Another Nicole

I supposed to help my dad sunway today, but I was fainted on the way while working.

And, 3rd time for GMC. WTH!!!

This Nicole, no more!!!

This one, No more also!!!

This Nicole will do. Cry heavily every night. With messy hair and ugly face.

I wish to have some outing, like last time. Long time never enjoy the days. I need some fresh air.

Pain in my disease, as I said, i'm tired. And I know that it is getting serious day by day. Maybe my outlook will be like nothing, because i'm pretending all the time, to be more better and okay in front of you all. 

Seriously, Nicole is not okay at all. Nose bleeding, fainted, breathlessly. And alot of serious things, sorry dear, I didn't tell you, and I can't tell you. 


I wish to call ' DEAR ' loudly, can you hear me? I'm paining, suffering, do you know it? Sorry for my selfishness, I just want to spend more days with you. There are not so less thing that you should know, but you know I have not much time. Can you hear me? I'm crying heavily, do you know it?

I wish... to get a happy day, even really just the only day. 

I really have not much time.

Goodnight.