I Miss YOU

I miss YOU so much, i miss YOU everyday, YOU are always in my heart, I hope that YOU still be here now...

I'm so regret because i never take any photo with her, my lovely late great granny. She leave us more than one year already, i never stop missing her these years. everytime when i miss her, i will cry, this is the way how i miss her.

Before she gone, she was sicked heavily, i was so worried that time, even my family. Everyday when i go to school, i feel so scare, because i scare that she will leave me, i want her, because i miss her. She is a nice great granny, she love everyone of us. I still remember that she always ask me whether i got enough pocket money to use or not, ask me whether still got gastric or not because she know that i always don't want eat on time and many many... That time i felt that she was very FAN, I never try to appreciate what she gave me before, but now... I'm so regret, i always asking myself why I did such stupid things before. I feel bad now, really...

When i still a little girl, she always buy the sweets for me, she just very sayang me, always play with me, buy the toys for me, I will always remember it, she gave me a good memory. When i just get my driving lisence, the first thing that appeared in my mind is I want to fetch my late great granny to many places, but it was too late, she was sicked heavily when i just get the lisence. Sometimes, she can't even remember who am I, i cried... It was so hurt.

Now I realized that i still got many things which i haven't share with her, happiness, sadness...
Can YOU hear me there? Do YOU know that we all miss YOU so much?

I wish...
I can spend more time with her

I can fetch her to many places

I can see her for another day

She can hear me

She can see my picture of graduation

She never leave us

many and many...

I really miss YOU much....

...Buffet...

It looks so nice right? I love the strawberry one, taste quite good...XD

Last few days( Deepavali,I think so...), i went to Ghotel to take the buffet dinner with his family members. The theme of the buffet is Mongolia, which mean all the dishes are related Mongolia. The lamb is so nice!!! But the oysters...Errmm... For me, I think is not soooo fresh la, because it make me VOMIT!!!!

And one more thing, Ghotel's glasses are sooooo nice, cantik sekali...XD
His dad(ShunJae's dad) asked me to take one glass then put into my big bag (mean steal lo.), but sure i didn't do it la, otherwise you all have to visit me in jail already...haha...

I have long time never eat together with parent already, although they are not my real parent, but they make me feel so warm that night, thanks alot... It was so memorable.

Sadness...

I am not happy today, i'm not feeling well, gastric for many days already, but he never concern me (maybe he got, but i can't feel it).

When I on the way back home, i called him, i know he at airport that time but he just give me a cool cool response. he asked me what time is the tomorrow class, i told him at 10am and he told me that he got a replacement class at 11am, so i just ask him to fetch me since i'm not feeling well, but he is rejected me. Suddenly, i feel that i'm really not the most important to him, i think this is a fact. He gave me a reason that our classes time not match, then i said i can wait him, but he said he want to give me more freedom to do my stuff!! Wtf!! I say that i want to wait him, that is because i want to spend more time with him since this few days i don't have time to accompany him.

I don't know what is happening between both of us. I feel that he never know how to maintain the relationship, my heart is pain, really... Tell me that what should I do, I just want to know how does he feel, I want him happy. And... sumthing that i never tell him, i have done many things to try to make him happy, but he just never realize, I also don't want to tell him, because i think keep it as a secret will be much better...

Penang...

Now i only know that Penang is a great place, this is my first time to taste how Penang is. It's really a nice place, and it make me feel that i wish to stay at Penang and I am proud of it. Hahaha... so funny,because i already stayed at Penang around 19 years, now i just realized how beautiful Penang is. Each of the buildings are historical. Today i went to so many places which i never pay attention before, eg:Surname bridges, Jetty, Upper Road, St. George Church... There are so beautiful and memorable...

Well, Penang is a wonderful place, but people may feel bored after shopping and eating, but actually there is more than those that i mentioned, many photographer will come around Penang, and catch the view... it will be a meaningful activity,because that time you will know how Penang is. Tomorrow is Deepavali, but even at Little Indian which located in Penang, not much i can feel the Deepavali mood. Anyway, Happy Deepavali to everyone of you.

Thanks Soon Hee, ShunJae's brother. He is the main character for this trip today, he is also a beginner of photographer, because he just own his SLR not more than one month before. I hope i can spend more time in Penang, because i realized that I love Penang.XD