying you all the time.

'PEOPLE', don't wait until can't find someone when he/she is not here anymore, when he/she is left only realized about importance, let me tell you, it is too late...

Goodnight

06-12-2009

2009-12-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

I went to KDU again today, together with dear. I know, it is not important. Btw, today KDU's library is closed, wtf. And I wait him at Canteen. lol...

Today, I have my another off day again. So I decided to head to Penang early in the morning with dear. Happy... Although I have to wake up early in the morning.

I had really enjoyed my holiday yesterday. I went to Kek Lok Si with Irene, Soon Hua and dear. Head to have breakfast, dim sum at BM. Then moved faster to Kek Lok Si after it, because we were late!!!

When we reached there, there was 9 something in the morning, but we suddenly saw the banners which wrote the celebration will be started at 8 am. OMG!!! We were really late!!! And, we can't get any parking there. But, luckily the weather is so good, so that my mood is good also.

There were so jammmm!!! Playing around in the car.

This was the first photo that we took that day. At that moment, everyone was looking at us, 4 crazy Penang Kia playing around.

After that, we headed to Kuan Yin statue by cable car.

Seriously, the cable car is better than Penang Hill's cable car, a lot a lot, at least got air-con.

Me and Irene bought Carnations.

Kek Lok Si trip end, the next destination is Surname Bridge.

While I walked to the Surname Bridge, dear took this photo. Don't laugh pls, I also don't know what I did.

I will not talk so much about Surname Bridge, because I had posted it before. Then we went to PC fair after it.

" When you are too addicted to PC fair, then you will become like this" said dear.

PC fair? Actually there were no cheap PC at PC fair compared to the retail shops, just they gave a lot of free gifts. So, don't be cheated by those sellers. You might spend more at there.

I was so happy yesterday, because I spent my day with them. I wish there still got chances for our next trip. I really appreciate the time.

There are still a lot of photos, I will upload it in facebook soon.

I really feel happy when I together with him, I really enjoy my time. I hope he appreciate too, because he knows what am I meant. Lastly, I wish there will be some miracle happened. I do pray everyday, every moment.

p/s: Dear, remember what you have promised me!!! XD

Love

"Pipo, pipo, pipo..."

2009-12-05T23:32:00.000+08:00

I'm off today... Supposed to be happy, but how I know that I have to get in to the GMC again for treatment. OMG!!!

Today is a bad day, so many accidents on the roads, so many weird things happened. Penang bridge was fucking jam for nothing, the highway also full with police blocking, just now on the way back home, I saw so many accidents. Damn sad.

And, just now went for dinner with dear, same case, on the way home, I saw an ambulance,"Pipo, pipo, pipo..." Another accident happened again. Today, at GMC, on the road, I just heard "pipo, pipo, pipo..." That's all.

Anyway, I hope tomorrow will be a good day, because i'm going to enjoy my only 1 day of holiday. So scare to hear this kind of sound.

I should feel lucky and happy, because I get more time compare with them, at least I still got 1 more year to go.

Enjoy the left time, this is what can I do.

p/s: Today is bad day!!!

Should I go or not?

2009-12-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

December is reached, the weather is different, cold and keep raining this few days. Btw, Sunway Carnival Mall is snowing everyday. Hahaha... I can feel that the Christmas is coming.

I'm wondering this year, don't know whether I got chance to celebrate Christmas or not, my sick is so annoying.

What can I do in 5 years time? Or maybe 1 year? Too short for me. I'm thinking everyday. I hope there are some solutions for me.

I just want to do something which I like. Italy, I don't think it is a suitable choice for me. But everyone wants me to go, why?

Tell me please, should I go or not? 50:50, thinking going or not. Everything will be changed if I going. Actually few days ago I already decided that i'm not going, but... something happened, they want me to re-consider again.

This morning, should be mid-night, I felll down from the stair again, and I have been sent to hospital quickly. Doctor had been warning me that I can't fall down again, but who knows what will happen on next?

Doctor said a lot of things to me, and I know my time is getting lesser, it is really serious, I saw purple, nose bleeding... I know there are so many things I might not do it on time. However, I got my reasons, the reality forces me to do so.

And I know the Italy's weather is less than 5'c, damn cold!!!

I choose to stay back, because of my dear. I wish to see him everyday while I still can, but something made me so disappointed. And if I going to Italy, who will accompany him all the while. When I choose to go KL for my studies, it was really a wrong decision. I don't want to repeat the selfish mistake again.

Even I stay back, it is not for my health, but it is for dear. I just want to use my left time to accompany him, at least do something for him. Maybe there will be some miracle happen, but at least I try to do all the things which I like now. No more regret.

I wish he can hear me. I just want to do something for him. This is the only thing which I can do for him.

Tell me, should I go or not?

Is time to off. Although i'm sitting in the mall with doing nth.

Pray.

Another Nicole

2009-11-22T01:08:00.001+08:00

I supposed to help my dad sunway today, but I was fainted on the way while working.

And, 3rd time for GMC. WTH!!!

This Nicole, no more!!!

This one, No more also!!!

This Nicole will do. Cry heavily every night. With messy hair and ugly face.

I wish to have some outing, like last time. Long time never enjoy the days. I need some fresh air.

Pain in my disease, as I said, i'm tired. And I know that it is getting serious day by day. Maybe my outlook will be like nothing, because i'm pretending all the time, to be more better and okay in front of you all.

Seriously, Nicole is not okay at all. Nose bleeding, fainted, breathlessly. And alot of serious things, sorry dear, I didn't tell you, and I can't tell you.

I wish to call ' DEAR ' loudly, can you hear me? I'm paining, suffering, do you know it? Sorry for my selfishness, I just want to spend more days with you. There are not so less thing that you should know, but you know I have not much time. Can you hear me? I'm crying heavily, do you know it?

I wish... to get a happy day, even really just the only day.

I really have not much time.

Goodnight.

Sometimes I feel lifeless.

2009-11-21T02:11:00.000+08:00

Nicole is back, she meant back from hospital.

Want to know what happened on me? I just can say it is a ' DUA DAI JI ' ( big problem ).

My face looked so chan, because 4 days never bath. I know it was busuk.

My hands full with pinholes now. It is pain, everyday different treatments, different level of pain. I know it is serious. I cried at hospital every night, even now.

I'm so tired, I need a shoulder now. I have no confident and energy to face the disease. No more badminton, no more swimming, no more exercises!!!

I'm so worry that there is no tomorrow for me. Who is by my side now? No one.

Sorry, I quit. I really not afford to do these much of things anymore. It is not temporary, but permanent. Pls understand me, pls understand what I really want now.

Rest is for further more, but I have no time for rest. I just want to do more things which I like and love. If you want to be more happy, pls give me what I want. I will really appreciate.

I must keep walking to make all the dreams come true. I really don't want like the late him. You know what I mean.

Sometimes, it is really lifeless.

Goodnight

Goodbye

2009-11-16T14:58:00.000+08:00

Thank you for concerns, but I will not update my blog temporary.

Because Nicole is hospitalized, with serious disease.

Goodbye everyone.

God bless you.

Goodluck everyone.

Love.

Smile or cry?

2009-11-13T13:52:00.000+08:00

I was going to watch 2012 with dear yesterday. Honestly, the movie was really disappointed me. But, at least I can know how am I going to die in year 2012. It is really scary.

And, finally, I get my birthday cake for year 2009. Although it is late, but at least dear didn't break promise at last.

A white forest.

A birthday had been sang again, I know it is touching.

Look at his face!!!

This photo will be better.

Btw, while I was so happy last night, I also get another pain, although it was happened in a few days before, and dear help me to enswathe my scalded wound.

And it looks so serious. Hahaha...

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This morning, I supposed to go and see doctor for medical check up. When I woke up, I was still in the happiness but everything is cancelled at last. Even my lunch.

And, I fell down from upstair while I was so dizzy just now attached with my chest pain hardly. What to do now? I really very angry right now, crying for my pain. But, who knows? Just wondering about why i'm facing so much of pain? And why the promises will not keep going on?

I hate argument, that's why I choose to quit, I rather sit at home with nothing. Maybe there is no lies, but it hurts me deeply again.

Pizzaria Hard Rock Penang

2009-11-09T02:26:00.003+08:00

I was thinking about what should I do on my Sunday. Finally, my dad gave me a 'kangtao'. He made a reservation at Hard Rock Hotel for dinner, but he missed it, ask me go and eat with dear.

Wohoo..., that was a good idea. Actually so many things happen these few days, I really sad enough, keep crying, but who can understand my feeling? No matter what I do, I still can't change the consequences.

I really feel bad enough, but no one is going to listen, and treat me something like enemy. What to do then? I just want to back to last time, the happy daysss...

Okay, okay, stop talking about the sadness. I went to dinner at Hard Rock Pizzaria with dear. Sunday night, this is what we can do. But dear seems like still got alot of assignment, not enjoy the food. Aih... don't know, maybe I think too much already.

The BBQ Buffet cost RM 55++ per person, the food is considered not bad, but damn it, rainning while we were eating in the half way. Nevermind, it was liked not really affect us.

We keep on enjoying the food.

This are some of our food, because of toooo full, then we give up for other delicious food. Let's talk about the environment, is it quite nice, seaside, with wind blowing, and some soft music, it is good for dinner as well.

We were enjoying our dinner, and kept taking photos as we always do it.

Dear sien until almost eat the candle, wtf... so pity. T.T

Btw, before we left Hard Rock Hotel, we met 2 Germans. They are so nice and friendly. When we were taking dinner, both of them keep smilling on us, because me and dear were doing some stupid stuffs, maybe it made them feel funny. hahaha...

We went and say goodbye to them, since they are so nice. However, we have a talk for almost 15 mins, and seriously they are really nice. Wohoho... I got 2 more Germany's friends. Hahah...

We took photos and exchange the e-mail address, hope to keep in touch as well.

Tom, ShunJie(dear), Nicole(me), Martin

Martin is so so tall, and i'm the shortest one. Swt...

Anyway, it was a nice dinner. The service is nice, the food is nice also, especially the sausage, because dear love it, maybe he love it more than me. T.T

Is time to bed, goodnight.

I hope everything will be okay in the coming next morning.

God bless...

Unforgivable

2009-11-05T22:47:00.000+08:00

My parent just came back from TianJin last night, there are a lot of souveniers from China, except me. I get 2 bottles of Absolute from KLIA. I think I should feel happy, at least I got it.

And, I was scalded by boiled oil last night, it is pain, even now. What a bad day? But, who cares?

Today, I get this from my dad.

Why I will get this? Because I told my dad I like this brand, Sean John Fragrances. My dad bought it because of he bought nothing for me from China. But why I like this brand?

It is because someone told me about Sean John, and he is using it too. The fragrance name 'Unforgivable'...

Today, I get this, it is like a story behind, it is really unforgivable... Like fate...It is likes predestine...

I do like this fragrance. However, it appeared in the inappropriate time...

It makes my tear dropping...

A present from daddy

2009-10-31T17:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I fetched my family to airport, they are going to TianJin, China for few days. On the way to airport, I was wondering about why my dad didn't give me any present for birthday, so disappointed. Haizzz...

And, since my parent is not here, so I decided to stay with my sister last night. In the late night, I wanted to sleep after checked my emails. However, dada!!!! See...

My sister suddenly gave me this, and she said the necklace is presented by dad. Wohoooo... Damn happy last night. Hahaha...

I have long time never received any present from dad, really surprisingly.

And i'm waiting my dad to come back from China, because I know there are still alot of present and souvenirs waiting for me. XD

Thank you, daddy. Although I have been waiting for long time, haha... But I really suka the present, as you presented a pair of rings for me in last few years before.

Love

Kampar, Utar vs Taylor

2009-10-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

Guess where am I now?

Hahaha... Kampar + ing...

On the way to Penang, I decided to head to Kampar to find my lovely best friends, because I really miss them so much...

Today, I did something which make me so nervous and excited, hahaha... I went to Utar and attended the lecture together my best friends, wohooo...

While I walking into the lecture hall, I saw alot of my ex-coursemates. I think they also feel surprise, because Nicole is appeared in Utar suddenly. Hahaha...

Utar and Taylor, what is the difference? Errrrmmm... Utar's lecturer takes 'Crocodile' as example while lecturing the class; but Taylor's lecturer uses 'Lacoste' as teaching material. And, the example which given by Utar's students is 'Padini', but Taylor's students mention about 'Zara', can you see the differences?

There are a lot of big differences in between these 2 universities, but... the lecture hall is quite comfortable compare to Taylor's TBS KT1. Utar's lecture hall is really like a standard hall, but TBS KT1 is like a court. Yeee... Don't like it.

And I will be stayed at Kampar tonight and sleep together with my buddies, haha... I really enjoy the night. One night in Kampar...

Just hope time will be stopped here, so that I can spend more time with them. Pray***

That's all for tonight.

Goodnight.

How to make it bigger?

2009-10-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

Nicole is going to bankrupt...

My mood is too bad recently, not because of homesick ( although I do ), but i'm going to bankrupt soon, no doubt, this is a truth.

I just left this little bit of money, I don't how to survive in Subang. Start from now, I need to control my daily expenses, because I really have not much of money now. Sad to say this, it is like keep reminding me.

This is my first time, I mean going to bankrupt. Don't ask me why, I already told so many times. I more week to go, and today is just only Friday. OMG!!! Kill me please... Everyday Milo + biscuits or Cintan Mee, damn it... Really don't like this kind of life.

However, maybe this is good for me also, Nicole had never stay in this kind of situation, just let her exprience it, good for future also. (Comforting myself)

Hope to go back Penang faster, so that I won't be so suffered. Have you all calculate that how much 1 person needs to spend for 1 week in Subang?? RM 10++, I will try to survive in the following days, pray for me please...

Feel like want to cry, but I not dare to do so, I know dear will scold me. But even I cry, I also can't let him know, he will scold me too. Looking at my RM 10++, what else I can do?

Dreaming for making it bigger, I need to tie up my little tummy, so that I won't eat so much.

Suddenly feel that life is so hard, or maybe I think so much. But I really feel suffer right now. Again, finding someone to talk to, i'm emo+ing now.

I want to cry, miss your shoulder and big hug. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't cry, but the tears keep falling without my control.

Goodnight

Nicole is not happy today!!!

2009-10-22T22:49:00.000+08:00

It is a raining day today, my mood is getting down and down.

Nicole is not happy today!!!!!!!!!!!

Suddenly need someone to talk to, but where to find? Dear is doing assignment, best friends are emo-ing in Kampar. Omg! God saves me please...

I know if there is anyone who talk to me now, the person might get scolded. But I still need someone to talk to.

I'm not the pity one, but I know everyone got his/her own problems, as me too. We need someone to talk to ( actually is need that person to release the emotion,XD ). To help us solve the problems, but i'm wondering now, who can I find and talk to???

I miss my dear, I miss Penang, I wish to go home, but I know it is impossible.

Trying my best to do well everything, I wish he is always supporting me.

emo night, T.T

Goodnight

Happy Birthday to Nicole, Part II

2009-10-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

Is time for me to continue my bloggy. Although i'm so free these 2 weeks, but the pressure is starting to come to me. I can feel it.

Nothing really special happened in my birthday, because I need to go back to Subang on the next day, shittt!!! Hate it!!! Just a normal dinner with dear at a bulgarian restaurant. The food is not bad, consider okay. However, I have been waiting for my dessert for more than 30 mins. wth!!!

I need to say sorry here, because that day was too rush, and I left all the photos in my babie D 90, and it is at Penang now, i know wtf. So, no photos here. Hehe...

And I know you all will ask me what was dear presented for me right? Firstly is flower.

The second time dear bought me flowers. The first time was during the valentine. XD

A little bit surprise and touching actually.

And dear bought me a new ipod Shuffle.Wohoo... I like it, although I already got an ipod Nano. Btw, the ipod is at Penang now, because i'm at Subang. Hahaha... Can't wait to see my present.

That day was too rush, we don't even have time to take photos together, so sad. Want to cry when I think of this. Hope these 2 weeks go faster, then I can go back to Penang again.

The birthday wishes.... Ermmm... I know dear know it.

What i hope now is everything bad can go faster, because I know the good things are waiting for me all the time. ( hope is totally different with my birthday wishes.)

Oh ya, I do miss my dear so much, and I hope he says the same thing to me too in his blog!!! But i know it is impossible. Sad...

Is time to bed

Goodnight

Happy Birthday to Nicole

2009-10-18T13:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Last night, Nicole and dear with his buddies, we went to Haagen Dazs. Ice-cream, I love it, especially Haagen Dazs.

While we were waiting for WC them and also our ice-cream, look at dear and Chris first.

They were checking LiveScore. Wth! Because last night got match, ManUnited vs Bolton, 2 vs 1, horrraaayy.... Even Aston Villa vs Chelsea, also 2 vs 1. Hahaha.... Maybe because of my birthday la.

Btw, WC's face looked so down, because Chelsea loss.

We ordered Flower Blossom.

We ordered only 1 type of coco ice-cream, because Chris don't like coco, weird. He don't like the taste. swt^^

We went to Mcd after it, Mcd again. Full house there, because of matches.

I'm going out with dear later, I wish... Shhhhhhhhh... Should be a secret. Hahahaha...

Say again, Happy Birthday to Nicole.

Cheerssss

Early Bird

2009-10-14T10:27:00.003+08:00

I'm the early bird today. Keep up all the sadness, and prepare for the every next morning. I'm trying to make myself better.

Well, i'm at Gurney Starbucks now, i'm the first customer today, and I reached at 8.47am which their business hours is starting at 9am. Hahaha... Enjoying my breakfast with a cup of Caramel Chocolate. Sounds relaxing right? Because I have been done all my assignments. Wheee...

Dear is in the class right now, and i'm waiting for him. It is a rainy day, feel cold, but i'm really enjoying. It is likes holiday (assignments all done), although I still got 1 month to go.

I was too busy in last few weeks, I should say I was too busy after Taylor. Maybe I really should take a break, and think of what I really want in my life.
We keep on rushing our stuffs everyday, every moment, but we had ignored so many things in our life. Once we slow down our steps, we only see there are so many things that we never seem before.

Btw, here is some gossip aunties around me, arguing about OldTown With Coffee and Starbucks Coffee, with Malaysia broken English. Hahaha...

Take a seat and have a coffee in a coffee shop, look around the environment and people who are walking, talking around you.
You may feel that you are the lucky one.

I love Starbucks, it makes me alive.

Starting from now

2009-10-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

Today, I went to church with my roommate, Ivana. I pray for everything, my studies, health, for those people who love, I just pray. I wish everything will be okay, tomorrow will be another good day, I believe.

I just received a message from dear, he is busy+ing with her late cousin's funeral. He is sad to see all of his family members are crying heavily in the funeral. One of his cousin sister was fainted after cried. Although i'm not there, but I really can feel that how close the relationship there are.

My heart is pain suddenly, I believe that there is no one like to see any of his/her family member leave away, the feeling is hard to describe, especially in this case.

There are still got many things we can do right now. We refused to do many thing in the past, maybe we have not be ready yet, maybe we hate to do so, but one thing is time keeps running every moment, we can't even stop the time.

For example, I took a nap from 3pm to 5pm in 11 October 2009, that's mean there is no more 3pm to 5pm in 11 October 2009 anymore in future. Time can be past easily, we regret in past. However, we can turn the regret into appreciate start from now. We can capture every moment start from now.

These few days my emotion is up and down again, I just didn't show it, because I know dear is sad right now, I shouldn't bother him anymore. Nicole loves to cry, but she enjoys the feeling after cry, because there is another good day to her again.

There is nothing stronger than willingness. As long as we want to do, we are willing to do, I don't think we will get a bad result at last.

I'm waiting for dear's message all the time, although dear is busy, I can't get his messages sometimes, but once I had received his messages, I feel appreciate, because he is still there for me, he is still by my side.

That's all for today.

God bless you.

Goodnight.

Life is short

2009-10-10T19:18:00.003+08:00

Something happened early in the yesterday morning, scared me when I just woke up and still in a sleepy face. Dear's eldest cousin brother suddenly passed away in the early morning...
With a unreasonable reason... I think I should say no reason.

He is just 31 years old, and has 2 little kids with a wife, everything was too sudden, no one can accept this tragedy. It was not an accident, also not a sick, and there was no any hints before he passed away. He was same with normal people, watched tv until late night before slept, but he never thought that he wouldn't see his family in the next morning.

Doctor said there is no any problem in his brain and body when he operated it. Anyway, we have to wait for 4 months to get the detail report.

I really don't know what to say when I heard this, I can't go back at the first time, because I got a lot of assignments to due on the following week. What can I do is just pray for him.

I can feel how his family feel right now, because I just lost my dearests in few years before. I understand. Life is really short...

I have learned from this tragedy, we should appreciate everything we got now, we should do whatever we like now, we should care anyone who we love... because we are lucky, we are still alive.
We still have abilities to love, care, talk... There are what we got right now.

Life is not under our control, we try to run our life, but not stop, to make it prettier, meaningful. We might loss anything in the next morning, we should start to appreciate by today, or learn it starting from now.

You should feel happy when your door alarm is ringing or open, because maybe your lovely family members are back, because they are still by your side. For couples, you should feel happy too when your partner always argue with you, because it shows that there is another person care about you.

Again, life is short, I want to shout it out here.

I LOVE YOU, DEAR!!! I'm happy that you're still by my side, we can't avoid arguments, but at least we love each other. Yes, we are the lucky one.

I hope everyone will appreciate what we got right now, we don't like this word ' regret '.

Love

I wish...

2009-10-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

Today is not my day. Even though I have been going out with Michelle for lunch today, it still cant change my mood.

Last few days, there was some misunderstanding happened between me and family, and my dad not allowed me to go back during my birthday weekend. That's mean I have to stay back for my lonely birthday. Yea, I'm crying for it.

No other choices for me.What should I do then? Birthday maybe not really a big day, but I really don't want to stay here alone.

Is there any ideas to help me? I've been waiting for so long, from the that day I came back, I thought I just need to suffer for these 3 weeks, but now...

Even after assignment dued, I don't think I will smile again.

I don't understand why people can't feel how much I miss Penang.

I can give up any celebration and present to get to go home,

the important thing is go home.

I just ever request for once to go back on my birthday, but why there is not allowed? Just only once...

The only one thing to make me feel happy now is not tell me what you are going to present me, but it is let me go home...

I wish... I really can go home...

Bitch of the bitches

2009-10-05T22:13:00.001+08:00

What should I blog today? Keep on thinking today, feel like want to update my blog, but there is no title.

I'm sick, head is heavy, feel uncomfortable.

Don't know what to do.

However, there are something so annoying these few days. Since those busybody people are always reading my blog, then I won't keep it as secret, I will shout it out here!!! You know who you are.

First, thx for reading my blog, those kepo ji. I know you care about what had happened between me and dear, you are desperately to get to know it. Don't worry, I will just write it all here as much as I can, to fulfill your needs!!!

You are waiting to see something bad happen, I know it, bitchy!!!

Second, this is special for my college's friend. I had mentioned so many times that I got boyfriend, please don't disturb me. Not for the guy, but girl. Yea, i'm talking about you. Stop guessing and acting. I have a good relationship with my dear, I no need to find any opportunity cost for any of the relationship, it really sounds like my lecturer teaching marketing concept!!!

Stop pretenting and acting, you are so disgusting!!!

I'm wondering why all are bitches, and like to do all stupid and terrible things. Can you all go away from my life? Maybe I can't understand you all, because you all are doing something which normal people wouldn't do!!! As I said, you are bitch!!!

Don't always link your ex with me, i'm not so free to play with you. Don't forget, I never do anything wrong in this problem, you might be the victim, but i'm the poor innocent party!!! Your attitudes are so annoying, better tie up your ex if you still keep dreaming about he is yours!!!

These are what you are, Spoil my mood!!!

Goodnight.

Happy 2nd Anniversary

2009-10-04T02:10:00.000+08:00

Damn emo today, my mood is not good totally. Just try to make myself busy and busy all the time. And can't even talk nicely to anyone. One word, crazy. Nicole is crazy.

I'm facing too much of the pressure, I can't use to this kind of pressure, everything in my mind is negative, really can't think it nicely. Cry and cry, I know it doesn't work, but I really have no choice. I need something to release my emotion.

At last, I argued with dear. I wish he knows that i'm very suffer from those pressure, I know i'm not the one who having these pressure, but i'm very suffer now.

Today, 4th Oct 2009 is our 2nd Anniversary. But, dear is celebrating Mooncake festival with his buddies, and i'm blogging alone in hostel. Suddenly feel likes everything is a lie. Something what he did is totally not fair to me. I'm sad.

No celebration for 2nd anniversary, no accompany, what also don't have. Not a very special day, because we are doing something different at the same time. I should say, I'm sad.

Actually I really don't know what to blog today, just random. I'm in depression, who knows it? I don't think anyone know it.

Once I step forward, I think everything will be fine. Oh ya, Nicole is going insane.

Anyway, Happy 2nd Anniversary. I love my dear, I wish... I know he know it.

Goodnight.

ManUnited's jersey with more extra marks

2009-10-01T15:03:00.000+08:00

Just back from class. And i'm sick today. Fever and flu come together, make me can't concentrate on my studies.

Just hand up my marketing assignment 2 today, means I still got 5 more to go, wtf!!! I'm sick, I really how to do the rest of the assignments. Same thing, today got quiz in the marketing class, this is the last 2nd quiz, there will be the last quiz for the coming week.

I wore Man United's jersey to college today, because last night got match, hahaha... And my tutor is also the fans of Man United, now i only know it. And he said," Nicole, you are the Man United's fans? ( he saw i was wearing the jersey ), then you will get more extra marks for the quiz today." Hahaha... Everyone shocked there.

I know he is kidding, but in other way, maybe he really will give me more extra marks. Haahaha... I know i'm dreaming, as i'm sick, I feel so blur right now.

Wear ManUnited's jersey get extra marks, then I think I should wear more times. Hahaha...

Btw, my mood is not really good right now. Something happened today, really spoil my mood again.

Bye.

Up and Down

2009-09-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

Is time to start my emo post again, i just can say, sorry, I really so emo today.

My mood never change into better since the day that I came back from Penang. Yea, you are right, I miss my dear. And I feel pressure enough at Subang. A lot of assignments are waiting for me, all are individual work, wtf!!!

I'm just like rushing my time in Taylor, just keep doing assignments, everyday assignment and assignment. Maybe i'm not used to this kind of pressure suddenly, the big changes is totally become a pressure for me.

Degree life is really totally big different with diploma. I can't sleep everyday, and I just force myself to sleep in the middle of the nights recently. Don't know who to find in the late night, don't who should I find in the midnight. I tried to call dear, but we just like made the things more even worst, for example argue.

What should I do when I sleepless in the middle of the nights? Can you all tell me? Although I just came back for 2 days, but its likes 2 weeks already, the time is walking but not running. No matter how busy I made myself, the time is hard to past.

A special feeling, when I was at Penang, I will feel happy and relax no matter how many assignments that i'm handling now. But when i'm at Subang, everything goes wrong, I don't have a clear mind, and hard to see my smile.

I'm getting bad, dear is starting her new college life right now, everyday morning class, that's mean he need to sleep early, but I know sometimes he just want to accompany me and don't want to sleep early. I feel so remorse, and I tried to lie him that i'm going to sleep, so that he will sleep too. However, it is not really work. I was sleepless at the night, but if dear is sleeping, then who should I talk to?

One more bad thing, I fake my smile, so that dear won't see. It is hard for me, but at least he won't worry me. No matter what am I trying to do now is just not try to make dear worry about me. Because I know he will not happy if i'm not happy too.

Tell me what should I do now okay? I really out of ideas. I don't mind to feel suffer, as long as dear is happy now and ever. I'm his gf which always hurt him into the deepest.

I love my dear, this is a wellknown thing. I don't know what to do to make him feel better. Dear, tell me what should I do to make you feel better...

Tears dropping. I need someone to talk to, but there is no one else...

Night.

Hard Rock Hotel, Penang

2009-09-28T20:18:00.001+08:00

Finally, here it comes, the Hard Rock Hotel in Penang, Malaysia. Suddenly, I feel that i'm so proud of Penang. Although I always do.

I was visited Hard Rock Hotel for 3 times in my 1 week holiday, hahaha...

Hard Rock Hotel is nice and has a beautiful view and designs. When I was there, I really felt that i'm in a relaxing holiday, enjoying my days with no pressure, and their services are so nice and friendly. This is how we called 6 stars hotel. Wow... And I love the hotel's pool the most...

Actually dear and me was going to celebrate our 2nd anniversary on last Saturday night at Hard Rock Cafe with friends ( although it was not the exact date, it should be 4th of Oct ), but who knows the cafe was full, and strictly not allowed for anyone which is under 21 years old. Actually I should feel happy, because i'm still young. Hahaha...

But, It was really spoilt my mood.

Another day, I was going for movie with dear, Soon Hua and Irene again, for Tsunami movie, not bad but it was a bit boring for the 1st half of movie.

We headed to Hard Rock Hotel after movie, the pizza are so delicious. And we ordered 2 as well. Hahaha... Really can't full at all, although 1 pizza is for 4 persons. Hahahaha....

These photos were taken by my lousy handphone, look!!! There are so blur!!! I more prefer DSLR, my babie D 90.

Penang is really full with funs, full with delicious food, I'm so proud of Penang. Penang is always a beautiful city for me, a lovely hometown for me too.

Btw, do you all know my birthday is coming? Muahahaha... Just remind you, make sure my present is ready. Hahaha... No more special place for me to celebrate birthday anymore. I have been visited to almost all the happening places in Penang, where should I go then? Omg!!! Really OMG!!!

However, I think my dear will think of it, no need mafan me, right dear?

I need to off and do my assignment now, rushing time in Taylor all the time.

Oh ya, I love my dear. XD

Bye.

' Se Bu De '

2009-09-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

The holiday is finished. Back to reality, same case, cry heavily.

I started my way at 4 something, reached Subang at 7 something. On the way back, the day was getting dark and dark, I was so scared, same as now. Drove alone, I thought I can make it, but it shown that I can't in fact.

I miss my dear, I miss his hug, I miss everything of him. I know he know, I just feel it. We cried before I left just now, this is the 2nd time that I saw dear cry. I feel remorse actually. We are so ' se bu de ' each other, we are going to end our holidays and i'm back to Subang.

I'm trying to control my tears anytime from now, don't know why, tears dropped easily, i'm not crying, just the tears are dropping. Yea, I'm emo right now.

You all sure think that dear cried is a funny thing, but please don't laugh, this is how I know his feeling. Imagine that your boyfriend is crying in front of you when you are leaving, how do you feel? At the same time, you are so ' se bu de ' him, how are you really feel?

Thanks dear, you gave me wonderful holiday, my days were full with activities everyday. Remember what I told you when I was leaving? The promise, I know we will hold it tight.

I miss you a lot dear, I know you know how I feel right now.

My heart is pain, but I will listen to you, because it is all your efforts.

I love you dear.

Night.

Sorry

2009-09-21T12:33:00.000+08:00

I'm wondering about will my life changes after 1 week? I think so. Everything is different.

I'm so regret, for everything.I know I made a wrong decision. This is a big mistake which I ever do.

Sorry, for someone who I hurt. I really so regret now. I know you know what I mean.

It is not starting from now, just a period of time before, and I don't want to admit it. I just keep it in my heart.

I'm crying heavily, in my holiday. Suddenly, feel like want to go back to Subang, with tears dropping.

One word, Sorry...

Ipoh Wedding Dinner >>> 20092009

2009-09-21T00:21:00.000+08:00

Today, the first day of Hari Raya, it is 20092009, wow!!! Great number. I just came back from Ipoh for a wedding dinner. This is my first time attending the Ipoh's wedding dinner, their culture is totally different with Penang.

I heard some of them said, Ipoh people must serve the liquor like Chivas, but not the beer. If you don't serve the guests those liquors, they will treat you as a poor family which don't have qualify to held a dinner.

And, they are very on time to start the dinner, around 7.30pm, not like Penang lang, the dinner will start at 8 something at night. It is too late for dinner Penang langS!!!

There are some dishes which serve by the hosts today, it is so delicious. Yummy...

There are pig, fish, chicken, vege, dessert, sticky rice, prawn and... All are big dishes. Taste good.

And, dear's mom is singing when we were eating. Sounds improve a lots. Add oil for her. XD

And the restaurant name is East Ocean. The hosts of today have reserved this dinner at 1 year before. It shown that their food is good.

Same thing, me and dear took photos while eating in the half way. Hahaha...

Is time for bed. I love my dear, I wish he loves me too.

Night.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

2009-09-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

Nicole is back in Penang right now AGAIN, hehe... Holiday for 1 week what, sure I will come back.

So stim today, last night went to MOS with friends, slept less than 5 hours, and this morning suddenly my BCB lecturer announced for test, damn it!!! No choice, studied it for last minute.

The whole Taylor's College is like rushing to go back hometown, everyone is rushing to go back after class, every car is full with luggages and people, as me too. I started to fetch Michelle at Damansara at 2pm, reached Sungai Long at 3 something, damn jam!!!

The whole journey from KL was jamming and raining. Everyone is likes going to celebrate Hari Raya, it seems like a big day for them. And I was the driver, tired tired. So now, finally home. Feel good.

Let me rest first, continue tomorrow.

Oh ya, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

Muackss

For you, my dad

2009-09-17T18:12:00.001+08:00

Do ur relationship with your dad is good? Maybe you are, but most of the people will same with me, me and my dad relationship is too bad.

Sometimes I really don't understand what are the parents thinking now. They did somethings which for us by their behalf, but they never think that it's whether really good for us or not.

I never understand that why parents can't even understand what we are thinking about. As they said, I just know to blame them for everything. As i'm so far away with them right now, they don't even care or think about what I need here, just keep on giving me money, that's all.

At the end, when i'm facing problems here, and I told them, they never think to help me or even give me a solution. The opposite, they scolded me that i'm blaming them for those non-sense. It there makes sence?

I'm facing this problem with long time ago, and I can't get any solution to solve our relationship. I'm disappointed with dad, which he never listen to me even one word.

And one more thing, he likes to say : " you come out with the same topic as your mom." I hate people say me like this. He is blaming my mom anyway, it shows that he is right, but not us.

Everyone has to listen to him, even just a little problem.

Dad, I don't think you really understand our feeling, you always say we don't know what we really want, but, do you know about what are you really want now? You are selfish, controlling all of us.

And I wanted to go home, but you keep on saying that I back home to frequent. When I say I don't want go home, you will say that I don't care our family. Just one word, i'm so disappointed with you.

I'm sad totally with your selfish attitude. I'm your daughter but not a product...

The worst thing

2009-09-16T12:41:00.001+08:00

Something happened which made me so down right now, I can't even concentrate on my studies, don't ask me what happened on me, but it is serious, and make me sad to the bottom. The worst thing that I ever met.

I can't imagine what I would be after this, i try don't to think about it, just enjoy the days, but I really can't. My tears keep dropping, nothing can stop my tears right now.

I'm sad, i'm worry, this is the truth, I can't see any smile on my face. I try to be more optimistic, but it is can't work totally.

If you ask me what is the problem that i'm facing now, sorry, I really can't tell you even just a little info. This is the top secret which only can hide it in my heart. No matter who are you, it is a secret still.

If you want to help me, just find someways to make me happy, do something which can make me feel better. I really want to forget all those stupid things and enjoy my life.

Obviously, i'm sad to the bottom, down to the lowest now.I'm crying heavily, but there is no one here.

Good luck to me.

Bye.

Bad day

2009-09-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

What a bad day today? Not Friday 13th, should be nothing happen what. But there is really something happened, WTH!!!

First, i'm sick. Gastric, headache, dizzy, for this whole day. After class at 12pm, headed to home and slept till 3 something, but now dizzy still.

2nd, i'm home alone now. My housemates are going back to hometown for 2 weeks holiday, my roommate is having trial this week, so she moves to her friend's house for her convenient, they scare late to exam, because the exam is at 7am, crazy...I'm eating Mcd alone, sienzzz...

3rd, my lousy handphone is spoilt. I lost all the memory and the contacts in the phone, wth!!! The photos, the messages, all gone. I think is time to change for new handphone already. I just email to my dad, asking him to buy a new handphone for me when I go back this time, I know the percentage and chances is low, but no choice, i have to try still. Otherwise I really will Ki Siao with my stupid and lousy handphone.

I wish my dad will get my a new handphone la, compliant for so many times, but he keeps saying about my handphone is still new, still functional. Aih... What should I say if he keeps talking about this? But, this time I really beh tahan already!!!! I need a new handphone, my dad!!!

I don't request for too much, at least Nokia E 71 can already. Dad, can you hear me?? I want this phone!!! The current one really spoilt already, trust me!!!

Leave me ever after

2009-09-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

I'm having gastric right now, it is pain enough. This is not the first time that i'm having gastric, but this time is more serious, I vomit this morning just because of gastric.

Now is pain also, no words to describe it. And my mood is bad now. I know everytime when something happened to make me emotional, then i will gastric later, included this time.

I'm wondering why my gastric never get cure start from the first day i get it, it had been few years already, never recover at all. Even how much I controlled on my meals. Just one sentence, I used to it for long time ago.

My roommate is bought me dinner, but i'm paining, no appetite at all. It is pain no matter eat or don't eat. What should I do then? Anyway, i'm crying for it.

Go away, stupid gastric!!! Leave me ever after!!!

Cheer for life

2009-09-13T20:57:00.000+08:00

I'm back in Subang now. Again, not really want to come back actually. Although i'm going back to Penang again in this coming Friday.

Yesterday, I went to take lunch with my family. Me and my little cousin took a lot of crazy photos in the car. Hahahaha...

I was wearing dear's spec with no glasses. Hahaha.... Both of us, acting in car. I know, we are crazy. Miss that time so much.

And, this is the second time already. The first time was at Autocity, when we bored till crazy in selling the ice-cream. Hahaha... Cheer for life...XD

That's all for today. Tomorrow will be better.

Nitez

Not really Final Destination...

2009-09-12T16:18:00.000+08:00

I went to watch Final Destination 4 3D last night with dear, Soon Hua and new friend Irene. However, the movie is not really nice compare to Final Destination 3.Btw, I love 3D. Before that, we have our dinner at DOME. Wheeee....

Blueberry Chess cake

I want to tell you, there is no taste in this blueberry cheese cake, NOT NICE!!! And cost us RM 12. Suddenly feel that Secret Recipe's cheese cake is nicer, hahaha...

Mushroom Soup

It is so delicous, yummy yummy, sedapnya... The creamy soup full with mushroom slices and the bread cubes, taste good.

Pancake

Another favourite food, it is pancake, with strawberry. Looks nice and taste good too.

Me with messy hair

Dear is drinking my SOUP!!!!!

Irene and Soon Hua

Our dessert, Ice-cream. Don't how to pronouce the name. Hehe... It is expensive, but its really tasty.

Look at this please....

There is a big pewter mug which allocated in front of the Breeks Cafe in Gurney Place. It is from Royal Selangor, also the biggest mug in the world that recorded in Guinness Books of Records. Wowww...

Another photo with Irene

Actually there is a photo shooting contest with the huge mug, but it must be creative, and can win a Olympus latest camera ~ Olympus PEN E-P1. Omg!!! Look at the photo, I don't think we can win the camera. Muahahaha....

But, if anyone is interested in this contest, don't forget the deadline is 30th September 2009. I'm waiting for the creative photos actually. Hehehe...

At last, I want to tell you something funny which happened in the cinema last night. I was like siao po, because too excited for my first 3D movie. Kept on touching the 3D effects, like something fall on me. Hahaha...

The end.

xoxo

Happening * 2 ++??

2009-09-10T23:08:00.002+08:00

I was came back to Penang few days before by MAS, it felt so different. Wowww... But my frens dropped me at KL sentral, and I have to take KLIA Express to KLIA, it cost me RM 35 one way, so expensive!!! But it really comfortable than any trains. Hehe...

In the train.

My boarding pass ~ Ong Hooi Yeng...XD

This guy, which I pointing on, he so hamsap, keep looking at the air-stewardess. Geli...

And, no body is wearing a mask at airport, no matter KLIA or Penang Airport. I think Malaysians are not afraid of the H1N1. They thought that it is not serious enough. Luckily I did. Hehe...

Reached Penang at 10 something at night. The little plane was a bit scary, a aunty was screaming when the plane was landing. Hahaha... Actually was the aunty scared me. Muaahaha...

*************************************************************************

The second day, I had changed my hair style!!! I just want to cut my hair actually, but my cousin help me did it in other way. Not really can accept it.

And another one was, I went to play badminton with dear. OMG!!! Last time, I will never go with dear even I'm bored. But don't know why, I played this time. Felt nice, sweaty... But I get body-ache today... Oh ya... forget to tell you all. I was hurted last night when I was playing badminton. Look at my finger please...

Pain pain pain!!!

Finally I went to play with dear.

I really play one, look at my racket.

OMG!!! You saw my hair style already. I know it is hard to accept, I can understand.Sienzzzz... I did 2 things new in this trip. I love to try... XD

My friends jio me go MOS on Thursday night, means tonight. And another one go ZOUK on Saturday night. Walau, I'm not there okay?? Do Penang got MOS or ZOUK not? But as I knew, Penang just got MOIS, BIG different with MOS and ZOUK!!!

Oh ya... Say goodluck to me please, for my tomorrow exam. God bless me...

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Thank you.

Nitezzzz

Pavilion Happening

2009-09-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 11 something 'early' in the morning,hehe... still morning what? Not yet 12 noon. Btw, i'm the early one, because my roommate was still sleeping that time. Hahaha... So... I'm not counted as the late one.

Then, we straight away head to Pavilion with our messy dresses...I don't think there is any problems there, as long as I got money to pay then enough.

My breakfast, 'You Tiao + Porridge + Soya' at Pavilion's food court, Food Republic. I love it so much, even dear. I took my breakfast at 2.17pm, I know it is late. At the time, I also MMS dear, said that i'm eating it. Muahaha.... Naughty naughty...

After that, shopping and shopping. Although I got bought nothing, but my roommate 'Ivana'

bought a lot of things today. Nvm la, she is the birthday girl ( suppose is tomorrow, 8/9/2009 ).

This is how people looking at me when they are behind me. Omg, so fat la me. Want to jump into the river already.

Walked and walked, many people today. Because of going to celebrate the Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Pavillion is giving 2 hours free parking for each of the purchase of RM250. I think so, if i'm not mistaken. Hehehe...

Nicole's portrait. XD

Took at ZARA,Pavilion. Took it while testing a black grey jeans, anyway i'm wearing it in the photo. Hehe... Love this photo, don't know why.

Toilet again, wtf!!! I think girsl love toilet, especially there is a big mirror. Hahaha... Look at my background please, Ivana is wearing the contact lens. Opss... Catch it!

Bought it at The Loaf, by Dr Mahathir. My mini chicken burger, good taste. Delicious. Yummy...

6 something, we decided to go home. Btw, I kena RM10 for my parking fees in Starhill Gallery. Anyhow, still cheaper than Pavilion. On the way to home, we lost, fine, just turn and turn, no direction. After awhile, I saw the Petaling Jaya signboard, damn happy. Muahahaha...

Finally we reached home at 7 something. A happy day? I didn't buy anything also. Tomorrow I will not be here, so I hope Ivana will get a memorable birthday celebration with her friends.

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Ivana.

Love + Crazy.

Ms Nicole

Random

2009-09-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

Pretty? Cute? Ugly? Funny? Acting? Posing? All here I think... Hahaha.... But I think all are Crazy... I know, I never deny it.

I'm so sien.... at hostel. Finding something to do. Give me some ideas please.

Miss Penang so much. Anyhow, I'm going back. Wait me there my friends, see you soon.

Muacks. Love

It is from Tarc

2009-09-05T21:46:00.006+08:00

My boring Saturday night, recall so many things of my life. Everything likes come out again. I miss my previous life. It is enjoyable...

I got so many sweet and sad memories during Tarc. No matter what, there are memorable. My life likes a drama, there are so many happenings. Although some of the memories made me sad, but it really made me growth.

During Tarc, I started to know how to appreciate friendship, because it's included Love. My best friends, which are from Tarc mostly, I love them, I think they love me too.

Tarc, I met my dear, my TopMan, the 4 of my best friends. They all gave me a lot of funs and smiles. They might don't know how I appreciate the friendship, but they never left me when I need them. This is how we called Friendship forever.

We took breakfast, lunch, dinner, sometimes maybe supper together, from Tanjung Bungah until Penang Road, even we left 1 hour break time. At the end, we lated to class, but it was in a excited journey. Hahahaha... really miss it.

Don't know why, we love to stick together. Gossip gossip, our favourite. Even my TopMan, we always gossip at everywhere, eating, driving, studying... Miss them so much. And dear, I think no need to say, because we used to stick together, everyone knew it. Hahaha...

Time, can you stop for awhile? Let me enjoy the moments, because I don't want to skip anything with them.

That's all for my boring Saturday night, all non-sense. I know.

p/s: Tuesday comes faster please...

Ms.N

OMG !!! * 2

2009-09-04T21:04:00.004+08:00

Friday again, what to do? Nvm, i just bought my flight ticket yesterday, i'm going back to Penang on Tuesday night, for special purpose...hehe...

More than 1 year never step into KLIA already, some more this time is alone, so scary ar!!! I scare I will lost in KLIA. But just domestic departure, I think should be okay la. Don't panic, I keep on telling myself. Muahaha...

Btw, today I get my BCB's first test result, OMG!!! How come so fast one? I expect the lazy lecturer will release the result few more weeks later one. Just now suddenly annouced the result, scared me!!! However, my result is not bad, counted as good wor, lecturer said one. Muahahaha... Abit happy...

And another thing for today, moral test. One more OMG!!! I really don't know how to answer the questions. Because we all never prepared for the test, some of the students some more forget the test date. This time sure die one. God bless me please... Popi Popi...

The P1 wimax suddenly connected well today. Aih... Make me confuse whether want to complain or not, but I think complain better la, I don't know what time the line will get crazy again.

That's all for today. Tuesday come faster please... Wish me everything will be fine and same to you my lovely friends.

Love. xoxo

"Afu Afu"

2009-09-04T00:27:00.004+08:00

Stupid and stupid moral education!!! Later, I mean Friday got test!!! WTH!!! I have to study for it!!! I hate Moral!!! AARRRGGGHHH!!!!

Just now went to Starbucks for my assignment final submission, my house's 'SUPER' P1 Wimax, so lame, so lousy, so terrible, horrible and super vegetable, really sounds lau-beh and looks lame. Can't even sign in my turnitin, then I have to waste my hot income for Starbucks. I want to complain to Wimax!!! Totally no signal!!

Everyday keeps on study, we all like crazy, our dark-circled eyes really like dark night, I mean panda la, I also don't know what am I talking about. See!!! Study till crazy already. It shows that Taylor's students are the most hard-working one. Muahaha...

Help me please... I feel not well now, hands shaking and feel dizzy these days. I don't want study for the stupid moral!!! I want to rest early!!!

I think no one will like the moral education, just one word...sienzzzz.... That's all. Look at my face, then you will know. Crazy face.

"Afu afu..."

Say good luck to me please, because i'm going to close my books and straight away lay down on my bed.

Goodnight everyone.

Love me please...XD

Breaking down

2009-09-02T20:12:00.002+08:00

I feel not well today, dizzy and dizzy. My brain is breaking down, I think there is too much things inside my mind, really out of function now.

Today, never miss home, never miss dear, but I cry... Because I can't even concentrate for my studies, slept whole day.

However, I thought of something in my dreams while I was sleeping just now. There were a lot of things appeared in my mind and dream. Something which I didn't think of it for long time ago. It is a sweet memory, but for now I think it will be something which make me feel sad. Because I never know what is ' Cherish ' about that time.

My brain is breaking down. Rest is totally out for me right now.

Crying.

Weird Penang

2009-09-01T23:28:00.005+08:00

Nicole is back in Subang now. Eyes full with tears again, because cried damn heavy on Monday night. Feel likes don't want to come back Subang.

I got a feeling in sudden. It is related to the Penang's weather. When I reached Penang or even I was at Penang, there is no raining, the sun was bright, sunny day all the time.
But when I came back to Subang, Penang is starting to rain. As I knew that Penang was kept raining in last whole week. It is a weird feeling.

I keep telling myself that 2 years will be past in a short while. My dear and family are waiting for me in Penang. This is the only one to help me to stop the tears.
I want to tell my dad here. Dad, I do miss Penang and home so much, please don't always misunderstand me. I really miss home so much.

Homesick and Bf-sick again.

I do miss him too.

Love.

Goodnight.

Merdeka Day...

2009-08-31T16:55:00.003+08:00

My Merdeka Day, just stay at home, sienzzz....

Dear sick jor, I can't go out already, because I have no more driver, my lovely dear get fever, vomit and lausai this morning, OMG!!! So worry him.

Actually I also don't know what to write now, Merdeka Day so sienzzz.... Btw, tomorrow will be going back the strange city again, Subang... I don't want to go back.... to the stress city.

Wish my dear recover faster, otherwise I can't concentrate on my studies at Subang. Hehe

Love him so much..

Muacksss....

Draft + Done

2009-08-27T21:50:00.005+08:00

Finally, today I just submitted my MCB assignment draft, OMG!!! I don't like Turnitin, it is scary. Nevermind, I feel a little relax, because i'm going back to Penang tomorrow. Hahahaha...

And... I bring a birthday present for my TopMan, I know his birthday was past, but as a friend, I need to give him a present still. Don't be too surprise, because it is just a normal present. Hope he likes it. All from Marks & Spencer.

Can't wait to see my friends and dear for the coming days. Plan for so many activities, but don't there will be worked or not, let's try and see. Hehehe...

Look at my crazy face, too happy for going back. Hahaha...

Let's cheer... for my coming back. I know i'm crazy.

And Happy Birthday Malaysia.

Merdeka, Merdeka, Merdeka!!!

Love >>> Again

2009-08-26T16:20:00.003+08:00

We discuss this topic for so many times before, what do you mean by 'LOVE'? It is totally hard to explain by using any words. Love can be happy, but it also can be sad. However, when every time we talk about 'LOVE', it's sure be a sad problem. Trust me.

My best friend, XXX, sure I can't tell you who is her la. Her boyfriend just break up with her few days ago with some stupid reasons ( this is just what I know from her ). But nevermind, she is totally down and sad. Crying non-stop daily, with again and again. I'm so sad when I know about this thing. I know this feeling, it is painful.

She is always a optimistic girl, we always hang out together last time, that's why I said we are best friend. But now, i can't even see her smile and laugh, even her housemates. But luckily she got a lot of friends, which can accompany her all the time, help her to forgo the sadness.

To me, I will chat with her when I free, because we are at different location now. I think this is what i can do for her right now. I hope I can stay by her side now and comfort her as her best friend.

My girl, love is not everything, it is just a part of our life. There are still a lot of friends and family members who care about you much, don't give up easily. I know it is hard to let go, but it's really take time. We all are here, we will support you all the time.

And don't forget, we are best friend forever. Everything will be fine soon. Love you.

Muacks

Crazy

2009-08-23T21:18:00.001+08:00

Shopping and shopping today. Wake up early in the morning ( actually was late ), rush to Time Square, they already finished the competition. But luckily I still met my little cousin. And he is rushing for his next plan already.*Grinnnn*

Then we head to Starhill, since Michelle says want to buy LV for her mom's friend. Okay, LV, sounds like very class. But I just went in for the Neverfull.

Suddenly my lovely aunties call me for lunch, but actually they were wanted to shop as well. Fine, I just follow them. This is the most crazy shopping way that I never seen. I think they spent above RM 10K for the bags. OMG!!! Crazy of them.

However, my lovely uncle is so nice, he bought me a Gucci tote bag, thanks my uncle so much. I tried to refuse, but he said just treat it as a present, since I came Subang so long, he never present me anything. Hahaha...

Although it is not my first Gucci, but I still very appreciate it. Love them so much. Crazy shopping day, spent us so much of money. And thanks Michelle for accompany today.

Thank you my lovely uncle.

muacks

Spiritual Journey

He is my SuperMan

Appearance : Bahaviour

A Date with Ivana, 04062011

2011, Newly Year

Tired of dreaming.

Family, Penang, Malaysia

因為愛

I'm great

Drive safe

Magic Mouse

Random

Fighting

Sleepless in Romie

Coach Store in Penang

Who are you?

Fake a Smile

Unfairness

25%

You weep

Bologna, see you next time.

Every Breath You Take

The Sire Museum

CNY I

We didn't buy

Red

Last weekend before CNY

Ms Ribenna

Regret or not?

I believe

First outing in year 2010

I'm really tired

Saturday night

A disgusting couple.

Zuo Zuo

Madding vs Disappointing

WanHui's wedding 31.12.2009

Twenty Ten

Off

People are selfish

*06-12-2009*

"Pipo, pipo, pipo..."

Should I go or not?

Another Nicole

Sometimes I feel lifeless.

Goodbye

Smile or cry?

Pizzaria Hard Rock Penang

Unforgivable

A present from daddy

Kampar, Utar vs Taylor

How to make it bigger?

Nicole is not happy today!!!

Happy Birthday to Nicole, Part II

Happy Birthday to Nicole

Early Bird

Starting from now

Life is short

I wish...

Bitch of the bitches

Happy 2nd Anniversary

ManUnited's jersey with more extra marks

Up and Down

Hard Rock Hotel, Penang

' Se Bu De '

Sorry

Ipoh Wedding Dinner >>> 20092009

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

For you, my dad

The worst thing

Bad day

Leave me ever after

Cheer for life

Not really Final Destination...

Happening * 2 ++??

Pavilion Happening

Random

It is from Tarc

OMG !!! * 2

"Afu Afu"

06-12-2009