Twenty Ten

Nicole is back!!! Back to my bloggy.

Just came back from my best friend's wedding, so tired... Actually it started since last night, boh-eng whole night seriously. I need a break.

Going for New Year Celebration 2010 later, liquor still, but I don't think you guys will see me at any clubs later. Countdown at home. 

Twenty Ten (2010), I know it is not really the best year, but i'm waiting for it's coming. Will update my blog soon. 

Rest now, crazy later.

Off

Nicole needs to off for few days.

Will update the blog as soon as possible.

Hope everything will be okay.

Anything just leave her messages, Sorry for anyone who can't reach her.

God bless.

People are selfish

Chest pain, it comes so frequent these few days. But, what makes me pain the most is there is no one really listening to me. Even there are someone really listening, but their mind are fulled with blaming...

I don't mind about chest pain, what i mind is care. I admit that i'm in bad mood now, and my chest pain seriously, feel like fainted anytime.

I'm wondering that why people are so selfish? I hardly mention about my sick recently, but people treat it as i'm recovering. Anyhow, I already done what am I supposed to do, I will leave soon. When i'm not here, I hope that there is no one will remember me.

People are selfish, when they need you, they will do anything for you, to fulfill you, because they need your helps; but when they no need you, they will not even find you or call you. 

When you need them, who cares? They are just pretending and lying you all the time.

'PEOPLE', don't wait until can't find someone when he/she is not here anymore, when he/she is left only realized about importance, let me tell you, it is too late...

Goodnight

*06-12-2009*

I went to KDU again today, together with dear. I know, it is not important. Btw, today KDU's library is closed, wtf. And I wait him at Canteen. lol...

Today, I have my another off day again. So I decided to head to Penang early in the morning with dear. Happy... Although I have to wake up early in the morning.

I had really enjoyed my holiday yesterday. I went to Kek Lok Si with Irene, Soon Hua and dear. Head to have breakfast, dim sum at BM. Then moved faster to Kek Lok Si after it, because we were late!!!

When we reached there, there was 9 something in the morning, but we suddenly saw the banners which wrote the celebration will be started at 8 am. OMG!!! We were really late!!! And, we can't get any parking there. But, luckily the weather is so good, so that my mood is good also.

There were so jammmm!!! Playing around in the car. 

This was the first photo that we took that day. At that moment, everyone was looking at us, 4 crazy Penang Kia playing around.

After that, we headed to Kuan Yin statue by cable car.

Seriously, the cable car is better than Penang Hill's cable car, a lot a lot, at least got air-con.

Me and Irene bought Carnations.

Kek Lok Si trip end, the next destination is Surname Bridge.

While I walked to the Surname Bridge, dear took this photo. Don't laugh pls, I also don't know what I did.

I will not talk so much about Surname Bridge, because I had posted it before. Then we went to PC fair after it. 

" When you are too addicted to PC fair, then you will become like this" said dear.

PC fair? Actually there were no cheap PC at PC fair compared to the retail shops, just they gave a lot of free gifts. So, don't be cheated by those sellers. You might spend more at there.

I was so happy yesterday, because I spent my day with them. I wish there still got chances for our next trip. I really appreciate the time.


There are still a lot of photos, I will upload it in facebook soon.

I really feel happy when I together with him, I really enjoy my time. I hope he appreciate too, because he knows what am I meant. Lastly, I wish there will be some miracle happened. I do pray everyday, every moment. 

p/s: Dear, remember what you have promised me!!! XD

Love

"Pipo, pipo, pipo..."

I'm off today... Supposed to be happy, but how I know that I have to get in to the GMC again for treatment. OMG!!!

Today is a bad day, so many accidents on the roads, so many weird things happened. Penang bridge was fucking jam for nothing, the highway also full with police blocking, just now on the way back home, I saw so many accidents. Damn sad.

And, just now went for dinner with dear, same case, on the way home, I saw an ambulance,"Pipo, pipo, pipo..." Another accident happened again. Today, at GMC, on the road, I just heard "pipo, pipo, pipo..." That's all.

Anyway, I hope tomorrow will be a good day, because i'm going to enjoy my only 1 day of holiday. So scare to hear this kind of sound. 

I should feel lucky and happy, because I get more time compare with them, at least I still got 1 more year to go.

Enjoy the left time, this is what can I do.

p/s: Today is bad day!!!

Should I go or not?

December is reached, the weather is different, cold and keep raining this few days. Btw, Sunway Carnival Mall is snowing everyday. Hahaha... I can feel that the Christmas is coming.

I'm wondering this year, don't know whether I got chance to celebrate Christmas or not, my sick is so annoying. 

What can I do in 5 years time? Or maybe 1 year? Too short for me. I'm thinking everyday. I hope there are some solutions for me. 

I just want to do something which I like. Italy, I don't think it is a suitable choice for me. But everyone wants me to go, why? 

Tell me please, should I go or not? 50:50, thinking going or not. Everything will be changed if I going. Actually few days ago I already decided that i'm not going, but... something happened, they want me to re-consider again. 

This morning, should be mid-night, I felll down from the stair again, and I have been sent to hospital quickly. Doctor had been warning me that I can't fall down again, but who knows what will happen on next?

Doctor said a lot of things to me, and I know my time is getting lesser, it is really serious, I saw purple, nose bleeding... I know there are so many things I might not do it on time. However, I got my reasons, the reality forces me to do so.

And I know the Italy's weather is less than 5'c, damn cold!!! 

I choose to stay back, because of my dear. I wish to see him everyday while I still can, but something made me so disappointed. And if I going to Italy, who will accompany him all the while. When I choose to go KL for my studies, it was really a wrong decision. I don't want to repeat the selfish mistake again. 

Even I stay back, it is not for my health, but it is for dear. I just want to use my left time to accompany him, at least do something for him. Maybe there will be some miracle happen, but at least I try to do all the things which I like now. No more regret.

I wish he can hear me. I just want to do something for him. This is the only thing which I can do for him.

Tell me, should I go or not?

Is time to off. Although i'm sitting in the mall with doing nth.


Pray.