Saturday, June 6, 2009

Time out...

I argued with dear, because of the remorseful to HIM (X).

Maybe dear thinks too much about what I did for HIM (X) which can't re-live again. I tried to forget this incident in this 1 year time. But it can't just be erased easily.

When I looked into the mirror, I saw a girl with her broken heart, appeared all the stories and memories. It was a sweet memory, a happy love, and I know is time to let go.

Every time I cry, it means I did something unfair to dear. So, I never reject dear any of his requested. I thought it will be enough for dear as much as I do, but... I was wrong.

I can't stop the memories to replay, but I know it is time to let go. HIM (X), a guardian who always protecting me in heaven secretly, I will let HIM (X) know, i'm living well, smile to face anything. I know he is looking at me, this is the only thing I can do for HIM (X).

Forgo the grows, it might takes time. But, as long as i'm trying... Trying to be a stronger and happy girl.

No more pretending, not only for dear to feel better, also for me...

I'm so sorry dear, you always the important for me, I need your supports when I fall down. I need you to dry up my tears, a heavy hug when i'm down. It will be more workable to advises.

Don't cry, I tell myself...


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