How to make it bigger?

Nicole is going to bankrupt...

My mood is too bad recently, not because of homesick ( although I do ), but i'm going to bankrupt soon, no doubt, this is a truth.

I just left this little bit of money, I don't how to survive in Subang. Start from now, I need to control my daily expenses, because I really have not much of money now. Sad to say this, it is like keep reminding me. 

This is my first time, I mean going to bankrupt. Don't ask me why, I already told so many times. I more week to go, and today is just only Friday. OMG!!! Kill me please... Everyday Milo + biscuits or Cintan Mee, damn it... Really don't like this kind of life.

However, maybe this is good for me also, Nicole had never stay in this kind of situation, just let her exprience it, good for future also. (Comforting myself)

Hope to go back Penang faster, so that I won't be so suffered. Have you all calculate that how much 1 person needs to spend for 1 week in Subang?? RM 10++, I will try to survive in the following days, pray for me please...

Feel like want to cry, but I not dare to do so, I know dear will scold me. But even I cry, I also can't let him know, he will scold me too. Looking at my RM 10++, what else I can do? 

Dreaming for making it bigger, I need to tie up my little tummy, so that I won't eat so much.

Suddenly feel that life is so hard, or maybe I think so much. But I really feel suffer right now. Again, finding someone to talk to, i'm emo+ing now. 

I want to cry, miss your shoulder and big hug. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't cry, but the tears keep falling without my control.

Goodnight