My 3rd time at Seoul Garden.

My 3rd time at Seoul Garden... if i keep eating like what i ate at Seoul Garden, next time you all will not see me this abit fat one Nicole already, you will see a fat Nicole, hahaha... Although I ate alot last night, but it is so enjoyable.


ShunJae's brother >>> Soon Siang and his girlfriend.


Last night i ate alot alot of food, fish balls, chicken slices, veggie and also seafood. They kept taking the food, because it is buffet dinner, means bottomless of food supply.



This is what a family need to do, having the dinner together with happily, even just once per week.

My first time.

My first time...in food court with him(ShunJae).This is my first time which take the dinner with him at food court. My face looks so funny, because this is my first time.

I have been there before, just i seldom go to food court, i don't like the environment. Some of the food court are very dirty and smelly, even in the shopping complex. No matter how their food is delicious or nice, if there is dirty, you will not see my at there.

That day me and ShunJae order 2 plates of chicken rice. There are just a few slices of chicken in the plate with some rice, it just can't fulfill ShunJae's big big stomach.

Actually, food court's food is quite nice if don't care too much. But i think it is not the cup of my tea....hehe... Don't blame me, at least i had tried it. XD

The 28th November 2008.

Today is 28th November 2008, the first day of Men's Waterpolo Malaysian Open 2008, I want to go to give my TopMan supports, but i'm not dare to do so, I don't know how to face him, that's why i scare. I want to know about the result for today's matches, anyone can tell me?

Today also is the day before my dad's birthday, but i have made some mistakes. It made me not happy at all which i thought that i should happy at the time. Dad's birthday, i bought a shirt for him as birthday present. Mom asked me go and buy a cake before i come back, so i brought a beautiful cake(named Opera) for my dad. The cake is full with chocolate, look so nice. But when my mom saw the cake, she say she don't like chocolate, WTF!!!

I'm so angry that time. I don't care about the traffic jam on the Penang Bridge, I straight away rush to Penang and re-buy a new cake which without chocolate to fulfil my mom's WANTS!!!

I just want to give my dad a little and little surprise birthday, but i think there is no more surprise finally.

My emotion is affected by this birthday again, i thought i can have a happy day, but it is so hard for me.

I wish ShunJae is beside me now,i wish he can comfort me now.
I need a hug, I need a shoulder which can let me forget the sadness.

I cried when I was on the way to buy a new cake, everything is not under my control, I'm not happy...
I want to restart my life!!! But i know it is impossible...

Wish he know...

Recently, i kept making myself busy and busy, just try don't to think the stupid things anymore, also the sadness.

I feel so stress, not happy, my emotion not stable, everything likes different already, i don't know who can i tell...

Since i know that, even how much i sad or cry, i also can't change the fact, that is a truth, no body can change it, just... i never try to accept the truth. I'm so stupid, i did something that make me remorse and regret ever after. I always tell myself that i can't think about the past, but i realized that i can't, everything will make me call back the sweet or sad memory, i hate myself which just know to cry.

I have long time never see one of my best best friend already. Although we know each other in a short period, but he treat me very well, which i appreciate it always. I don't know how is his life, I don't how to face him, that are some misunderstanding between me and him. Although I look nothing which that sadness never appear on my face, but i know that is something different...

Perhaps, there is a second chance that can restart my life, i really won't let these all happen in my life, because I don't want to lose a best best friend. I wish he know I'm talking to him, I not dare to call him anymore, I really don't how to face him. But I wish he know my feeling, he is the best for me. I wish he know... My TopMan.

Thanks for everything, the memory is always keep in my heart, for now and ever...
Good luck for your match next week...

HIM>The Very Important Person.

I don't know what is going on this few days, all the problems just like came together... make me can't even breath!!!

I think he is going to break the promise as he promised me before,he said there are too many lies between this relationship.

I cry and cry, but the consequence is still the same, that is a fact, but nobody choose to accept it. He say i'm a trickster, which spoilt the relationship. The sweetness is going to be forgotten, he makes me feel that we are going to end the relationship. He is no longer available...

I miss everything, i miss the warmth, just unforgettable... but he never know it... he say it is a lie toooo. I scare to contact him, but i wish him will contact me, I just want to know what is really going on, what will be happen in this relationship, what is his feeling, even just a lie, i also want to know it.

He need a few days to think, but i can guess what will be happen soon, i know what he is going to do soon, nothing i can change it.

Actually i got many things want to tell him, no more chances i think... He say he never know what am i thinking now, because i choose to tell him soon, just something happen on that Wednesday, the trouble stop my actions...

Too much memories in this relationship, I recall those sweet and sad memories everynight, what i have done for him, he never know... How much I appreciate him or his presents, he also never know.

My heart so pain when i saw the presents,I wish he knows...

I wish he will contact me...
I wish he miss me...
Iwish he can hear me...
I wish he won't forget me...
I wish he can still remember the promises...
I wish everything will be ok soon...
And many and many...

but

I know he is going to leave, to leave me alone ever...

Thx my dearest...

Thx my dearest...
The one who always care about me, but sometimes make me cry also...

The one who always bully me...wuwuwu...T.T

The one who always make me smile when i cry...

The one who always helps me do everything...

The one who many people said that he is a GAY,OMG!!

The one who love me so much...
hahahaha...

I was so shocked when I saw these surprised...

Thank you so much...

The flowers(although I don't like rose la), necklace, and the big siZe Baskin Robbin...(b'cuz I no need to queue up to buy it,XD)

Love it so much!!!

Although my birthday past looong looong time already la, but I still appreciate your presentss...


I promise what i have promised...hahaha...Chieem leh(in hokkien)!!!
Other people don't know one...muahahaha!! Secret, secret!!!

And also MEliSa...the crazy but cute Canadian, thanks her alot too... She is quite different with my friend, because she is crazy enough, but I like this kind of girl.

I wish him(the one who gave me alot of presentss one loR) happy always, pLs...don't bully me again, I will cry one! Wuwuwu... If he is not happy, then how does he makes me smile and laugh when I'm not happy...

I need some attentions.

He makes me feel like he is not trusting me. I'm not really angry,just...disappointed. Maybe... I really not good enough.

No matter what I've I did before, he just like never appreciate it.

I don't like argue with anyone, especially him.

I never skip anyone of his messages, but he just misunderstanding me and said that I don't want to reply his messages. I try to fulfil his request everytime, but i think it is useless, because he never appreciate it.

I thought both of us can keep the relationship without arguing, now i realized that we really can't make it!

I want he feels happy, i never care how much i've did for him, but at least look at me sometimes, I need some attentions.