KL Trip 100409>> Part I

I just came back from KL,the trip makes me feels tired, and it is so unforgettable. How to say? So many things happened there, I cried.

I went KL on Friday,there was a rainy day, and jammed there,all stuck in the cars, I stuck in my car around 3 hours, for me to reach Pavilion from my hotel. Normally it just takes 5 -10 minutes to reach there,but i took 3 hours to reach. I almost cried in the car, luckily my dear comfort me,then i only feel better.

But I was so so so hungry that time, i sumor gastric!!! At last, my dear can't tahan my annoyance anymore, he look like very angry, so i just kept quiet and wait till reach Pavilion only shout out.

The most made me angry was the argument with my dear. Before we went to KL, my dear contact his friend who staying in Subang, because we might need her to lead us to some Colleges. On the road, dear kept sms+ing with her, although it was doing by a few days before. I asked him to show me what they talking about, But he kept refusing me.

The reason why i want to read is because of dear just tell me they talked nothing, i felt weird so i wanted to see. It is any wrong there? I just want to make sure and don't misunderstand them.

It was a long long long story,i can't explain all here, so that night we argued....

Let me ask you, if a girl sends your bf messages and call him 'dear' then how will you think about?? Will you mad?? And the contains are so flirty. ( for me it is,but dear said no)

I ran to the street and ordered Heineken to cool down myself, it was 1 something in the morning, and dear kept calling me and explained to me.

Before i went out,i kept thinking about it is there is a must for me to angry?? Is it there is a truth? ( i mean the messages) I tried to convince myself,but i still can't control my emotion at last.

Dear kept asked me to go back to hotel,because it is so dangerous that alone on the street. So i decided to go back at last, i saw my dear in front of the lift and preparing to go out and find me. In that time, i suddenly felt like wanted to hug him because i miss him so much. But i didn't do so. I know he was worrying me. I know!!!

Im so sad and remorse. Why i wanted to argue with dear?? But now i still can't get back my emotion, i keep thinking of this.

I want my dear to treat me better, don't always make me compare him to others. I know he is not happy also, but i need his cares, otherwise i can't feel better. Im suffering now. I love him so much, I wish him to hug me tight, but....

I wish these things don't happen anymore, i just want we can walk happily together. I don't want to miss anything in between me and dear. I just need more cares... I love him.