The 28th November 2008.

Today is 28th November 2008, the first day of Men's Waterpolo Malaysian Open 2008, I want to go to give my TopMan supports, but i'm not dare to do so, I don't know how to face him, that's why i scare. I want to know about the result for today's matches, anyone can tell me?

Today also is the day before my dad's birthday, but i have made some mistakes. It made me not happy at all which i thought that i should happy at the time. Dad's birthday, i bought a shirt for him as birthday present. Mom asked me go and buy a cake before i come back, so i brought a beautiful cake(named Opera) for my dad. The cake is full with chocolate, look so nice. But when my mom saw the cake, she say she don't like chocolate, WTF!!!

I'm so angry that time. I don't care about the traffic jam on the Penang Bridge, I straight away rush to Penang and re-buy a new cake which without chocolate to fulfil my mom's WANTS!!!

I just want to give my dad a little and little surprise birthday, but i think there is no more surprise finally.

My emotion is affected by this birthday again, i thought i can have a happy day, but it is so hard for me.

I wish ShunJae is beside me now,i wish he can comfort me now.
I need a hug, I need a shoulder which can let me forget the sadness.

I cried when I was on the way to buy a new cake, everything is not under my control, I'm not happy...
I want to restart my life!!! But i know it is impossible...