Merdeka Day...

My Merdeka Day, just stay at home, sienzzz....

Dear sick jor, I can't go out already, because I have no more driver, my lovely dear get fever, vomit and lausai this morning, OMG!!! So worry him.

Actually I also don't know what to write now, Merdeka Day so sienzzz.... Btw, tomorrow will be going back the strange city again, Subang... I don't want to go back.... to the stress city.

Wish my dear recover faster, otherwise I can't concentrate on my studies at Subang. Hehe

Love him so much..



Muacksss....

Draft + Done

Finally, today I just submitted my MCB assignment draft, OMG!!! I don't like Turnitin, it is scary. Nevermind, I feel a little relax, because i'm going back to Penang tomorrow. Hahahaha...

And... I bring a birthday present for my TopMan, I know his birthday was past, but as a friend, I need to give him a present still. Don't be too surprise, because it is just a normal present. Hope he likes it. All from Marks & Spencer.



Can't wait to see my friends and dear for the coming days. Plan for so many activities, but don't there will be worked or not, let's try and see. Hehehe...

Look at my crazy face, too happy for going back. Hahaha...

Let's cheer... for my coming back. I know i'm crazy.

And Happy Birthday Malaysia.


Merdeka, Merdeka, Merdeka!!!

Love >>> Again

We discuss this topic for so many times before, what do you mean by 'LOVE'? It is totally hard to explain by using any words. Love can be happy, but it also can be sad. However, when every time we talk about 'LOVE', it's sure be a sad problem. Trust me.

My best friend, XXX, sure I can't tell you who is her la. Her boyfriend just break up with her few days ago with some stupid reasons ( this is just what I know from her ). But nevermind, she is totally down and sad. Crying non-stop daily, with again and again. I'm so sad when I know about this thing. I know this feeling, it is painful.

She is always a optimistic girl, we always hang out together last time, that's why I said we are best friend. But now, i can't even see her smile and laugh, even her housemates. But luckily she got a lot of friends, which can accompany her all the time, help her to forgo the sadness.

To me, I will chat with her when I free, because we are at different location now. I think this is what i can do for her right now. I hope I can stay by her side now and comfort her as her best friend.

My girl, love is not everything, it is just a part of our life. There are still a lot of friends and family members who care about you much, don't give up easily. I know it is hard to let go, but it's really take time. We all are here, we will support you all the time.

And don't forget, we are best friend forever. Everything will be fine soon. Love you.




Muacks

Crazy

Shopping and shopping today. Wake up early in the morning ( actually was late ), rush to Time Square, they already finished the competition. But luckily I still met my little cousin. And he is rushing for his next plan already.*Grinnnn*

Then we head to Starhill, since Michelle says want to buy LV for her mom's friend. Okay, LV, sounds like very class. But I just went in for the Neverfull.

Suddenly my lovely aunties call me for lunch, but actually they were wanted to shop as well. Fine, I just follow them. This is the most crazy shopping way that I never seen. I think they spent above RM 10K for the bags. OMG!!! Crazy of them.

However, my lovely uncle is so nice, he bought me a Gucci tote bag, thanks my uncle so much. I tried to refuse, but he said just treat it as a present, since I came Subang so long, he never present me anything. Hahaha...

Although it is not my first Gucci, but I still very appreciate it. Love them so much. Crazy shopping day, spent us so much of money. And thanks Michelle for accompany today.

Thank you my lovely uncle.



muacks

Tatoo

Do you still remember this song 'Tatoo' by Jordin Sparks? Last night I went dinner with friends, the restaurant was playing this song. It makes me think of many many things.

'Tatoo' shows the sweet and sadness between me and dear. Everytime when I hear this song, I will think so many things, because there are too many things happened in these 2 years. Something sweet, something sad, there are all sealed on my heart. I can't take it off.

Tatoo, just like a tatoo. I always have it. It is invisible, but it's always there.

Penang and Subang is not far actually, almost 3 hours. But for me it is really far, I always thinking that whether Penang's weather is same as Subang? Is dear having the same feeling with me? I wish he tell me how Penang is everyday, but he didn't.

Yea, I admit that I miss him so much, but after I came back from Penang, I really never cry for missing him, because I keep forcing myself not to cry, I should feel enough for what he did for me. I must feel happy of it. And I promised him something, I can't break the promise.

I know someone is going to spoil our relationship, but as I said, there is a tatoo sealed on my heart, it is hard to take it off. A fate, which tied us up, it is tight. There is no ended, because we love each other.


We know we are watching at the same blue sky, breathing at the same air ( but Subang's air is not fresh as Penang ). No matter how long the distance, when we see the invisible tatoo, we will think of each other and missing the otherside secretly.

Miss and Love.




xoxo

5 of Us

Ermmm... This is my outdated post actually. It had happened in a month ago, the time when I went to Bukit Jalil for Man United Asia Tour 2009, It sounds so long, hahaha...

That time I went to Kampar to visit my lovely best friends. 4 of them are staying there right now, with no entertainment, everyday just study and study. Quite sien actually, that's why i'm at Subang now. They always complaint to me that there is so 'ulu', but luckily got Tesco. hahahaha...

That day 4 of them and their classmates treated me and dear lunch, so paiseh. I suppose to treat them, but... Anyway, thanks for the lunch, my friends, I was so enjoyed and the food is so nice...XD

We have long time never hang out after we graduated, i'm so 'mou yi hei', I choose Taylor for myself and left them at UTAR, sorry la my dear friends. But I know they are doing great there, because they always stick together, even eat and sleep. XD

I miss them so much, that day we just spent for 2 hours to meet up, aiyoyoyo...sure not enough la. We got alot of thing to chit chat one, but luckily we took photos.

Last time 5 of us always sticked together, eat, shopping, movie, assignment, sleep and blah blah... But now i'm leaving them, seldom to meet them, for sure, I miss them much la. They are my best friends what.

5 of us ( Nicole, Sze Wei, Wan Hui, Alice, Chyi Chyi ), we are best friends forever, our friendship will never end, although we are at different location now. I hope we have next outing, to crazy and chit chat, do again what we have done in Penang. Spend the day together.

Love you my dear friends, wish you all happy always, and miss me too. hahaha


Muacks

2nd case

Just now I went to class, my tutor told me that there is another person kena H1N1 in Taylor's, sumor in TBS , omg!!! Another H1N1 case in Taylor.

We are thinking about why Taylor's haven't close for quarantine, we are so scare. Many people wear the mask to college, but I didn't see anyone of my friend do so, hahaha... Don't know whether really scare or not.

My grandmom asked me why my college never close since few days before a SAM student kena H1N1, then how about this time? Please don't ask me okay? I'm not the controller, i'm just a student, I can't control how they going to operate.

I don't wish to close college actually, because I have to do a lot of replacement classes after it. I rather wear the mask to college and do all the preparation. But... the most important thing is coming, i'm sick now!!! Easy to get bacterias and viruses. Sweat...

Don't worry about me, i'm doing fine here, everything will be okay soon, but doctor say the H1N1 will take at least 1 year to stop spreading. Omg!!!

Nevermind, I pray everyday, for everyone, especially the people that I love and love me. Hope they all doing great as me.


End.

Sick Non-Stop

I'm sick again, I hate it. I feel that the viruses always around me all the while.

This is the first time i cried not because of homesick or miss dear. I cried when on the way back to hostel. Sweaty on my body, feel not well at all.

Sick then I will cry, because i feel suffer, and I'm alone. But dear don't understand this, he just thought that I like to cry. I'm not. He wants me to go and see doctor, but i'm alone. Not I don't want, just I have no energy. Why he can't get what I mean?

I'm so sad, he just want me to take MC, keep thinking of my attendance. When I at Penang, everything is running well; but when i came back to Subang, everything is going wrongly.

I have to face everything alone, even I tell dear, he also can do nothing, just keep talking some non sense, I still need to do it by myself at last.

That's why I cry, even now.

Greedy Nicole

I wish... I hope... time can stop now, tomorrow please don't come.

I'm so greedy, I want to extend my holiday, I don't want to go back tomorrow. But I know I shouldn't think like this, because dear will sad. He paid so much efforts on me.

My eyes full with tears actually, just I have to stop it for falling down, I will hurt dear.

Thank you my dear, I really so happy in these few days. It is too meaningful for me. I love you.


I don't want to go back. God, save me please!!!

I want to enjoy my last night with dear.

Goodnight everyone.

Muacks.

Happy Holidays.

Ermm... I'm at Penang since last night. Come back secretly, I mean without parent's notice. Shhhhhhhhhiiiihhhhhhh!!!! XD

Where am I stay now? Hahaa....Top top secret. I can tell you that i'm back, but not where I stay. Thanks dear so much. Something make me feel touching.

Enjoy my days here, although I still need to read those articles, but i'm happy now. There is no word to describe my happiness here, totally different with Subang. I don't like Subang!!!

I feel pressure when I at Subang, but when I reached Penang, I feel relax. Maybe I really get homesick. I know you all agree me. Hahaha...

Going out now. Enjoy your and my days...

Muacks...

Happy 'Holidays'.

xoxo

Should I?

I miss dear so much in sudden. Just now watched movie with Michelle, I have long time never watch movie with friend, because every time i just stick with dear. I really miss him so much, I wish he is here right now, hug me tight.

My friend asks me to follow him back this Saturday, to meet my dear for a few hours, but i'm thinking still, I don't know whether I should go back or not. Dear, tell me, is it I need to go back or not? I just miss you so much, although just passed for few days.

My emotion very down this few days, no no, should be everyday in Subang. I don't know how to stop my emotional.

Dear, tell me what should I do okay? I really need your fully support.

I don't know what to say, the same words, I keep repeating. Dear, I miss you, I love you.


Muacks

Goodnight.

Bottom = Down

I'm totally down right now, heart is bleeding, tear is dropping, hard to describe my feeling now. Do you know what happened on me? Ask yourself, if you are my friend, is there anything can make Nicole totally down to the bottom?

Yea, if you know me well, then you should know what is the answer. I don't know it should call 'blaming' or 'misunderstanding' between me and my parent, they just do what they love to do. And I have to follow what to want me to do.

Many people think that I should follow, because parent provides me everything, I should feel full with those materiality. You are right, I got everything, food, bag, house, car, clothes... All are branded, but I don't have family love. I really feel sad about it.

Subang with no family, no parent, no dear. Everything is new now, friends, environment, I still need some time to adapt it. However, they rush me everyday, just like I did a lot of wrong thing, make me can't even breath at all. Just now argued with dear, my heart is pain. I don't know whether it is my problem or his problem or either our problem, he just likes can't even understand my situation now. No matter how much I tell him, he just gave me the same feedback. Maybe he is right, I shouldn't control what I can't control in my life.

Everyone is asking me whether I going back or not this weekend, but I just say :" I don't know." Okay, fine. Even I go back, I also don't know where to stay. My parent not allowed me to go back.

My brain is not functioning at all, headache, thinking about how to solve the problems, together with the pressure in college, really no time for oxygen, can't breath totally. My head is blasting, really going insane soon.

Tell me what should I do, I lost my direction. Yes, I shouldn't off my dear's call, but i just tried to avoid arguing, my fault, I know. I miss him, I love him, I say so many times, but it never stop my feeling.


Dear, sorry about everything, I know you care me, but your actions make me feel like you are same with my parent. I just want my way. I hope you stand my by side and support me, you know what I really want right?


I love you.

Goodnight.

Ideas Please...

I want to go back Penang this weekend!!! I don't want to stay alone here.

Desperately wanted to go back, but my parent not allowed, even I go back, I also have no place to stay. I just don't want to stay alone here. T.T

I miss my dear, I miss Penang, I miss everything of Penang. It likes sealed on my deep heart, can't just take it off.

Find a place and let me stay for this weekend!!!

I'm so sad for my parent's attitude. My heart is pain, I can't even hide my feeling inside my heart, parent disagree my action. I know it is not the the first time, but I really so sad about it. They never understand what am I thinking about.

I really don't want to stay here for lonely weekend. Give me some ideas okay? I want to go back my hometown!!!


T.T

Crying. Sad.

I still came back.

I just came back from Penang, feel bad now. I don't really like Subang actually, thinking to go back on this coming weekend secretly ( without notice by parent ).

The thing was happened again, I cried before, when, after I left, on dear's shoulder and chest. My tears dropped, together with family problems. Why I must come back early? I don't like to stay at Subang!!! I just want to keep more time in Penang. But they never understand.

My heart broken, I know dear heard it, it is painful for me, same to dear.

On the way to Subang just now, I was thinking something negative, related to dear, I know I shouldn't do it, but I really feel unsafe.

Dear, don't just let go whatever you promised me, I will sad. My heart is broken, it can't be broken for 1 more time.

We keep our promises, because I love him no matter what.

I miss dear a lot.

H1N1, Scary

Let me ask you, do you scare about A (H1N1) Virus?

I'm Taylorian, as you all know it. But... Something made me scream this evening, my collage got H1N1!!! OMG!!! So scary.

Everyone is wearing mask to college, even though they are not sick. As we knew, most of the Malaysian will not do any protection or prevention before something serious happened, but now everyone is wearing the cute mask. Hahaha...


Actually I wore it long long time ago, the photo that i took while I was at Penang Airport as above. But that time everyone treated me as a monster, wtf!!!

To protect ourselves and also our beloved family and friends, we should do a lot of prevention start from now, actually we should do it long time ago. Hehehe.... But we are Malaysian what? Hahahaha...

I'm look so happy, although i'm sick now. XD

Anyway, just take good care of your and ourselves la. We should try to stop the virus pervading, not to let the virus keep around us.



Yea, I know you love me too.


xoxo

Go away!!!

No way!!! Stupid fever was came back again last night. I feel hot and dizzy right now.

Get sore throat also, not bad, and falling into bad mood again. Sick, makes me suffer a lot.

Anyway, waiting for my dear to text me, because he just informed me that he is landed.

I think I need some medicine!!!

Go away!!! Stupid fever!!!

p/s: I do miss my dear this whole day.



Bb

Sunday

Sunday Sunday!!! Should be a lot of activities today, but i just having gastric at hostel. What to do? Just keep resting.

My fever has gone, but I still feel not well, i'm crying still. My tears keep coming out from my eyes. No way for me to stop it. Maybe I shouldn't say i'm crying, it should be teared all the time.

I'm waiting for someone this whole day, but there is no even a call or message... Don't worry, I just feel disappointed.

I'll be alright.


xoxo

Unchangeable

Today is my first Saturday in Subang, feel weird, because last Saturday I was together with my friends at QE II Penang for my farewell party.

Times went even faster, there were one week that I stayed at Subang. I miss my friends, I miss Penang, especially the food...

Everyone was smiling, no cries, no tears last weekend. We spent for party happily, yea, we were enjoyed it much, the music, the environment made us comfortable. No stress at all.

Party made us closer

I love you dear, yes I know you love me too. XD

We are very appreciate the time when we together, even though just a minute. 2 years, it can be long, but it also can be short, at least we love each other.

I come out with different advices and views everyday, trying to show myself or even dear that the next day will be fresher. We are trying, keep trying all the while, to make everything lasting.

Since we built up the relationship, then we should keep it lasting. Although sometimes we argued still, but just took it as a part of life, we learnt a lot from it. And it makes us stronger to face the next happening.

Love won't be fade away easily, because we love each other, the love is still there...

I shout out again!!! I love you dear, this is how I feel right now. It is a fact, unchangeable...


p/s: Friday comes faster, I miss my dear and home.


Muackss...