3 December 2008

I'm not feeling well recently, headache and gastric, some more food poisoning these few days. My body is so weak, now i only know that.

Everyday I just like over slept and late to college. When i reached the college, suddenly make me feel like I want to go back to my house and rest. So suffer when i have some illness. I want to skip the classes, but I can't even do so. The classes are so important, I have to attend it. So, everyday when i reach home, i will be very tired and like out of energy.

Everything likes not running in well, I don't know why... Maybe this semester make me too stress already, everything running in rush, break become a need for me. 24 hours per day is not enough for me also.

But... 'break' for me is extra one. Because I don't want to use my free time to think something stupid, otherwise i will suffer alot.

I break promise to him again. I had promised him that I will go to watch his match on last weekend before, but i didn't do it.I know that he did a good job in the final match, i'm so proud of him, but i have no chance to see the medal anymore. Maybe, he didn't care so much about whether i'm going to his match or not, but i really care about it, just he never know. I never wish that he know what i'm thinking now, because as i said before, i don't know how to face him, and also i have no right to comment even one thing. But, he is always in my deep heart, I will never forget him, my TopMan.

I don't know why everytime when i'm writing my blog, I will think back what he had done for me before. Can I say I miss him? because I really had long time never see him already, and I don't know what he is thinking and doing now. I really miss him.

I want to advise every of my friends, please appreciate what you get now, don't regret when you lost it. When you realize that your time is getting lesser and lesser, you will know that actually not much you can do for the person that you love. And...take good care of yourself, we are still young, the long journey is still in front of us.