Red Flecks

Sick for few days, not fever and flu. But a lot of red flecks on my body, never feel painful. I still can't find out what is going on.

I'm sad, and went to doctor for a few times before, but still cureless. I just came back from clinic, doctor said I have to do blood test, and it may have to stay in hospital for a few days.

I came back, I don't think I want to stay in hospital. I wanna check, but I scare the result.

Pretending okay in front of everyone, smile and laugh with them, even dear. Dear said it will be okay in few more days later. I never feel suffer of the red flecks, but scare to see it, my legs, my body. As i said never be painful, but itches.

They don't know how much I worry about it. Weakness, no appetite, no energy to talk, stay in room, this is how am I right now.

The kids treat me as monster, not dare to talk to me.

I will not update my blog these few days, let me rest for a few days.

Bb