Regret or not?

Should I feel regret about it?

Finally, I had stopped what should happened, but why I didn't get any happiness now?
Trouble had been happened, what else I can do?

Ignore? Forget? Let go? 
These are what I used to do,
thought to get some comforts after the truth,
but actually I think too much, should be nothing at last...

I regret about the truth, but never for what had been happened,
although it is a nightmare, 
but sealed in my heart, 
never get away...

I believe

I believe, I know, I will be okay...

I become fearless, because of you,

Although... the process of it will be a little bit tough...

I do believe... and I pray...

I will be okay... Don't you think so?

First outing in year 2010

I have a date with my besties yesterday, at Queensbay Mall, Penang. But kurang satu member, should be 5 persons, now left 4 persons. 

 

Sze Wei!!! Why you don't want come back??!!! Stay at Kampar buat apa??!!! I miss you alot leh.

Lol.... What had been happened on both of them?

Romantic.XD

Shop for whole day but never try any clothes or buy anything. Headed to Kitschen. Btw, we were just playing around in the fitting room and we went in for 2 times. Hahaha...

When we get out from the fitting room, we felt so paiseh, because the people who were lining up there, their face so busuk. Hahaha... But we don't care!!!

Nvm, we just want to play gao gao, there are not much time to meet together in this short time. Maybe CNY??? 

We are waiting for the next outing. Must in 5 persons!!! Oh ya, another new member will be added soon. Hehehe...

Love you all babesss...

I'm really tired

Back from GMC. Feel tired seriously.

I gonna do something important tomorrow, but now i totally have no idea. God, save me pls... 

When I lost contact this whole day, people keep calling and text me to my handphone, but when I replied the calls and messages, the content just like care about himself. 

Yes, i'm crying heavily right now. Why? Because I can't afford this kind of feeling anymore, once and once, never stopped. I keep giving chances, but people thought there is another chances waiting for him next. 

I'm sad, i'm disappointed. Human are selfish, just know to think about himself/herself. Didn't know what the other side needs and wants. They do not know about their bad attitudes will just make things more even worst and the other side suffer. 

No more chances for this kind of people. I'm really tired, I really feel enough. And, they won't care.

 

Saturday night

Friends, finally I get the song's name. Thx dear so much, muackkkksss... Kris Allen- Live Like We're Dying. 

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Saturday night, I went to Sunset Bistro with Wc, Meilin, Sam, and dear. Reached there at 12 midnight, actually I was very tired that time, but Meilin is going back KL on Sunway. So... Have fun ba...

We ordered this

And, we played Truth or Dare with iphone (seriously got no idea for games). I should say we played 'Truth' only, because Sam don't ALLOW to play Dare.

The wave was big and high, so faster finished our beer and quit. Me and Meilin wanna pee, really cannot tahan, hahaha... But, we kena halau by Park Royal's security guard. He said:" Hello, this is not the public toilet." We don't care!!! hahaha...

Then, we were filling 15 big satays which is RM1 each. Damn full. And skipping 100 songs in car while on the way back home. It was great time.

Today, Meilin is going back to KL. I can understand her feeling. I was like that last time. Even Sam, he putus cinta, run away to KL also. 

What to do? Will be a wasted Sunday again. 

A disgusting couple.

It is so annoying!!! Feel that Facebook suddenly become Fri*ndster.

I'm get sick today, high fever and my chest not feeling well. Since there is so bored and I thought not to keep sleeping whole day, so I just on my lappy, to update my facebook. There are some people spam my facebook!!!!!!!! ARRRGGHHH!!! 

A disgusting couple and their friends keep sending me the stupid link and want to vote for them. Seriously, vote doesn't matter, but the problem is the photo can't attract me totally. And I thought if I don't reply them, then should be okay. Now, they keep sending me the link in facebook and also msn!!! wtf

The photo is normal, shows a couple had been captured inside the photo, that's it. The photographer is okay, but the models.... one words 'YUCKKSSS'!!! Pui!!!!

Pls... If photos posted to be shown to others, then still consider okay; but now relates to voting. OMG!!! Sumor ask me vote for it!!! Pls... You guys are really so annoying. I'm sick, although i'm bored, but facebook is not for voting, and show off your disgusting photos.

Get away!!! No no, it should be GET LOST!!!!

Zuo Zuo

3 years ago, 13th Jan 2007, I lost my great grandma. I still miss her so much like last time.

I still remember that time I just finished my SPM exam, also received my driving license, and was thinking about how to have fun and bring my sicked late great grandma to any places under my fetching. However, in an early morning, someone woke me up from my dream, and I knew that she had been left in few minutes ago.

And, there were some conflicts happened between our relatives, so... our family members have no chance to hold a memorial ceremony for my love late great grandma, we can only pray inside our deep heart. And, we do.

I should say i'm the luckiest one, because when I was a child, I got the chances to travel with her and took photos together. It was so memorable for me.

This was the last photo that my late great grandma took, she smiled. Yea, we do miss her smile.

She sicked heavily, but she never give up. She always requested for seeing doctor, until few days before left. She told that she had no more energy for fighting with the serious illness. And asked us don't cry. But we cried in the deep heart also. 

Zuo Zuo (great grandma), we do miss you all the while. You wanted me to learn not to give up easily, I will listen to you, I will take medicine everyday, I promise... I will fight for you.

Bless me, to give more energy for fighting with my illness. I know you are there and seeing me all the while in heaven. 

I miss you, and I love you...

Madding vs Disappointing

Have you ever think that what will be happened when you grow old? Look at your grandma or grandpha, do you know what they are thinking now? Then what do you think about them?

Today I went to hospital, i just saw so many things. It is hurt seriously.

An old lady, which just done her operation and was doing checkup, and I saw a woman kept scolding about that old lady. I don't know what was going on, so I just kept looking at them, especially old lady...

Old lady was sitting on wheelchair, keep quietly all the time, I just heard the woman scolding, complaining... Everything related to the old lady, dislike the old lady which so troublesome to bother the woman and have to pay for her medical fees. 

Old lady still kept quietly, suddenly I heard " Sorry, this is the last time for my medical checkup" said old lady, and her tears dropped. I saw her disappointment. Her eyes and nose were red.

I know why she was so disappointed, it is not because of this was her last checkup, but how this woman treated her. And old lady said " I wanna go home, the old folk house". She treats that old folk house as her 'house'. Everyone was looking at them that time, the hospital is quiet, but there was some sounds of complaining. Few minutes later, one leave with madding, another one with disappointing.

I must say, that woman is the old lady's daughter!

Would you like to see this ending while you grow old? Old lady, old man, They are human also, they do need love and care, as we do. 

Ah ma, ah gong, I love you. I wish I can be with you while I can. I'm so selfish, i'm not afraid of dead, but I afraid of loss.

WanHui's wedding 31.12.2009

Last Thursday was my besty's wedding, wohooo.... Whole gang of us head to the wedding dinner which placed at Parit Buntar, it's sound far..hmmm...

Alice, Chyi Chyi, Sze Wei and me were prepared well for WanHui's wedding dinner. Kin cheong, kin cheong, Alice and Chyi Chyi went for make-up early in the noon. Btw, both of them were late! Because of the traffic jam in PENANG!!! 

 

 

Wanhui was so pretty that night, everyone just "wah, wah, wah..." when saw her. Chen (WanHui's husband) should feel very proud I think.

 

After the dinner, we went to WanHui's house, chit chat dekat sana until 12 midnight. Then we only get back to my house, and my house was so happening that night, because of 3 of my besties were stayed together with me. 

We crazy whole night and took burgers as our supper. We still took a lot of photos in my room, but sorry, I can't show it. Hahaha... All slept at 2 something except Alice, because she was sleepless whole night. Hahaha...

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The next morning, we all supposed to woke up at 7am which Chyi Chyi said she already set the alarm clock, but the alarm never rang in the morning, and she never wake us up, arrrgghhh!!! However, we still considered not really late when we reached Wanhui's house. (Actually abit late la.)

 

But, 4 of us still got time to take photo while we reached WanHui's house. XD

Opssss... I know i'm pretty, but i'm not the bride. hahaha...

All in white, the flowers which we tied on our arms were made by WanHui. 

The pretty bride. 

4 of us again. 

WanHui's parent and sister ( bridemaid).

After the photo shooting period, we faster took our breakfast which prepared by WanHui's family. It was so delicious.

"Pin, pin, pin..."The bridegroom is coming.

Play the bridegroom and bridesman first. Muahaha...

I'm the big sister, must listen to me first.

Opsss... What is going on? Shy shy...

Finally, the flower is get the the bride. Look, WanHui looked so happy.

After done all the things, get back to bridegroom's house. 

After this photo, we were rushing to go back. 

Oh ya, the red shirt guy is dear, also our photographer. Hahaha...

WanHui's lovely new room.

We hope WanHui can get the happiness ever after. The new life had been started from that day, everything is new. Stay happily.

Btw, 5 of us will not always meet together start from that day. The life is different right now, but I know our friendship will never be ended.

Love you all, my besties. 

And, anyone who want the photos, please e-mail to nicole8368@gmail.com or leave comment/message in my facebook. I will reply as soon as possible. Thank you.

p/s: Special thanks to the photographer which took so many photos. XD