Tired of dreaming.

I'm tired seriously, while i'm stepping into next level of life, where are my choices? I couldn't find my way...

I'm tired, it's so hard to force myself of being this; I'm tired again, it's so easy to get back into that memories as well...

Used to be this, hard to be that... But i'm tired.

I should stop being this, and start to be that... Need to stabilize my life... 


Stop partying every night, stop all those bad habits, I want a normal life, a simple and happy life... it seems easy, but I know it's hard to maintain.

However...
 
Holidays gonna end gonna back soon, i'm wondering is there any chances? And i'm wondering too is that an ending as well? 

he mights don't know, but everything just sealed on my deepest heart, couldn't let go easily...
After get back to NYC, everything here will be just a dream... Again, he mights don't know, but I think i'm in love with him...


I pray and pray... I know it's still a dream at last... Better face the truth, rather than wiping up the tears in the late night.


It is just too exhausted... I need a hug and pls hug me tightly... At least I can feel you when I'm still here...