December is reached, the weather is different, cold and keep raining this few days. Btw, Sunway Carnival Mall is snowing everyday. Hahaha... I can feel that the Christmas is coming.
I'm wondering this year, don't know whether I got chance to celebrate Christmas or not, my sick is so annoying.
What can I do in 5 years time? Or maybe 1 year? Too short for me. I'm thinking everyday. I hope there are some solutions for me.
I just want to do something which I like. Italy, I don't think it is a suitable choice for me. But everyone wants me to go, why?
Tell me please, should I go or not? 50:50, thinking going or not. Everything will be changed if I going. Actually few days ago I already decided that i'm not going, but... something happened, they want me to re-consider again.
This morning, should be mid-night, I felll down from the stair again, and I have been sent to hospital quickly. Doctor had been warning me that I can't fall down again, but who knows what will happen on next?
Doctor said a lot of things to me, and I know my time is getting lesser, it is really serious, I saw purple, nose bleeding... I know there are so many things I might not do it on time. However, I got my reasons, the reality forces me to do so.
And I know the Italy's weather is less than 5'c, damn cold!!!
I choose to stay back, because of my dear. I wish to see him everyday while I still can, but something made me so disappointed. And if I going to Italy, who will accompany him all the while. When I choose to go KL for my studies, it was really a wrong decision. I don't want to repeat the selfish mistake again.
Even I stay back, it is not for my health, but it is for dear. I just want to use my left time to accompany him, at least do something for him. Maybe there will be some miracle happen, but at least I try to do all the things which I like now. No more regret.
I wish he can hear me. I just want to do something for him. This is the only thing which I can do for him.
Tell me, should I go or not?
Is time to off. Although i'm sitting in the mall with doing nth.
Pray.
Tell me please, should I go or not? 50:50, thinking going or not. Everything will be changed if I going. Actually few days ago I already decided that i'm not going, but... something happened, they want me to re-consider again.
This morning, should be mid-night, I felll down from the stair again, and I have been sent to hospital quickly. Doctor had been warning me that I can't fall down again, but who knows what will happen on next?
Doctor said a lot of things to me, and I know my time is getting lesser, it is really serious, I saw purple, nose bleeding... I know there are so many things I might not do it on time. However, I got my reasons, the reality forces me to do so.
And I know the Italy's weather is less than 5'c, damn cold!!!
I choose to stay back, because of my dear. I wish to see him everyday while I still can, but something made me so disappointed. And if I going to Italy, who will accompany him all the while. When I choose to go KL for my studies, it was really a wrong decision. I don't want to repeat the selfish mistake again.
Even I stay back, it is not for my health, but it is for dear. I just want to use my left time to accompany him, at least do something for him. Maybe there will be some miracle happen, but at least I try to do all the things which I like now. No more regret.
Tell me, should I go or not?
Is time to off. Although i'm sitting in the mall with doing nth.
Pray.
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