"你想我吗？会偶尔想我吗？" the song sings. This is what I want to ask him after that incident. "Does him miss me?" I ask myself always. I miss him all the time, ever since he went away, moments for everyday.
Even though it's been so long, my love for him keeps going strong, remember the things that we used to do, I tried to deny it, but it never disappear...
" Don't cry, he will sad too." dear said. My tears are remorseful. Keep blaming myself, I made it happened. We can't turn back the time, I know.
He wants me to smile, yes, I did. But it is just lose control when I'm missing him. My tears dropped anyway, it was too sudden for me. When I rushed to hospital, it was too late, everything is too late, what can I do is just only listen to him in that moment.
I wish to hold his hands, walk together, talk with me, laugh with me. He always said," Touch the necklace when you miss me, I will become the necklace and accompany you." He lied me!!! When I miss him, I touched, but I can't feel him. He is no longer stay with me.
So when I miss him, my tears drop automatically. This is the only way.
He is an angel, but he left me and protecting me in heaven secretly. I know he won't left me alone, so he sent another angel for me, to protect me all the time, he is my dear.
I know he is watching me all the ways, but it can't just make me stop missing him. I keep all the words from him inside my heart, I remember it all the time.
Since 28th June 2008, I had to live my life without him, the days are empty, the nights are so long. Remember that, I still can hold his hands no matter any arguments, but I can't even touch him now.
My heart is pain, undescribable. I never show others my emotion. I need a hug, a strong shoulder, to stop the tears.
"Do You Miss Me???" I shout out again.
The only one question from me....
Good Night... I miss him anyway.
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