Family, Penang, Malaysia

Can I just keep staying in Malaysia? 

I miss Malaysia, I miss Penang so much... I miss my besties so much...

Or this is what should i say --->> I love my family.

因為愛

 Although I don't really understand what it is talking about, but i wish to share with you


Something really from my deep heart...


有些事情 我也說不明白
想和你在一起 為什麼捨不得分開
或許我軟弱 也害怕失敗
但有你的笑容 就能讓我再站起來

你曾問我是什麼令我對你難以忘懷
我也曾經想過這種感覺說不出來
我現在才明白

因為愛 所以愛 珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開 你不在 懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛 所以愛 讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬 我才明白一切都是因為愛

有些事情 我也說不明白
想和你在一起 為什麼捨不得分開
或許我軟弱 也害怕失敗
但有你的笑容 就能讓我再站起來

你曾問我是什麼令我對你難以忘懷
我也曾經想過這種感覺說不出來
我現在才明白

因為愛 所以愛 珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開 你不在 懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛 所以愛 讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬 我才明白一切都是因為愛

因為愛 所以愛 珍惜在一起的愉快
一分開 你不在 懷念空氣裡的對白
因為愛 所以愛 讓我付出我的關懷
不管風吹或日曬 我才明白一切都是因為愛
*Copy from  erm...don't know which website. Haha...

Everything just because of LOVE...

I'm great

Have a great time with my buddies which from Malaysia this evening... Yea..I did enjoy the time with them seriously.

Okay,let's back to my life. Party non stop everyday, but I know how to take care of myself, please don't worry..

Look at the photo please, i'm great here... really. So, ANYONE who wanna come for visiting, please cancel it... thx

Yea,that's you... you should know who you are...

I'm talking bullshit here,okay,i should get back to my house party now...

However,i'm gonna fly to another places tomorrow,you will never know where I will be..

Cheer... As my friend said "Enjoy your life",I will always remember it.

I'm trying...

Drive safe

When I was driving on the bridge, everything comes out in my mind...which is the accident, made everything gone...



Feel so regret, feel so remorse, I blame myself...I totally cannot overcome it.



I never tell, and never voice up to explain my mistake. This is the fact that couldn't be changed. Everything just had sealed on my heart forever...



Drive safe please all my friends, I don't want to lost anyone of you..

Yea, I still crying in the middle of the night, even though it had been happened in 2 weeks ago...




p/s: Babe, i miss you... How I wish you are here right now...

Magic Mouse

I hate Magic Mouse!!!

'It tracks with precision on nearly every surface?', 'Magic Mouse uses powerful laser tracking that’s far more sensitive and responsive on more surfaces than traditional optical tracking' (Apple, 2010) But I can't even track it on glasses . Or should be still on a mousepad...


It costs me RM 229!!!


It's nice to be a mobile phone, but not for a mouse, PERHAPS. XD


Maybe I should say, I don't like Magic Mouse, but not I hate it.

Random

Just back from Above & Beyond, headed to Sixty 9 after landed in Penang. I'm tired!!!

And been waited for more than 45 mins just for Balik Pulau 'FAMOUS' Laksa, and it is not nice at all, wtf!!! Aston Koh!!! Stop wasting my time!!!


I need to rest seriously.

Italy vs New Zealand, of course I will support Italy.

I wish i'm there right now. Yup, i'm dreaming.

Fighting

Fighting for my sickness recently, everyday medicine and treatment, but here comes another high fever...FML.

However, don't worry, everything goes well (I think).

No photos sharing for Italy!!! Just attached with 2 photos that taken months ago. Sorry, will update la!

Although I couldn't remember, but I hope I could once a day, because I don't want any part to be blanked in my memory.

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Opss, I gonna off for dinner preparation at Rasa Sayang. I think I need to take a nap first, there is sure another after party plan, I'm freaking tired la!!!


Love,
Ms N

Sleepless in Romie

It is 5 something in the morning, and i'm awake now. Argghh...


I had toothache in few days before, killing me seriously. I need to say: "Morning, Romie." The piggy is still in his dreamland which never affected by me. I'm thinking about what will be my breakfast later at the same time with my toothache. 


I want porridge!!! I'm here for around 2 weeks, and I never been in any of chinese restaurant, i miss rice muchie!! 


I had 2 different type of cheese cake in last 2 days, baked cheese and blueberry cheese. Mr A told me that everytime when I not happy or cry, I must have a slice of cake. So, here I get. Actually I never realized it before told, but now i know, when I see the cakes, I will forget everything sadness and pay fully attention on the cakes. Oh ya, 1 from Mr A and another 1 from Mr D. Thx alot alot, hug.


Luckily you are here when I need accompany. Almost get to 6am, get a mic and shout for the piggy's awake. I need something to do now!!! Wake up everyone!!! 


Where will be my next destination after Rome? hahaha... you will get updated soon. Miss you MAS.

Coach Store in Penang

I had just received a email from my cousin. ( 9 something in the morning now, fan si ren!!!) Not even with breakfast!!


He wrote:" Girl, one of the famous brand is going to open a store in Gurney Plaza Penang. Guess what is it? " And i'm thinking :" Gucci? NoNo, LV? In new coming Paragon Penang la. Coach? Sien nia."


Seriously, the answer is COACH. COACH is going to open a shop in Gurney Plaza which replaces Versace. What has in my mind now is 'Sien lor...'

Anyway, just to inform everyone here. New COACH store is coming to Gurney Plaza soon. Although i'm fucking hate it. 


Btw, why not launch another new brand in Gurney? Sien lor... Nevermind, i'm not around. 

Who are you?

I'm awake but at the same time something I had been lost.
"Who are you?", I keep asking everyone. I just remember about my family members and some of my friends. I couldn't remember some of you!

A guy named Aston Koh was the first person that I saw when I woke up, who is him?
I read through all my wrote blog which the password given by him also, my facebook, my msn.

I need to find out everything, if you knew me, please text to my hp, i'm happy if you provide me the info about who are you and also my past. It is hard to describe about my condition, I hope you text me especially the one who are very important to me.

In my memory, I know who is Alice, ChyiChyi, Sze Wei and WanHui.

I just want to make sure everything that I had been told is true, because i'm not totally lost memory!

Text me if you knew me, especially you are so important to Nicole.

Fake a Smile

What should I response to my sickness now?
Counting the days everyday?
Keep reminding myself how many days I had left?
Counting about how many injections I had put on my skin?

What are the differences of these?

I had faked my smiles,
because... I feel really pain...sorry.

I wish he is here... At least I could be stronger.

Unfairness

"As long as you were not been RAPED by him", said a person to a girl.

What do you think about this statement? How do you think about it?
Glad? Disappointed?

People are allowed to comment during the incident, but there is no more chance to voice out after the incident. Because you will be scolded, "You raised it up", said another person.

Unfair? Tell me, where is the fairness? Especially he/she is your beloved.

25%

Is back in home for only half day and wondering about...
Should I take the risk just for the only 25%?
''Up to you'' they said.
Made me not brave enough to make any decision as well.
Dear, I wish you're here, at least give me a right direction,
at least make the path to be longer...
I miss you a lot.

You weep

Girl never count how much had she paid,
even though she knew it is hard and she never quit.

There is always some madness in love,
but there is also always some reason in madness.

Guys think girls always angry for fun or nothing,
but guys never think that there is always some reason in madness.
Guys think girls always unreasonable,
but guys never pay efforts to find what is the reason.

You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,
but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.

Guys blame girls always think too much on non-sense,
but guys never think that sometimes it is their problems.
Guys request girls for stop talking or thinking for some problems,
but guys never think that the problem is still there even though doing nothing.

The one who loves you will make you weep,

you cry, you feel hurt, because of you love him.

Long long once ' I love you ', it does work. 

* but guys feel annoying everytime when girls' tears drop, wtf.

I love my dear too. And he knows.

Bologna, see you next time.

It is 12.45am, Saturday. I supposed to be at Hong Kong now, maybe hang+ing out with my dearest bros at Lan Kwai Fong, and waiting for flight to Milan later. 

However, I'm still in Malaysia now and just finished my supper with dear. I didn't check-in this morning. I know i'm not ready for Bologna yet. And I too 'se bu de' my guy. 

 Many people might don't know about this, sorry for lying. The purpose that I leave is too complicated. And, sorry and thanks to Aston Koh and Louis Koh. 

As I had promised with them, I will be there with them when i'm ready. 

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This morning, when I signed in my Facebook, I saw this

Feel free to have a look on this

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=151668&id=678834274

This was what my dear's eldest bro took during CNY, I thought to fly to Bologna, so keep this as memory. But now, it is a photo album to make us stronger.

Thankkiu Ashton Hee, I love this.

Bologna, I love Penang more than you, because here got my dear. But I promise, I will be there when i'm ready, maybe with dear too. 

Bologna, see you next time...

Again, sorry and thanks to Aston Koh and Louis Koh, always my dearest bros, I love you too...

Every Breath You Take

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Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
I'll be watching you

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Since you've gone I been lost without a trace
I dream at night I can only see your face
I look around but its you I cant replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby, please...

Oh, can't you see
You belong to me
How my poor heart aches
With every breath you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
I'll be watching you

Every move you make
Every step you take
I'll be watching you

I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you
I'll be watching you

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I love this song so much, which successfully influenced many of them. XD

The Police, I just know the only song. Seriously, I don't really know who are them, but at least I know the meaning of this song. As long as people can understand my feeling through this love song. 

I hope you too. 

The Sire Museum

I was at The Sire Museum last Saturday with dear and eldest bro. To have a pre-birthday celebration with both of them. 

How lucky there are, both of them were born in 22 February. 

These are the dishes.

We were late which we supposed to reach around 7.30pm. Damn jam!!! 

And, we enjoyed the food and environment and almost forget about Kek Lok Si after dinner, hahaha...

Unfortunately, there are not allowed to take photo, too many antiques in this Museum. 

Happy 21st Birthday to my dear, I always love you...

CNY I

CNY...

Sorry, I have not much time to update my blog. But, this is my little update for CNY 2010.

I was so busy these few days, food, angpao, gamble, party, drink & drunk. These were how I spent in these days.

Btw, I know how to play mahjong now. Muahahaha.... I know it is not a big matter.

Everyday reached home at least 3.30 am,wtf. I'm enjoying my CNY celebrations.

Party last night.

Seriously, please don't go club during CNY, fucking much people!!! We was like sandwiches and sardines, stuck in the club. But, it was quite enjoyable.

I'm going to off for dinner later, with dear's family. 

p/s: To Aston Koh and Louis Koh, both of you had finished my 1983 lafite!!! I wanna kill both of you!!!
 

We didn't buy

Shopping and shopping for CNY 2010...

Nicole at Forever21

Dear's turn, at Nike

Omg, the photos show that I don't have eyebrow, and my forehead looks like botak?
 

However, I can confirm that these clothes, me and dear didn't buy. muahahaha.... Otherwise I won't post here.

Red

My hair color is same with my clothes color. Swt...

Chinese New Year must RED!!!

  

However, I bought all dark and black clothes this year. hahaha.... 

 The hair color will scare you, when you see me, brighten than this! Everyone said: "So RED!!!"

Lol... New Year ma...

Gong Xi Fa Cai, Angpao 'fai ti' lai. xD 

Last weekend before CNY

I went to WC's house party, dear, Ms Khoo, Sam, TianPin and BoonLin. 

And a Japanese liquor had been served, taste like Vodka plus a lot a lot of water. Don't how to describe la. We still finished it.

They played Wii, PS 3. It was so sien, bored seriously. We stayed until 2 something in the morning, left me the only girl at last, because Ms Khoo piiit after Wii.

  

 Every time no matter who's house party, our gang will be the last group of leaving. Can say this is our culture la. Luckily this time we just played CID. No any after party plan. XD

p/s: WC kept breaking fart the whole night, the silent killer.

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Sunday, we do this. hahaha... How to call this? Kuih Kapek? Kuih Lapek? Aiya, cincai la... 

Of course I didn't help anything, because I was lausai in that morning. 

It reminded me that Chinese New Year (CNY) is coming, dear's 21st birthday is coming too. However, I don't feel any happiness for this coming CNY, maybe there is something bothering me all the while. 

I want to spend more time with dear and my besties. I know I will miss them.  

CNY comes faster, then should the time stopped, I just want remember these moments. I will remember every smile.

These were how I spent for my last weekend before CNY. 

Ms Ribenna

Everyone said Chinese New Year (CNY) must 'Ang ang ang', means all RED la. So, I had dyed my hair into red also. Purple red!!! 

It is totally same with Ribenna's color. I think I should change my name now. wtf

I think I need some time to adapt it. It is not like totally can't accept, just it takes time. hahaha... 

This is my story, and I heard one of my besties said that she also went for hair cut, but she cried. Because of cut until toooooo short already. Seriously she cried. Hahaha... Don't cry la babe. 

So, both of us, temporary have no photos to show. Give us some time please...

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Another story, I went to Thaipusam celebration last Saturday with dear and friends.

Everyone brought a PROFESSIONAL DSLR except me, because it is too heavy for me, I left my Babie D 90 at home. Btw, they really looked so PRO!!! However, I haven't see the photos which taken by them. Hehe...

Taken by dear, I know it looks funny. I don't why he can get this photo.

Damn hot the weather, look at me, what did I wore, the weather was killing me, even now. After it, we went to somewhere which provides air-con, tada.... Coffee Island. Swt, seriously, Nicole anti this cafe. 

My friend was busy+ing to play iPhone's game. Me and dear, nothing to do, so... simply take photossss....

Look at him, smile so fake. Lol...

It will be CNY after 2 more weeks, happy or unhappy, I also don't know... Dear tell me please... You still owed me somethings.

p/s: wish my red hair will look much better after today... hope I can adapt it ASAP!

Regret or not?

Should I feel regret about it?

Finally, I had stopped what should happened, but why I didn't get any happiness now?
Trouble had been happened, what else I can do?

Ignore? Forget? Let go? 
These are what I used to do,
thought to get some comforts after the truth,
but actually I think too much, should be nothing at last...

I regret about the truth, but never for what had been happened,
although it is a nightmare, 
but sealed in my heart, 
never get away...

I believe

I believe, I know, I will be okay...

I become fearless, because of you,

Although... the process of it will be a little bit tough...

I do believe... and I pray...

I will be okay... Don't you think so?

First outing in year 2010

I have a date with my besties yesterday, at Queensbay Mall, Penang. But kurang satu member, should be 5 persons, now left 4 persons. 

 

Sze Wei!!! Why you don't want come back??!!! Stay at Kampar buat apa??!!! I miss you alot leh.

Lol.... What had been happened on both of them?

Romantic.XD

Shop for whole day but never try any clothes or buy anything. Headed to Kitschen. Btw, we were just playing around in the fitting room and we went in for 2 times. Hahaha...

When we get out from the fitting room, we felt so paiseh, because the people who were lining up there, their face so busuk. Hahaha... But we don't care!!!

Nvm, we just want to play gao gao, there are not much time to meet together in this short time. Maybe CNY??? 

We are waiting for the next outing. Must in 5 persons!!! Oh ya, another new member will be added soon. Hehehe...

Love you all babesss...

I'm really tired

Back from GMC. Feel tired seriously.

I gonna do something important tomorrow, but now i totally have no idea. God, save me pls... 

When I lost contact this whole day, people keep calling and text me to my handphone, but when I replied the calls and messages, the content just like care about himself. 

Yes, i'm crying heavily right now. Why? Because I can't afford this kind of feeling anymore, once and once, never stopped. I keep giving chances, but people thought there is another chances waiting for him next. 

I'm sad, i'm disappointed. Human are selfish, just know to think about himself/herself. Didn't know what the other side needs and wants. They do not know about their bad attitudes will just make things more even worst and the other side suffer. 

No more chances for this kind of people. I'm really tired, I really feel enough. And, they won't care.

 

Saturday night

Friends, finally I get the song's name. Thx dear so much, muackkkksss... Kris Allen- Live Like We're Dying. 

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Saturday night, I went to Sunset Bistro with Wc, Meilin, Sam, and dear. Reached there at 12 midnight, actually I was very tired that time, but Meilin is going back KL on Sunway. So... Have fun ba...

We ordered this

And, we played Truth or Dare with iphone (seriously got no idea for games). I should say we played 'Truth' only, because Sam don't ALLOW to play Dare.

The wave was big and high, so faster finished our beer and quit. Me and Meilin wanna pee, really cannot tahan, hahaha... But, we kena halau by Park Royal's security guard. He said:" Hello, this is not the public toilet." We don't care!!! hahaha...

Then, we were filling 15 big satays which is RM1 each. Damn full. And skipping 100 songs in car while on the way back home. It was great time.

Today, Meilin is going back to KL. I can understand her feeling. I was like that last time. Even Sam, he putus cinta, run away to KL also. 

What to do? Will be a wasted Sunday again. 

A disgusting couple.

It is so annoying!!! Feel that Facebook suddenly become Fri*ndster.

I'm get sick today, high fever and my chest not feeling well. Since there is so bored and I thought not to keep sleeping whole day, so I just on my lappy, to update my facebook. There are some people spam my facebook!!!!!!!! ARRRGGHHH!!! 

A disgusting couple and their friends keep sending me the stupid link and want to vote for them. Seriously, vote doesn't matter, but the problem is the photo can't attract me totally. And I thought if I don't reply them, then should be okay. Now, they keep sending me the link in facebook and also msn!!! wtf

The photo is normal, shows a couple had been captured inside the photo, that's it. The photographer is okay, but the models.... one words 'YUCKKSSS'!!! Pui!!!!

Pls... If photos posted to be shown to others, then still consider okay; but now relates to voting. OMG!!! Sumor ask me vote for it!!! Pls... You guys are really so annoying. I'm sick, although i'm bored, but facebook is not for voting, and show off your disgusting photos.

Get away!!! No no, it should be GET LOST!!!!

Zuo Zuo

3 years ago, 13th Jan 2007, I lost my great grandma. I still miss her so much like last time.

I still remember that time I just finished my SPM exam, also received my driving license, and was thinking about how to have fun and bring my sicked late great grandma to any places under my fetching. However, in an early morning, someone woke me up from my dream, and I knew that she had been left in few minutes ago.

And, there were some conflicts happened between our relatives, so... our family members have no chance to hold a memorial ceremony for my love late great grandma, we can only pray inside our deep heart. And, we do.

I should say i'm the luckiest one, because when I was a child, I got the chances to travel with her and took photos together. It was so memorable for me.

This was the last photo that my late great grandma took, she smiled. Yea, we do miss her smile.

She sicked heavily, but she never give up. She always requested for seeing doctor, until few days before left. She told that she had no more energy for fighting with the serious illness. And asked us don't cry. But we cried in the deep heart also. 

Zuo Zuo (great grandma), we do miss you all the while. You wanted me to learn not to give up easily, I will listen to you, I will take medicine everyday, I promise... I will fight for you.

Bless me, to give more energy for fighting with my illness. I know you are there and seeing me all the while in heaven. 

I miss you, and I love you...

Madding vs Disappointing

Have you ever think that what will be happened when you grow old? Look at your grandma or grandpha, do you know what they are thinking now? Then what do you think about them?

Today I went to hospital, i just saw so many things. It is hurt seriously.

An old lady, which just done her operation and was doing checkup, and I saw a woman kept scolding about that old lady. I don't know what was going on, so I just kept looking at them, especially old lady...

Old lady was sitting on wheelchair, keep quietly all the time, I just heard the woman scolding, complaining... Everything related to the old lady, dislike the old lady which so troublesome to bother the woman and have to pay for her medical fees. 

Old lady still kept quietly, suddenly I heard " Sorry, this is the last time for my medical checkup" said old lady, and her tears dropped. I saw her disappointment. Her eyes and nose were red.

I know why she was so disappointed, it is not because of this was her last checkup, but how this woman treated her. And old lady said " I wanna go home, the old folk house". She treats that old folk house as her 'house'. Everyone was looking at them that time, the hospital is quiet, but there was some sounds of complaining. Few minutes later, one leave with madding, another one with disappointing.

I must say, that woman is the old lady's daughter!

Would you like to see this ending while you grow old? Old lady, old man, They are human also, they do need love and care, as we do. 

Ah ma, ah gong, I love you. I wish I can be with you while I can. I'm so selfish, i'm not afraid of dead, but I afraid of loss.

WanHui's wedding 31.12.2009

Last Thursday was my besty's wedding, wohooo.... Whole gang of us head to the wedding dinner which placed at Parit Buntar, it's sound far..hmmm...

Alice, Chyi Chyi, Sze Wei and me were prepared well for WanHui's wedding dinner. Kin cheong, kin cheong, Alice and Chyi Chyi went for make-up early in the noon. Btw, both of them were late! Because of the traffic jam in PENANG!!! 

 

 

Wanhui was so pretty that night, everyone just "wah, wah, wah..." when saw her. Chen (WanHui's husband) should feel very proud I think.

 

After the dinner, we went to WanHui's house, chit chat dekat sana until 12 midnight. Then we only get back to my house, and my house was so happening that night, because of 3 of my besties were stayed together with me. 

We crazy whole night and took burgers as our supper. We still took a lot of photos in my room, but sorry, I can't show it. Hahaha... All slept at 2 something except Alice, because she was sleepless whole night. Hahaha...

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The next morning, we all supposed to woke up at 7am which Chyi Chyi said she already set the alarm clock, but the alarm never rang in the morning, and she never wake us up, arrrgghhh!!! However, we still considered not really late when we reached Wanhui's house. (Actually abit late la.)

 

But, 4 of us still got time to take photo while we reached WanHui's house. XD

Opssss... I know i'm pretty, but i'm not the bride. hahaha...

All in white, the flowers which we tied on our arms were made by WanHui. 

The pretty bride. 

4 of us again. 

WanHui's parent and sister ( bridemaid).

After the photo shooting period, we faster took our breakfast which prepared by WanHui's family. It was so delicious.

"Pin, pin, pin..."The bridegroom is coming.

Play the bridegroom and bridesman first. Muahaha...

I'm the big sister, must listen to me first.

Opsss... What is going on? Shy shy...

Finally, the flower is get the the bride. Look, WanHui looked so happy.

After done all the things, get back to bridegroom's house. 

After this photo, we were rushing to go back. 

Oh ya, the red shirt guy is dear, also our photographer. Hahaha...

WanHui's lovely new room.

We hope WanHui can get the happiness ever after. The new life had been started from that day, everything is new. Stay happily.

Btw, 5 of us will not always meet together start from that day. The life is different right now, but I know our friendship will never be ended.

Love you all, my besties. 

And, anyone who want the photos, please e-mail to nicole8368@gmail.com or leave comment/message in my facebook. I will reply as soon as possible. Thank you.

p/s: Special thanks to the photographer which took so many photos. XD