A present from daddy

Yesterday, I fetched my family to airport, they are going to TianJin, China for few days. On the way to airport, I was wondering about why my dad didn't give me any present for birthday, so disappointed. Haizzz...

And, since my parent is not here, so I decided to stay with my sister last night. In the late night, I wanted to sleep after checked my emails. However, dada!!!! See...

My sister suddenly gave me this, and she said the necklace is presented by dad. Wohoooo... Damn happy last night. Hahaha...

I have long time never received any present from dad, really surprisingly. 

And i'm waiting my dad to come back from China, because I know there are still alot of present and souvenirs waiting for me. XD

Thank you, daddy. Although I have been waiting for long time, haha... But I really suka the present, as you presented a pair of rings for me in last few years before. 

Love

Kampar, Utar vs Taylor

Guess where am I now? 

Hahaha... Kampar + ing...

On the way to Penang, I decided to head to Kampar to find my lovely best friends, because I really miss them so much...

Today, I did something which make me so nervous and excited, hahaha... I went to Utar and attended the lecture together my best friends, wohooo... 

While I walking into the lecture hall, I saw alot of my ex-coursemates. I think they also feel surprise, because Nicole is appeared in Utar suddenly. Hahaha...

Utar and Taylor, what is the difference? Errrrmmm... Utar's lecturer takes 'Crocodile' as example while lecturing the class; but Taylor's lecturer uses 'Lacoste' as teaching material. And, the example which given by Utar's students is 'Padini', but Taylor's students mention about 'Zara', can you see the differences?

There are a lot of big differences in between these 2 universities, but... the lecture hall is quite comfortable compare to Taylor's TBS KT1. Utar's lecture hall is really like a standard hall, but TBS KT1 is like a court. Yeee... Don't like it.

And I will be stayed at Kampar tonight and sleep together with my buddies, haha... I really enjoy the night. One night in Kampar...

Just hope time will be stopped here, so that I can spend more time with them. Pray***

That's all for tonight.

Goodnight.

How to make it bigger?

Nicole is going to bankrupt...

My mood is too bad recently, not because of homesick ( although I do ), but i'm going to bankrupt soon, no doubt, this is a truth.

I just left this little bit of money, I don't how to survive in Subang. Start from now, I need to control my daily expenses, because I really have not much of money now. Sad to say this, it is like keep reminding me. 

This is my first time, I mean going to bankrupt. Don't ask me why, I already told so many times. I more week to go, and today is just only Friday. OMG!!! Kill me please... Everyday Milo + biscuits or Cintan Mee, damn it... Really don't like this kind of life.

However, maybe this is good for me also, Nicole had never stay in this kind of situation, just let her exprience it, good for future also. (Comforting myself)

Hope to go back Penang faster, so that I won't be so suffered. Have you all calculate that how much 1 person needs to spend for 1 week in Subang?? RM 10++, I will try to survive in the following days, pray for me please...

Feel like want to cry, but I not dare to do so, I know dear will scold me. But even I cry, I also can't let him know, he will scold me too. Looking at my RM 10++, what else I can do? 

Dreaming for making it bigger, I need to tie up my little tummy, so that I won't eat so much.

Suddenly feel that life is so hard, or maybe I think so much. But I really feel suffer right now. Again, finding someone to talk to, i'm emo+ing now. 

I want to cry, miss your shoulder and big hug. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't cry, but the tears keep falling without my control.

Goodnight

Nicole is not happy today!!!

It is a raining day today, my mood is getting down and down. 

Nicole is not happy today!!!!!!!!!!!

Suddenly need someone to talk to, but where to find? Dear is doing assignment, best friends are emo-ing in Kampar. Omg! God saves me please...

I know if there is anyone who talk to me now, the person might get scolded. But I still need someone to talk to. 

I'm not the pity one, but I know everyone got his/her own problems, as me too. We need someone to talk to ( actually is need that person to release the emotion,XD ). To help us solve the problems, but i'm wondering now, who can I find and talk to???

 I miss my dear, I miss Penang, I wish to go home, but I know it is impossible.

Trying my best to do well everything, I wish he is always supporting me.

emo night, T.T

Goodnight

Happy Birthday to Nicole, Part II

Is time for me to continue my bloggy. Although i'm so free these 2 weeks, but the pressure is starting to come to me. I can feel it. 

Nothing really special happened in my birthday, because I need to go back to Subang on the next day, shittt!!! Hate it!!! Just a normal dinner with dear at a bulgarian restaurant. The food is not bad, consider okay. However, I have been waiting for my dessert for more than 30 mins. wth!!!

I need to say sorry here, because that day was too rush, and I left all the photos in my babie D 90, and it is at Penang now, i know wtf. So, no photos here. Hehe...

And I know you all will ask me what was dear presented for me right? Firstly is flower.

The second time dear bought me flowers. The first time was during the valentine. XD

A little bit surprise and touching actually.

And dear bought me a new ipod Shuffle.Wohoo... I like it, although I already got an ipod Nano. Btw, the ipod is at Penang now, because i'm at Subang. Hahaha... Can't wait to see my present.

That day was too rush, we don't even have time to take photos together, so sad. Want to cry when I think of this. Hope these 2 weeks go faster, then I can go back to Penang again.

The birthday wishes.... Ermmm... I know dear know it. 

What i hope now is everything bad can go faster, because I know the good things are waiting for me all the time. ( hope is totally different with my birthday wishes.)

Oh ya, I do miss my dear so much, and I hope he says the same thing to me too in his blog!!! But i know it is impossible. Sad...

Is time to bed

Goodnight

Happy Birthday to Nicole

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Last night, Nicole and dear with his buddies, we went to Haagen Dazs. Ice-cream, I love it, especially Haagen Dazs. 

While we were waiting for WC them and also our ice-cream, look at dear and Chris first.

They were checking LiveScore. Wth! Because last night got match, ManUnited vs Bolton, 2 vs 1, horrraaayy.... Even Aston Villa vs Chelsea, also 2 vs 1. Hahaha.... Maybe because of my birthday la. 

Btw, WC's face looked so down, because Chelsea loss. 

We ordered Flower Blossom.

We ordered only 1 type of coco ice-cream, because Chris don't like coco, weird. He don't like the taste. swt^^

We went to Mcd after it, Mcd again. Full house there, because of matches. 

I'm going out with dear later, I wish... Shhhhhhhhh... Should be a secret. Hahahaha...

Say again, Happy Birthday to Nicole.

Cheerssss

Early Bird

I'm the early bird today. Keep up all the sadness, and prepare for the every next morning. I'm trying to make myself better.

Well, i'm at Gurney Starbucks now, i'm the first customer today, and I reached at 8.47am which their business hours is starting at 9am. Hahaha... Enjoying my breakfast with a cup of Caramel Chocolate. Sounds relaxing right? Because I have been done all my assignments. Wheee...

Dear is in the class right now, and i'm waiting for him. It is a rainy day, feel cold, but i'm really enjoying. It is likes holiday (assignments all done), although I still got 1 month to go.

I was too busy in last few weeks, I should say I was too busy after Taylor. Maybe I really should take a break, and think of what I really want in my life.
We keep on rushing our stuffs everyday, every moment, but we had ignored so many things in our life. Once we slow down our steps, we only see there are so many things that we never seem before.

Btw, here is some gossip aunties around me, arguing about OldTown With Coffee and Starbucks Coffee, with Malaysia broken English. Hahaha...

Take a seat and have a coffee in a coffee shop, look around the environment and people who are walking, talking around you.
You may feel that you are the lucky one.

I love Starbucks, it makes me alive.

Starting from now

Today, I went to church with my roommate, Ivana. I pray for everything, my studies, health, for those people who love, I just pray. I wish everything will be okay, tomorrow will be another good day, I believe.

I just received a message from dear, he is busy+ing with her late cousin's funeral. He is sad to see all of his family members are crying heavily in the funeral. One of his cousin sister was fainted after cried. Although i'm not there, but I really can feel that how close the relationship there are.

My heart is pain suddenly, I believe that there is no one like to see any of his/her family member leave away, the feeling is hard to describe, especially in this case.

There are still got many things we can do right now. We refused to do many thing in the past, maybe we have not be ready yet, maybe we hate to do so, but one thing is time keeps running every moment, we can't even stop the time.

For example, I took a nap from 3pm to 5pm in 11 October 2009, that's mean there is no more 3pm to 5pm in 11 October 2009 anymore in future. Time can be past easily, we regret in past. However, we can turn the regret into appreciate start from now. We can capture every moment start from now.

These few days my emotion is up and down again, I just didn't show it, because I know dear is sad right now, I shouldn't bother him anymore. Nicole loves to cry, but she enjoys the feeling after cry, because there is another good day to her again.

There is nothing stronger than willingness. As long as we want to do, we are willing to do, I don't think we will get a bad result at last.

I'm waiting for dear's message all the time, although dear is busy, I can't get his messages sometimes, but once I had received his messages, I feel appreciate, because he is still there for me, he is still by my side.


That's all for today.

God bless you.


Goodnight.

Life is short

Something happened early in the yesterday morning, scared me when I just woke up and still in a sleepy face. Dear's eldest cousin brother suddenly passed away in the early morning...
With a unreasonable reason... I think I should say no reason.

He is just 31 years old, and has 2 little kids with a wife, everything was too sudden, no one can accept this tragedy. It was not an accident, also not a sick, and there was no any hints before he passed away. He was same with normal people, watched tv until late night before slept, but he never thought that he wouldn't see his family in the next morning.

Doctor said there is no any problem in his brain and body when he operated it. Anyway, we have to wait for 4 months to get the detail report.

I really don't know what to say when I heard this, I can't go back at the first time, because I got a lot of assignments to due on the following week. What can I do is just pray for him.

I can feel how his family feel right now, because I just lost my dearests in few years before. I understand. Life is really short...

I have learned from this tragedy, we should appreciate everything we got now, we should do whatever we like now, we should care anyone who we love... because we are lucky, we are still alive.
We still have abilities to love, care, talk... There are what we got right now.

Life is not under our control, we try to run our life, but not stop, to make it prettier, meaningful. We might loss anything in the next morning, we should start to appreciate by today, or learn it starting from now.

You should feel happy when your door alarm is ringing or open, because maybe your lovely family members are back, because they are still by your side. For couples, you should feel happy too when your partner always argue with you, because it shows that there is another person care about you.

Again, life is short, I want to shout it out here.

I LOVE YOU, DEAR!!! I'm happy that you're still by my side, we can't avoid arguments, but at least we love each other. Yes, we are the lucky one.

I hope everyone will appreciate what we got right now, we don't like this word ' regret '.


Love

I wish...

Today is not my day. Even though I have been going out with Michelle for lunch today, it still cant change my mood.

Last few days, there was some misunderstanding happened between me and family, and my dad not allowed me to go back during my birthday weekend. That's mean I have to stay back for my lonely birthday. Yea, I'm crying for it.

No other choices for me.What should I do then? Birthday maybe not really a big day, but I really don't want to stay here alone. 

Is there any ideas to help me? I've been waiting for so long, from the that day I came back, I thought I just need to suffer for these 3 weeks, but now...

Even after assignment dued, I don't think I will smile again.

I don't understand why people can't feel how much I miss Penang. 

I can give up any celebration and present to get to go home,

the important thing is go home.

I just ever request for once to go back on my birthday, but why there is not allowed? Just only once...

The only one thing to make me feel happy now is not tell me what you are going to present me, but it is let me go home...

I wish... I really can go home... 

Bitch of the bitches

What should I blog today? Keep on thinking today, feel like want to update my blog, but there is no title. 

I'm sick, head is heavy, feel uncomfortable. 

Don't know what to do.

However, there are something so annoying these few days. Since those busybody people are always reading my blog, then I won't keep it as secret, I will shout it out here!!! You know who you are. 

First, thx for reading my blog, those kepo ji. I know you care about what had happened between me and dear, you are desperately to get to know it. Don't worry, I will just write it all here as much as I can, to fulfill your needs!!!

You are waiting to see something bad happen, I know it, bitchy!!! 

Second, this is special for my college's friend. I had mentioned so many times that I got boyfriend, please don't disturb me. Not for the guy, but girl. Yea, i'm talking about you. Stop guessing and acting. I have a good relationship with my dear, I no need to find any opportunity cost for any of the relationship, it really sounds like my lecturer teaching marketing concept!!!

Stop pretenting and acting, you are so disgusting!!!

I'm wondering why all are bitches, and like to do all stupid and terrible things. Can you all go away from my life? Maybe I can't understand you all, because you all are doing something which normal people wouldn't do!!! As I said, you are bitch!!!

 Don't always link your ex with me, i'm not so free to play with you. Don't forget, I never do anything wrong in this problem, you might be the victim, but i'm the poor innocent party!!! Your attitudes are so annoying, better tie up your ex if you still keep dreaming about he is yours!!!

These are what you are, Spoil my mood!!!

Goodnight.

Happy 2nd Anniversary

Damn emo today, my mood is not good totally. Just try to make myself busy and busy all the time. And can't even talk nicely to anyone. One word, crazy. Nicole is crazy.

I'm facing too much of the pressure, I can't use to this kind of pressure, everything in my mind is negative, really can't think it nicely. Cry and cry, I know it doesn't work, but I really have no choice. I need something to release my emotion.

At last, I argued with dear. I wish he knows that i'm very suffer from those pressure, I know i'm not the one who having these pressure, but i'm very suffer now. 

Today, 4th Oct 2009 is our 2nd Anniversary. But, dear is celebrating Mooncake festival with his buddies, and i'm blogging alone in hostel. Suddenly feel likes everything is a lie. Something what he did is totally not fair to me. I'm sad.

No celebration for 2nd anniversary, no accompany, what also don't have. Not a very special day, because we are doing something different at the same time. I should say, I'm sad.

Actually I really don't know what to blog today, just random. I'm in depression, who knows it? I don't think anyone know it.

Once I step forward, I think everything will be fine. Oh ya, Nicole is going insane.

Anyway, Happy 2nd Anniversary. I love my dear, I wish... I know he know it.

Goodnight.

ManUnited's jersey with more extra marks

Just back from class. And i'm sick today. Fever and flu come together, make me can't concentrate on my studies.

Just hand up my marketing assignment 2 today, means I still got 5 more to go, wtf!!! I'm sick, I really how to do the rest of the assignments. Same thing, today got quiz in the marketing class, this is the last 2nd quiz, there will be the last quiz for the coming week. 

I wore Man United's jersey to college today, because last night got match, hahaha... And my tutor is also the fans of Man United, now i only know it. And he said," Nicole, you are the Man United's fans? ( he saw i was wearing the jersey ), then you will get more extra marks for the quiz today." Hahaha... Everyone shocked there.

 I know he is kidding, but in other way, maybe he really will give me more extra marks. Haahaha... I know i'm dreaming, as i'm sick, I feel so blur right now.

 Wear ManUnited's jersey get extra marks, then I think I should wear more times. Hahaha...

Btw, my mood is not really good right now. Something happened today, really spoil my mood again.

 

 

Bye.