Tell me.

Today i cried heavily, in front of dear. I never let this thing happen in front of dear, but today i did it. I can't hide the stupid feeling anymore, it is just likes killing me.

I'm going to leave my home, the place which i stayed for almost 20 years. Actually i'm considering still, whether to stay or leave, but... everyone is asking me to leave. I can't get the final answer still right now, it is about 4 days after I received the confirm.

I'm sad, i'm facing the problem alone, and dear or dear's family, but not mine. I feel lonely all the while. My dad just signs on the paper when I filled the form and pay for the payments, these are what will he do.

I don't want to alone now, I need someone to talk to, I need someone to tell me what should I do, Where should i stay, but dear just madding on what am I thinking, "it is just too much for me,"dear said.

Dear is going to Ipoh tomorrow morning with his buddies. I have no plan for tomorrow, stay at home as usual.

Don't know why, I always feel that i'm not so important to dear, his buddies always be the first for him. Although he did alot of things for me still, but if really compare to them, I still loss.

I like to cry, just like stress out all my emotion. But guys don't like, it is just too childish for them. For girls, cry is the only way to release. Guys will never understand. Guys!!! Please don't angry when you see girls crying, you all never cry when you meet the troubles, it doesn't mean girls can't do!!!

Emo signal

As i said, when I put this picture as my msn display, it means i'm sad or crying. I think everyone know it.

I'm crying now, because something is hurting me. My heart broken a minute ago.

Crying quietly in the dark corner.