08/05/12

There are too long which we never hang out, here we go...

It's a little bit update of us...

He is my SuperMan

# I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me#

And I do found mine...^^

Appearance : Bahaviour

Wondering about am I getiing older and older? Time flies, everything just keeps on changing day by day, again, I'm wondering...

Look at this pls... 

No. 1

No.2

No. 3

 No. 4

No. 5 ?? Still Pending...

 Which one is nicer? I'm asking myself, but still no answer...haha

These were how I get changes starting from Jan 2011, at this middle of year 2011, I had just realized that appearance is not the most important thing in my life, the first will be how are you going to behave yourself.

You will get old once, but the behaviour will just make you get more mature in future. 

Why must I care so much? Just do whatever I like, as long as i'm happy and no more regrets... That's it.

A Date with Ivana, 04062011

I had a wonderful weekend with my beloved in Kayelle. 

 On the way...

It has been long time never meet my babe, i was so excited about the date. 

Shopping non-stop, from Mid Valley to The Gardens, all sales and sales, because of Agong's birthday. * Wondering why I couldn't get this offer during my birthday as well.^^

Oh ya, look at this please friends...

 This stupid juice cost me RM 11.80.

The most expensive fresh juice I had ever!!!

Don't look at the price please, cheating you!!!

By the way, what to do right? Since I bought it without asking price, so I couldn't blame anyone. 

We bought lots...^^ without thinking. *But these 2 packs are from Mr K & Mr A.

We spend to reduce stress, but how I know I feel more stress after get the bills. Hahaha... When we realized that our purse are getting thiner, it was just too late..

Dinner at Italiannies The Gardens.

Classic Pizza.. Yum yum

 * The Mango Shake is damn nice.

* The services are too bad, same to the crews!! But the food damn nice.

The feeling was too nice, but time flies... I couldn't stay back with her in the following days, I will miss her always.

A meaningful trip which let me felt warm and cheerful, it was short but at least I know I'm not alone when I need somebody else.

I gonna miss you, Ivana... Love.

2011, Newly Year

Okay, CNY is ended, holiday is following as well, back to reality now... A brand new year been started since half and a month ago, everyone is back to his/her position. 


2010 was not a good year, in my memory, I just left half year memories which is starting from July or August... The people, the things that I met before it, couldn't get back into my mind.


Maybe I should let it go and look forward, a brand new year which means to restart our life. We might did something wrong in previous year, now is the time for us to make correction and make it better. 


Memory is a tool to enhance and beautify our life, make life more meaningful. However, daddy said, it's doesn't matter with I have it or not, because I can grab everything into my mind starting from now. You can look up, down, right or left but never look backward... Hahaha^^

Erm... This CNY I was quite busy, so... will update the photos next time... (I know this photo look damn emo.)

Gonna miss you all...

Especially my dearest A and K... Thanks for being around, I'm on my way. Loves.

Tired of dreaming.

I'm tired seriously, while i'm stepping into next level of life, where are my choices? I couldn't find my way...

I'm tired, it's so hard to force myself of being this; I'm tired again, it's so easy to get back into that memories as well...

Used to be this, hard to be that... But i'm tired.

I should stop being this, and start to be that... Need to stabilize my life... 


Stop partying every night, stop all those bad habits, I want a normal life, a simple and happy life... it seems easy, but I know it's hard to maintain.

However...
 
Holidays gonna end gonna back soon, i'm wondering is there any chances? And i'm wondering too is that an ending as well? 

he mights don't know, but everything just sealed on my deepest heart, couldn't let go easily...
After get back to NYC, everything here will be just a dream... Again, he mights don't know, but I think i'm in love with him...


I pray and pray... I know it's still a dream at last... Better face the truth, rather than wiping up the tears in the late night.


It is just too exhausted... I need a hug and pls hug me tightly... At least I can feel you when I'm still here...

Family, Penang, Malaysia

Can I just keep staying in Malaysia? 

I miss Malaysia, I miss Penang so much... I miss my besties so much...

Or this is what should i say --->> I love my family.

因為愛

 Although I don't really understand what it is talking about, but i wish to share with you


Something really from my deep heart...


有些事情 我也說不明白
想和你在一起 為什麼捨不得分開
或許我軟弱 也害怕失敗
但有你的笑容 就能讓我再站起來

你曾問我是什麼令我對你難以忘懷
我也曾經想過這種感覺說不出來
我現在才明白

因為愛 所以愛 珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開 你不在 懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛 所以愛 讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬 我才明白一切都是因為愛

有些事情 我也說不明白
想和你在一起 為什麼捨不得分開
或許我軟弱 也害怕失敗
但有你的笑容 就能讓我再站起來

你曾問我是什麼令我對你難以忘懷
我也曾經想過這種感覺說不出來
我現在才明白

因為愛 所以愛 珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開 你不在 懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛 所以愛 讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬 我才明白一切都是因為愛

因為愛 所以愛 珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開 你不在 懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛 所以愛 讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬 我才明白一切都是因為愛
*Copy from  erm...don't know which website. Haha...

Everything just because of LOVE...

I'm great

Have a great time with my buddies which from Malaysia this evening... Yea..I did enjoy the time with them seriously.

Okay,let's back to my life. Party non stop everyday, but I know how to take care of myself, please don't worry..

Look at the photo please, i'm great here... really. So, ANYONE who wanna come for visiting, please cancel it... thx

Yea,that's you... you should know who you are...

I'm talking bullshit here,okay,i should get back to my house party now...

However,i'm gonna fly to another places tomorrow,you will never know where I will be..

Cheer... As my friend said "Enjoy your life",I will always remember it.

I'm trying...

Drive safe

When I was driving on the bridge, everything comes out in my mind...which is the accident, made everything gone...



Feel so regret, feel so remorse, I blame myself...I totally cannot overcome it.



I never tell, and never voice up to explain my mistake. This is the fact that couldn't be changed. Everything just had sealed on my heart forever...



Drive safe please all my friends, I don't want to lost anyone of you..

Yea, I still crying in the middle of the night, even though it had been happened in 2 weeks ago...




p/s: Babe, i miss you... How I wish you are here right now...

Magic Mouse

I hate Magic Mouse!!!

'It tracks with precision on nearly every surface?', 'Magic Mouse uses powerful laser tracking that’s far more sensitive and responsive on more surfaces than traditional optical tracking' (Apple, 2010) But I can't even track it on glasses . Or should be still on a mousepad...


It costs me RM 229!!!


It's nice to be a mobile phone, but not for a mouse, PERHAPS. XD


Maybe I should say, I don't like Magic Mouse, but not I hate it.

Random

Just back from Above & Beyond, headed to Sixty 9 after landed in Penang. I'm tired!!!

And been waited for more than 45 mins just for Balik Pulau 'FAMOUS' Laksa, and it is not nice at all, wtf!!! Aston Koh!!! Stop wasting my time!!!


I need to rest seriously.

Italy vs New Zealand, of course I will support Italy.

I wish i'm there right now. Yup, i'm dreaming.

Fighting

Fighting for my sickness recently, everyday medicine and treatment, but here comes another high fever...FML.

However, don't worry, everything goes well (I think).

No photos sharing for Italy!!! Just attached with 2 photos that taken months ago. Sorry, will update la!

Although I couldn't remember, but I hope I could once a day, because I don't want any part to be blanked in my memory.

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Opss, I gonna off for dinner preparation at Rasa Sayang. I think I need to take a nap first, there is sure another after party plan, I'm freaking tired la!!!


Love,
Ms N

Sleepless in Romie

It is 5 something in the morning, and i'm awake now. Argghh...


I had toothache in few days before, killing me seriously. I need to say: "Morning, Romie." The piggy is still in his dreamland which never affected by me. I'm thinking about what will be my breakfast later at the same time with my toothache. 


I want porridge!!! I'm here for around 2 weeks, and I never been in any of chinese restaurant, i miss rice muchie!! 


I had 2 different type of cheese cake in last 2 days, baked cheese and blueberry cheese. Mr A told me that everytime when I not happy or cry, I must have a slice of cake. So, here I get. Actually I never realized it before told, but now i know, when I see the cakes, I will forget everything sadness and pay fully attention on the cakes. Oh ya, 1 from Mr A and another 1 from Mr D. Thx alot alot, hug.


Luckily you are here when I need accompany. Almost get to 6am, get a mic and shout for the piggy's awake. I need something to do now!!! Wake up everyone!!! 


Where will be my next destination after Rome? hahaha... you will get updated soon. Miss you MAS.

Coach Store in Penang

I had just received a email from my cousin. ( 9 something in the morning now, fan si ren!!!) Not even with breakfast!!


He wrote:" Girl, one of the famous brand is going to open a store in Gurney Plaza Penang. Guess what is it? " And i'm thinking :" Gucci? NoNo, LV? In new coming Paragon Penang la. Coach? Sien nia."


Seriously, the answer is COACH. COACH is going to open a shop in Gurney Plaza which replaces Versace. What has in my mind now is 'Sien lor...'

Anyway, just to inform everyone here. New COACH store is coming to Gurney Plaza soon. Although i'm fucking hate it. 


Btw, why not launch another new brand in Gurney? Sien lor... Nevermind, i'm not around. 

Who are you?

I'm awake but at the same time something I had been lost.
"Who are you?", I keep asking everyone. I just remember about my family members and some of my friends. I couldn't remember some of you!

A guy named Aston Koh was the first person that I saw when I woke up, who is him?
I read through all my wrote blog which the password given by him also, my facebook, my msn.

I need to find out everything, if you knew me, please text to my hp, i'm happy if you provide me the info about who are you and also my past. It is hard to describe about my condition, I hope you text me especially the one who are very important to me.

In my memory, I know who is Alice, ChyiChyi, Sze Wei and WanHui.

I just want to make sure everything that I had been told is true, because i'm not totally lost memory!

Text me if you knew me, especially you are so important to Nicole.

Fake a Smile

What should I response to my sickness now?
Counting the days everyday?
Keep reminding myself how many days I had left?
Counting about how many injections I had put on my skin?

What are the differences of these?

I had faked my smiles,
because... I feel really pain...sorry.

I wish he is here... At least I could be stronger.

Unfairness

"As long as you were not been RAPED by him", said a person to a girl.

What do you think about this statement? How do you think about it?
Glad? Disappointed?

People are allowed to comment during the incident, but there is no more chance to voice out after the incident. Because you will be scolded, "You raised it up", said another person.

Unfair? Tell me, where is the fairness? Especially he/she is your beloved.

25%

Is back in home for only half day and wondering about...
Should I take the risk just for the only 25%?
''Up to you'' they said.
Made me not brave enough to make any decision as well.
Dear, I wish you're here, at least give me a right direction,
at least make the path to be longer...
I miss you a lot.

You weep

Girl never count how much had she paid,
even though she knew it is hard and she never quit.

There is always some madness in love,
but there is also always some reason in madness.

Guys think girls always angry for fun or nothing,
but guys never think that there is always some reason in madness.
Guys think girls always unreasonable,
but guys never pay efforts to find what is the reason.

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,
but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

Guys blame girls always think too much on non-sense,
but guys never think that sometimes it is their problems.
Guys request girls for stop talking or thinking for some problems,
but guys never think that the problem is still there even though doing nothing.

The one who loves you will make you weep,

you cry, you feel hurt, because of you love him.

Long long once ' I love you ', it does work. 

* but guys feel annoying everytime when girls' tears drop, wtf.

I love my dear too. And he knows.