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The sixth day to be a Taylorian. Sounds not bad, but it is really stressful. I'm sick now, as I told you all last night, fever, flu, vomit, nose bleeded... All came along. But dear is at Singapore right now, can't even accompany me to chat too much in msn.

Yesterday we argued, I know there is something. Because of my pain actually, I don't want to go clinic, that's why... Actually I scare about H1N1 also.

My Taylor's tee
Look nicer than Tarc a lot!!!

My face looked very 'chan', sick jor, no choice. Have to smile in front of camera. Hahaha...

I miss dear. But I feel that he is so cool to me these day, I know he cares me, but he is using the wrong way.

Once I see the black pearl which is wearing on my neck, I will forget how we misunderstood each other, is it good for me?? The feeling is totally different with few days before, I mean when I just reached Subang. I'm totally down, no way to let me release my emotion.

I always trust that dear is always support me, but now my confident is getting lesser and lesser, down and unsafe are how I feel now.

Dear, you promised that we won't argue anymore right? We must put some effort on it okay? I don't want to cry anymore. People always say ' homesick ', but.... I think I get ' Boyfriend-sick '. Can dear really feels it?? I have no answer...

I love my dear, it is a fact...


Bb

I think I get sick

Today I sick jor. Feels like abit fever ( don't tell my dear please), vomit just now. But not really fever la, just i think too much.

I was crying, because i felt alone, nobody is here, except my roommate.
I miss my dear, miss until tears dropped.

Look at dear's muscle...hahaha...Acting acting.

We like to act crazy all the time, but actually just me la, obviously. XD

Last Saturday, took at Gurney Place Dome, with apple crush...

Actually I was so emo that day. Last day in Penang. Misszzz...

Attention please!!!

I'm not fever as well, maybe i will be fall sick soon, headache, dizzy.... all come together. I know dear so worry me, scare me kena H1N1, hahaha... Actually i'm scare too.

Dear, concern me more please la. I don't want to feel lonely here, and you are going to Singapore soon, although just 3 days.

I sure miss dear very very much while he is not around.


Sorry for my boring post...

love

nitezzzz...

I miss Shun Jie!!!

I miss Shun Jie!!! I miss the time with dear...

Really really miss him so much!!! Miss his hugs, miss his kisses, hope to see him now!!!

We took this photo while in Man United Asia Tour 2009 at Stadium Bkt Jalil. Miss the time also.

This is the last photo we took in RedBox Penang. Sing 'K' with his mom, crazy whole day. hahaha

To dear,

If you read this page, please tell me how much you miss me too, I really can't wait to see you. Because I miss you so much!!! Can you hear me??? Give me some response please...

And... I love you... Muacksss....

xoxo

First day of Taylor's

Today is my first day in Taylor's University, so panic actually. I'm different with normal student, I got 8 subjects have been exempted, i supposed to get into Year 2, but I got 2 papers in Year 1 have to take, OMG!!! So hard to explain!!!

And my lecturer is a Aussian!!! Her accent is so so so.... Australia, hard to understand. I'm trying to listen to her carefully. hahaha...

First day, assignments came out, 1 subject with 2 assignment, i'm going to die in Taylor's.

My dear didn't call me last night as he promised to call me everynight before I sleep. He lied to me!!! I want to cry again!!! Actually this morning I cried again, because of dear la. As I said, he didn't call me last time, so this morning he woke me up, then I cried when i heard his voice.
Btw, Alice said it is so sweet, because her boyfriend never call and wake her up. Hahaha...

I know actually dear cares me much one, just he never show it. He is waiting me all the while, even I was in the class. I love him so much. Muacks...

I miss my dear every moment with no reason. I know he also the same.

That's all my for my bloggy today.
Love

Bb

Goodbye Penang

Goodbye Penang... I will miss 'YOU' everyday...

I'm at Subang right now, drove alone to this strange city, it might knows me, but I don't know it. I have to stay at here for 2 years, although I can still go back to Penang as well.

Wait...

I want to shout out something here, I miss my lovely dear so much!!! I even started to miss dear after I went back from dear's house this morning. I do miss him so much!!! I used to stick with dear everyday, but now.... I'm leaving, I don't know how he feels right now.

I cried heavily this few days, my days fulled with activities these days, because dear knew that i'm going to leave, so... he just want me to catch all the sweet memories with him. I can feel it, thanks dear so much, I love him much much too. XD

Thanks for dear's efforts, St. Anne, QE II... I really enjoy it.

I'm wondering whether tonight I can sleep or not, because of this strange city. I bring dear's tee to Subang actually, just like he is always around me... hehe... I'm crazy. haha

It is a complicated feeling, hard to explain right now. I just know that I miss my dear so much. I wish he is around me right now. I know he cried last night after QE II and this morning, I just feel that i'm selfish enough, left him alone at Penang.

But... just now dear told me," as long as we love each other can already." Yes, i agreed. He never talk to me in this way, this is the first time. So i really can feel how he feels right now, just...same with me actually.

Dear!!! I love you no matter what!!! I hope you don't break the promises, I will sad if you do so. Wait me okay?? Muacksss....

Back from Van Der Sar

I am back!!! I am back!!! I came back from Van Der Sar last night, should be this morning. Hahaha...

It was really unbelievable!!! I really saw Edwin Van Der Sar!!!

A lot of things happened in these few days, I will get you all more photos and info soon, give me some time. Because... I feels that i'm still dreaming of appearance of Man United!!!

So give me some time please.... XD

Anyway, this is the photo while I was lining up in front of the stadium for the match. Damn hot!!!

Taking ticket with Man United new jersey

I love Van Der Sar!!!

love

xoxo.

ManUnited Asia Tour 2009

I'm going to KL later, for my ManUnited Asia Tour 2009....Hahaha....

And I'm going to Kampar to find my best friends, miss them so much...

I will update my blog when i'm back.

Hope I can see Van Der Sar, XD



See you...

Bb, love.

Argument or Discussion?

We are tired, we feels lonely while we miss someone else...

I don't really understand what is 'LOVE'? It is a complicated word, hard to actualize and carry out, not only me, but everyone. Love included argument and discussion. It always can be either one. Many people say, no argument no improvement, it is correct, but I rather it be a discussion, at least it won't hurt the relationship.

Discuss with low tone; argue with high tone. Low tone makes us more relax; high tone makes us angry easily. It is a common sense.

We will get some arguments in the relationship, it can be a small matter, don't always make it bigger, no helps. It will just make us suffer. What do I mean by make it bigger is something like break up.

Couples always use 'break up' to end their argument, but I know it is not what they really want, then only feel regret at last.

Don't do something which will make you regret, chance will not be came again, it might comes, it might not. So why don't we just appreciate the first or the only chance?

I don't like argument, but I like discussion. If no discussion, we will never know what the other side is thinking. Just tell what you really want, maybe it will change your life...

Injections

Gastric!!! Gastric!!! Doctor said I have to drink warm water but not hot water, I did it, buy why still the same??? Last time gastric happened after i ate, but now is after I drink. Even just drink water also will pain, wtf.

Look at my hand below, the nurses put the injection under the plaster. But have you ever see a nurse so stupid, I was put the injection at Hospital X, but when I go for the next day, Hospital Y, the nurse put the injection at the same place. It is PAIN!!!


Not only on my hand, also put one more injection on my ass. Arggghhh!!!! The nurse said it is anti-pain wor... Don't know la.

I just know I took 4 injections in 2 days!!! I'm crazy!!! Fucking pain!!!

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Thinking whether today got outing or not? I don't want to stay at home anymore!!!

Although i might gastric again, but at least i'm not now. So...have to go out faster...hahahaha....

Call me out please...


Love.

Bb

Sienzzz....

These 2 days, Wednesday and Thursday, no outing anymore... I'm so sien at home, and gastric makes me goes insane.

No outing then what to do leh? Stay at home, stare at the plasma tv, play with the kids....blah blah blah... that's all. Fucking siensss....

I still got many places haven't go, Tao, QE II, Sunset bistro, beach... Then the food leh, erm... Hokkien mee, Tomyam mee, duck egg koay teow, Naan, many many things....

Dear lied me, he said he will fetch me to eat those all, but satu pun tak ada at last. Aih... Maybe he think still got time gua. Don't know him la... He is attending Xiong Ping's brother wedding dinner, but I just stare at the tv alone. Aih...

Look at my sien face... Aih... Sumor gastric... 2 days for twice injections. WTF!!! And I can't expose to the sun always, otherwise I will feel dizzy, since i'm still in poor resistance. OMG!!!

I need some activities la!!! I really don't want to waste my time anymore... Please...

Don't know what to blog today, just act crazy la...

Sorry for my boring blog, tomorrow will be better...hahaha..XD

That's all. Love

Bb.

07-07-2009

Yesterday, 07-07-2009, Tuesday, so many things happened...

A rainy day, but the rain started at late evening I think, because I was in the Gurney RedBox with friends.

But...

Before we went to RedBox, a terrible thing happened. Me and dear argued with the Gurney Nando's Waiter. Walau, he gave us a wrong bill and we paid for wrong amount, but at last he scolded us that all were our fault. WHAT??!!! Is it really our fault?? I just follow what the bill shown amount then I paid.

Me and dear wait for the balance after the first payment, but the stupid waiter came for the second payment again. And said, we were going to run away from the rest amount. WHAT??!!! Again!!! We were waiting for me balance, if we really wanted to run away, i think we no need to wait anymore, since Justin and Jo were quit also.

The waiter scolded us that that was our ( me and dear ) attitude problems!!! WTF!!! What a terrible waiter!!! Then I just thrown the left payment and i quit.

We were so angry about the way how the terrible waiter treated us!!! It was really terrible!!!

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After the dinner, I gastric again, actually I pain after Nandos'. So dear sent me to the hospital A&E department. But still need to wait while I was paining heavily!

A&E means Accident and Emergency. It charged me RM 143.90. Damn expensive!!! This was the first time that dear accompany me to the A&E. I think he also panic. hahaha...

I'm thinking, what if I pain while i'm in Subang?? Who is going to fetch me to hospital? I asked dear," Can I don't want go to Subang?" I cried!!! I don't want alone when something happen on me.

Can I don't want go to Subang?

The 3rd day of my 2nd lover

Omg!!! The third day of Starbucks hang out... Continuously...

Monday night, with dear's buddies, included Ling Hui and Joesoo ( a new friend ), both of them just came back from Australia, one from Melbourne, one from Perth. Luckily both of them were safe from the quarantine of H1N1. Hehe...


The outing start from 9.30pm, I really can't imagining how funny they are. Our topic there is S.H.I.T = SHIT. OMG!!! Shit also can be one of their topic. They talked about how they break their fart, how they pang sai, what's their shit look like, the way to get free the shit when they are suffer, etc.

I just can use 'OMG!!!' to describe them. Really OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! SHIT!!! Yeee, why sound like some of the movie dialog? Hehehe...

Please visit this, if can...http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=105251177483&ref=mf, something funny over there. Have a look please, and comment on it. You will see another side of Justin Lim. Hahaha....

I love my days, although 3 days Starbucks continuously, but I still very enjoy. With friends and dear. The time is getting lesser, I know dear just want me to have a memorable holiday in the left time. I really appreciate it. Thanks my dear.

Do you know what am I doing now? I'm at the tinted shop, to repair my car's tint. Damn tired, woke up at 8.15, because my appointment at 9am. Today, don't know how many days I had woke up early early in the morning. But... As i said, I still love my days.

Just do what I can do, because the time is lesser and lesser... Together with dear, family, friends, Penang...

My 2nd Lover

I went to Starbucks these 2 days, Saturday and Sunday. Lepak there, nothing to do. Hahaha...

People ask me why always go Starbucks. " Because I will only think about what to do when I at Starbucks." I replied. Crazy... Just my excuse la, I really love Starbucks what. Everyone know it.
When they see Starbucks' logo, they will think of me. It likes a sign.

Dear got a free tall size drinks there, thats why we went there on Saturday night.

Vanila Cream & Coco Cream Chip

I'm tasting Vanila Cream

Dear uses Bobbi Brown's product. Hahaha...
With a Coach bag. XD

Look at my tongue, act crazy

Look at dear's senget face
Sienzzzz....

We always spend our time at Starbucks. Don't know why, I will only think and use my brain while at Starbucks. Hahaha... Again!!

Forgot start from which day, I fell in love with Starbucks, I think dear also the same. Just like how much I love dear, but of course I love dear more than Starbucks la, sure one ma...

Dear said he will not always go to Starbucks anymore when I'm not here, because... there is no more fun without me. He will think of me again when he see the Starbucks. Same to me, when I see Starbucks, all the memories will be came out. It is sweet. I keep it.

I love dear.

I love Starbucks ~ My 2nd Lover.

Sing 'K'

Sing 'K' !!! Lets go... Last few days, we went to sing K with dear's mum. Since we got nothing to do. I think they just want me have a nice and memorable holiday before I leave.

Anyway, just thanks... Muackss...

The Karaoke named Amp Square Karaoke.... Erm... Quite nice lo, compare to Red Box.


Our student cards expired already!!! Argh!!! Otherwise it would be cheaper. WTF!!! There got student price, just show your student card, then you will get discount. But not me and dear!!!!

Singing but still in sweet.

Dear's mom & Dear ~ Jie

Me ~ Nicole

Acting acting in the room, while listening dear's mom singing. Erm... the voice... sounds like... okay lo... hehe...

Amp Square Karaoke is located in Sunway Carnival Mall, the highest floor. Sunway Pyramid also got, don't worry if you are there.

3 persons, spent around RM 70++, 2 drinks each person. Okay la, not bad.

That's all my boring post.

Bb

感动=Cry

I always ask some stupid questions. I asked dear: " when you read my blog, would you gan dong(感动)? Would you cry?" Hahahaha.... " NOPE, just gan dong, I never cried." said dear. Walau!!! Must cry ma, since I thanks him so much...Hahaha

Crazy la me. For me, 感动= Cry. I cry easily, this is what dear always scold me. Sikit sikit then I will cry.

Just like everytime when we talked about i'm leaving soon, ( although I will be back monthly) but I still will se bu de (舍不得), then I will cry again, Sometimes I might not cry, just my eyes full with tears. Don't know why.

I should get off this stupid attitude, but its just too hard for me, cry easily. Give me a solution please.... I wanna get it off!!!

I just came back from car service centre, damn tired, woke up early early in the morning. let me take a nap awhile... thanks ... muacks...

Goodnight...Erm??? Morning??? Aiyah...either one la...

Bb

Thank you

Happy or not happy? I also don't know. I'm just like going to crazy. I can't even differentiate whether it is happy or sad.

I'm going to leave my lovely hometown, everyone supports me, but i'm the one who only keep thinking whether should I stay back or what.

Today I asked dear: " Will you miss me when i'm not around?". " Yes, sure I will," dear said. And " I will feel that someone is not around me anymore." dear said again. My tears dropped again. I was so happy in that moment. This is the first time dear told me about those sweet things.

We went to cut hair today. On the way, we kept talking about this topic (about i'm leaving). My eyes full with tears many times. I just never show, but I know dear knew it.

I'm happy because dear told me something sweet which he never said to me before; I'm sad because of i'm going to leave here and my lovely dear soon.

Dear never gives me any confident or say something to make me feel better, i'm feel so unsafe. He just always smile with me no matter what, but I really can't read his mind, I don't know what he is really thinking about.

Am I so selfish to choose what I want for my future and left him alone here? I know it is a stupid question. I know.

I wish dear can tell me everything, everything that inside his deepest heart. At least I will feel better... At least I can do something for him...

I realized that my life will be stopped without him, he is a part of my life. I don't want the long distance relationship to be spoilt. I wish it can last longer and longer...


I love you so much my dear... Thanks for everything... You always in my deepest heart... Love you. Muacks... I hope you love me and care me much much too. I hope you tell me how much you love and care me tooooo. XD

I'm crying, my tears keep dropping, don't why...


Special for dear...Miss you.

Bb