Babie D90

I have been long time never touch my babie D90. Something went wrong today, I take it up and simply catch everything.

My uncle said I have to talk more to my babie D90, means more communication with it, otherwise it won't come out any nice photos. XD

Actually I took many photos today, but don't why, i feel that today is not my day. Hahaha.... Maybe babie D90 is too heavy for me, make me not so comfortable. Sorry, I know it is just my excuse.

A young plant for 1 type of flowers. ( Don't know what name)

A beautiful dry leaf

For me, it is beautiful la. I like this photo, a special feeling.

Nicole with Babie D90

Since i'm so free recently, I will try to take more nice photos to share with you all. Give me some time please.... I'm just a beginner.

Full stop.

28th June is coming, I will let HIM (X) know, i'm happy right now, my life is full with happiness, prove to him as well.


Smile to face it, this is the only thing i can do.

I miss HIM (X), yes, I do. But no more sadness, I hope... It is not a comma, it should be a full stop.

Cheers

Everything settle!!! Wish I could stop it ever after. Cheers... Lets party!!!
I need to have some fun.

p/s: I love my dear so much. XD

Have a nice day...


Bb

First time.

I made dear suffer these days. No!! I think should be " always".

Remember that, he said i'm always the important to him, 2 years ago. But, I can't feel him always. Dear treats me good, give me what I want always, fufill me everything. It is called "care"?

We argued again. For him, sometimes friend is always the most important to him; for me, his friend is always the most important to him. When he admits this fact, my heart broke silently. Tears dropped again.

When I saw him together with his friends, his expression is totally different. He is happy, smile and laugh naturally.

I did a lot of things to him, I never tell him. I tell myself, it is an responsibility. I should do for him. However, I still get nothing from him at last. I never blame him, I should know it early.

I'm sad, when he said something different to me last night. He never said these stupid things to me, no matter how unreasonable am I. This is the first time...

I cried and cried heavily, nobody home, no transport, no food. And bitten by a stupid centipede, but it never pain as my broken heart.

I know I have to bear some responsibilities. I'm stupid and bad enough. Because I feel unsafe all the while...

I will learn to respect him....

Time out...

I argued with dear, because of the remorseful to HIM (X).

Maybe dear thinks too much about what I did for HIM (X) which can't re-live again. I tried to forget this incident in this 1 year time. But it can't just be erased easily.

When I looked into the mirror, I saw a girl with her broken heart, appeared all the stories and memories. It was a sweet memory, a happy love, and I know is time to let go.

Every time I cry, it means I did something unfair to dear. So, I never reject dear any of his requested. I thought it will be enough for dear as much as I do, but... I was wrong.

I can't stop the memories to replay, but I know it is time to let go. HIM (X), a guardian who always protecting me in heaven secretly, I will let HIM (X) know, i'm living well, smile to face anything. I know he is looking at me, this is the only thing I can do for HIM (X).

Forgo the grows, it might takes time. But, as long as i'm trying... Trying to be a stronger and happy girl.

No more pretending, not only for dear to feel better, also for me...

I'm so sorry dear, you always the important for me, I need your supports when I fall down. I need you to dry up my tears, a heavy hug when i'm down. It will be more workable to advises.

Don't cry, I tell myself...

Bb

Bak Gua>>> Summons

The weather so hot today, no mood to eat... I can say MOODY!!!

I get a "bak gua" yesterday, summons i mean. Make me down whole night. Should i blame the police? I just talked in the handphone, and I was waiting for the traffic light turn into green. But the police stopped me. WTF!!! I never talked in the phone while driving. Bad luck!!!

Dad scolded me: " why you didn't use bluetooth when you want to talk?" Aih.... Sumor asked me to pay by myself, RM 100!!!! No choice, I must pay it.

As I knew, my dad won't be so bad, so this morning, he called me, and asked his friend to settle for me. YeeePeee!!! Love you so much my dad.

Btw, tomorrow I have a date with dear. Hoooray!!! Dear wants to bring me to eat horliao. I hope he don't disappoint me. Hahaha...

Actually I don't know what should I write for my bloggy today.

Thats all my nonsense today. Tomorrow will be more wonderful. Hahaha...

Bb

Do You Miss Me???

Yesterday, I listened a special song, 两个人不等于我们 by Wang LeeHom. It is an old song, but it's meaningful.

"你想我吗？会偶尔想我吗？" the song sings. This is what I want to ask him after that incident. "Does him miss me?" I ask myself always. I miss him all the time, ever since he went away, moments for everyday.

Even though it's been so long, my love for him keeps going strong, remember the things that we used to do, I tried to deny it, but it never disappear...

" Don't cry, he will sad too." dear said. My tears are remorseful. Keep blaming myself, I made it happened. We can't turn back the time, I know.

He wants me to smile, yes, I did. But it is just lose control when I'm missing him. My tears dropped anyway, it was too sudden for me. When I rushed to hospital, it was too late, everything is too late, what can I do is just only listen to him in that moment.

I wish to hold his hands, walk together, talk with me, laugh with me. He always said," Touch the necklace when you miss me, I will become the necklace and accompany you." He lied me!!! When I miss him, I touched, but I can't feel him. He is no longer stay with me.

So when I miss him, my tears drop automatically. This is the only way.

He is an angel, but he left me and protecting me in heaven secretly. I know he won't left me alone, so he sent another angel for me, to protect me all the time, he is my dear.

I know he is watching me all the ways, but it can't just make me stop missing him. I keep all the words from him inside my heart, I remember it all the time.

Since 28th June 2008, I had to live my life without him, the days are empty, the nights are so long. Remember that, I still can hold his hands no matter any arguments, but I can't even touch him now.

My heart is pain, undescribable. I never show others my emotion. I need a hug, a strong shoulder, to stop the tears.

"Do You Miss Me???" I shout out again.

The only one question from me....

Good Night... I miss him anyway.