Wish he know...

Recently, i kept making myself busy and busy, just try don't to think the stupid things anymore, also the sadness.

I feel so stress, not happy, my emotion not stable, everything likes different already, i don't know who can i tell...

Since i know that, even how much i sad or cry, i also can't change the fact, that is a truth, no body can change it, just... i never try to accept the truth. I'm so stupid, i did something that make me remorse and regret ever after. I always tell myself that i can't think about the past, but i realized that i can't, everything will make me call back the sweet or sad memory, i hate myself which just know to cry.

I have long time never see one of my best best friend already. Although we know each other in a short period, but he treat me very well, which i appreciate it always. I don't know how is his life, I don't how to face him, that are some misunderstanding between me and him. Although I look nothing which that sadness never appear on my face, but i know that is something different...

Perhaps, there is a second chance that can restart my life, i really won't let these all happen in my life, because I don't want to lose a best best friend. I wish he know I'm talking to him, I not dare to call him anymore, I really don't how to face him. But I wish he know my feeling, he is the best for me. I wish he know... My TopMan.

Thanks for everything, the memory is always keep in my heart, for now and ever...
Good luck for your match next week...