Do I happy now?

Recently i'm very busy, keep doing things, my homework, part time jobs, and take care of my pain. These all make me don't have other time to think other things.

I still remember that last time a person who is very important in my heart told me something,the person said:" DO whatever is happy to yourself, don't do it for others.", these words are always in my mind, it is important for me.

During the Christmas night, a guy text me, he wrote," I know you are not really happy now, why you want to pretend that you are really happy in front of me?" That time i ask myself," DO I really happy now? Or Should I have to happy now?" I have no answer since that night.

I never realize that what have I done before were is for others, but not mine. Even friends, family and also boyfriend. I did much for everyone, but never for me. Since that day the person told me this, i only keep thinking about this problem.

Do I happy now? I really don't know... But some feelings will never go away, until the end.

3 December 2008

I'm not feeling well recently, headache and gastric, some more food poisoning these few days. My body is so weak, now i only know that.

Everyday I just like over slept and late to college. When i reached the college, suddenly make me feel like I want to go back to my house and rest. So suffer when i have some illness. I want to skip the classes, but I can't even do so. The classes are so important, I have to attend it. So, everyday when i reach home, i will be very tired and like out of energy.

Everything likes not running in well, I don't know why... Maybe this semester make me too stress already, everything running in rush, break become a need for me. 24 hours per day is not enough for me also.

But... 'break' for me is extra one. Because I don't want to use my free time to think something stupid, otherwise i will suffer alot.

I break promise to him again. I had promised him that I will go to watch his match on last weekend before, but i didn't do it.I know that he did a good job in the final match, i'm so proud of him, but i have no chance to see the medal anymore. Maybe, he didn't care so much about whether i'm going to his match or not, but i really care about it, just he never know. I never wish that he know what i'm thinking now, because as i said before, i don't know how to face him, and also i have no right to comment even one thing. But, he is always in my deep heart, I will never forget him, my TopMan.

I don't know why everytime when i'm writing my blog, I will think back what he had done for me before. Can I say I miss him? because I really had long time never see him already, and I don't know what he is thinking and doing now. I really miss him.

I want to advise every of my friends, please appreciate what you get now, don't regret when you lost it. When you realize that your time is getting lesser and lesser, you will know that actually not much you can do for the person that you love. And...take good care of yourself, we are still young, the long journey is still in front of us.

X'mas at Starbucks.

Hohoho... Santa Claus is coming to the town...
Oppss... Wrong already, it should be Santa Claus is on the way to the town,hehe...
Christmas is coming soon, everyone is waiting to celebrate Christmas, even Starbucks.

Last Saturday i went Starbucks after my dinner, I saw that there are full with Christmas decorations, make me feel like Santa Claus is almost reaching to Juru Autocity.

I like the special edition mugss,which just special for Christmas, but so expensive!!! I wish i can get one,erm... but who is going to present for me??! aih... He?? Or She?? He will just ask me wait long long la!!! Kek Sim nia.

Not only the mugss, even the drinks also got special for Christmas, but i don't know whether nice or not la, because i haven't try it before.
I love Christmas Day, because it is full with the wishes, from anyone which i love. Christmas is a day for people to get the forgiveness from others. Via Christmas, we can get together with all the friends and family members. It is good for build and maintain the relationship, let it never end...
In my opinion, if there is some free time, you may go to Starbucks and have a cup of coffee, then just sit on the sofa and enjoy it. No even the coffee, you may taste the smell of Christmas or Santa Claus also... especially on weekend's night. Then you will know how did I felt in Starbucks on the Saturday night.